Brand new, here. Never lurked. I am a 46 y.o. white, married, criminal defense attorney. I have 3 kids. Going all the way back to high school, I have had bi-sexual tendencies. My sexual preferences are interesting in that when it comes to women, I like thin, pretty women. Blondes were always my favorite, but, really, any hair color will do. I have had a lifetime of women that ended when I started to date my now wife 14 years ago. She has been the only women in my life that I have remained faithful to (sort of-I've cheated on her twice: once several years ago when I met a guy on CL [of all places], got into a one night email exchange, had him come to my office, blew him and never saw him again; the other infidelity happened twice this week and is the subject of this post).
I absolutely love having sex with women. I always have. My wife and I have 3 kids, the youngest being 4 and, so, for the last few years, our sex life has basically been reduced to sex once or twice a week. I can't complain as our sex life is just wonderful. We are each, almost always, able to make the other orgasm (well, she always makes me orgasm, I'm about 80% successful with her). Still, there are nights that I am in the mood and she, simply, is too tired. It's Ok and I understand it and it has nothing to do with my recent escapades.
I have been with a grand total of 5 guys in my life. I have sucked their cocks but, only once, let them suck mine. I am only attracted to a very specific type of guy. Guys that are, presumably straight and masculine looking and acting, thinner, 18-28, with blonde hair. Sometimes, I will find a brown haired or even red headed guy attractive, but, that is rare.
I am a very dominant person. I had to take care of my parents from the time I was around 16. I put myself through college and law school while supporting my parents. My job requires me to be assertive. Probably for all those reasons, I am a closet submissive. Nearly all my fantasies (with guys and women) involve me being submissive.
I was with 3 guys, on several occasions, from high school through college. The 4th guy was the CL guy (a one time thing) and now I have been with my 5th. This is a true story and it something that I think is ongoing, but, I don't know, because this is all kind of new to me and somewhat confusing.
Wednesday night, I was in night court. It's not like you see on TV. It basically occurs from 5:00 p.m to 8:00 p.m. or so and mainly there are hearings on traffic cases (No License, DUI, speed, etc.) I had a few cases, resolved them and was getting ready to leave when I heard a man's voice pleading with the prosecutor. I went in the prosecutor's office to pick up my brief case and saw a guy, about 30, with blond hair, trying to explain to the prosecutor how it had been a mistake that his driver's license was suspended (an insurance mix up). The prosecutor wanted to hear none of it and told the guy to either get a lawyer or get a trial date set and represent himself.
I notice that the guy had on work type boots, somewhat dirty jeans and a blue t shirt. He looked like he worked construction and had just got off work. I have to say, I found him very attractive. Well, I went outside the court house, saw an old client, had a cigarette and talked to the client. As we were concluding our talk, I saw the blonde guy come out. He was sort of angry and he lit a cigarette. He asked if I was a lawyer, I told him I was. My old client left and the blonde guy started to tell me how frustrated he was. He explained to me how the insurance company didn't properly report his insurance to the BMV and the BMV suspended him. He didn't realize it until he got stepped for a headlight violation. He called the insurance company, they admitted it was their fault, sent the insurance info the State BMV and the State reinstated his license.
The prosecutor wanted him to plead guilty to driving on a suspended license, pay a large fine and be on probation. I knew the prosecutor hated dealing with unrepresented clients. The blonde guy said his name was Rick, that he had a wife and 3 kids and was barely making ends meet and didn't have money for a lawyer. He was afraid though that if he went to trial, he'd lose and end up in jail. He also didn't have money for a big fine. As he talked, I noticed that my cock was slightly stiff. I kept sneaking glances at his groin area and I don't know, something about him being close to me was turning me on. I told him I would help him, went back in, talked to the prosecutor and got him to dismiss the charge. It really had been the insurance company's fault and I lied to the prosecutor and told him that Rick had paid me a retainer.
Well, Rick was ecstatic. Couldn't thank me enough. That was that, or so I thought. I gave him my card and went back to the office to get my files for the next morning. As I pulled in, I noticed Rick behind me. He had a quick question to ask about whether he had a claim against his insurance company. I brought him in the office and, basically told him to just let it go and chalk it up as a bad experience. He wanted to try to pay me something but asked if he could pay a little every couple weeks. I told him it wasn't necessary, it had been my pleasure.
Now, I figured he was going to leave and I felt a pit in my stomach. I can't tell you how attracted I was to this guy. I couldn't, in the office, keep my eyes off his groin area and mouth. He had a gorgeous mouth and body and was fucking good looking. I also couldn't stop looking at his work shoes, there was a hole on the top of one of his shoes. I have an incredible foot fetish and kept thinking about his feet. Even his dirty jeans turned me on.
He insisted that I allow him to pay me something and he said he wouldn't leave until we worked something out. I honestly don't know what came over me, I don't know if I was just tired (it was near 8:00 p.m. and I had been in different courts nearly all day) or I was that horny. I said maybe there was something he could do instead of paying me. I asked if he was a handy man and he said he was. I showed him some things in the office that needed fixed. He said he would and could do them. One area was in the office kitchen, the ice maker on the refrigerator was broke. He was looking at the water line and asked if I had tools. I handed him a small tool chest I kept in the office. As I did, I brushed his hand with mine and I felt my cock tighten in my underwear. He was working/looking in the freezer and I was behind him, staring at his ass. I went to the freezer to pretend I was looking at what he was doing, but, really, I wanted to "accidentally" brush his ass with my hand. I did. I got harder still.
While he worked on things, I pulled some beers out of the refrigerator and we each drank 2 or 3. I was getting drunk and hornier. At one point, he dropped a screwdriver and I knelt down to pick it up. He turned toward me and his groin was right near my face. I dropped the screwdriver and said, "Forget the repairs, I want something else." I couldn't believe I had said it. He looked confused and asked what I meant. I was still on my knees in front of him and I reached and touched his groin area with my hand.
It was like a light bulb went on in his head and he pushed me back. He started to leave and I said, "Please, wait, I'm sorry." He stopped. "Please," I said. "Why would you say that shit," he asked, "Are you a fag?" I told him, "No, I'm married, I .... I'm sorry, I just....." It was very awkward. I didn't know what else to say but I needed, fucking needed, to suck his cock. I told him, "I'm sorry, I'm bisexual .... or I am sometime. I'll make it worth your while."
He glared at me. I told him, "I can help you man. You know, I can help you out a little, you said money's tight....." He looked like he wanted to hit me. But, then, he said, "Help me with some cash, what?" I nodded my head. I reached in my pocket, pulled out 3 $100 bills and handed them to him. He stared at them and then took them in his hand.
He sat in a chair, looked at me and said, "I've never been with ....." Before he could say another word, I had buried my head in his crotch and was open mouth kissing his cock through his jeans.
More in a bit.