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    Re: Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

    Jess' Story
    I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
    Chapter 13, Part I

    From Jess' viewpoint

    To understand how I felt when Paul said he liked to read stories at JustUsBoys, you have to understand how I felt before he said it.

    Remember that Paul and I had just shared a load of my cum. I’ve done a lot of stuff with a lot of guys and girls, but somehow cumming in my mouth had always been a private thing. It had never even occurred to me to do it with someone.

    Sure Billy and Justin and H.R. and even his boyfriend had all seen me do it. But even then it was something I did with . . . no, did for myself. It was me taking care of me in a world where no one else ever seemed to want to take care of my needs.

    With Paul it was like everything had changed. He did care about me and what I liked. What I wanted. What I needed. Or at least he seemed to.

    When I felt his tongue join mine as I licked my hard smooth cockhead, it was like electricity running between us. To feel him licking my nuts as I sucked my cock. His warm mouth sucking in one nut and then the other. To feel his tongue caressing my cock. It made me feel so good. So connected. At last I was really connected to someone. It’s like his doing this for me validated all the time we had spent talking and getting to know each other. It changed everything.

    When I felt my cum starting to churn and knew I would cum soon, my mind was thinking I’d cum in my mouth. But then I realized I could cum in both of our mouths. I could really share this with him the way he was sharing with me. Or at least the way I thought he was sharing.

    Then we were kissing. Sharing my cum again. So close. So bonded So much like becoming one . . .

    I don’t know how to explain it but it was like the first time our high school swim team had won the regional state championship. Something happened when we won that last race that like bonded us together. When we all hugged each other beside that pool, we were connected as never before. We all knew it.

    I was bonded with Paul that way. It was a shared experience unlike any I’d ever had with a guy. OK, so it was kind of like that the night I asked Billy and Justin to each show me what it was like to be fucked by a guy. It was kinda like one of those moments. But I’d known even as Justin first tried to gently work his monster into my hole that he was doing it as a favor for me. Not exactly pity sex, but not so far from it either. After all, he was only doing it because I all but begged him to. Billy was more enthusiastic, but still it was nothing like this.

    I could completely sense how important this was to Paul. It felt like I was changing his whole life. Maybe mine too. It just felt like we were completely in sync in everything.

    It wasn’t just the sex, but it didn’t hurt that we were swapping my load of cum back and forth. Our tongues playing in it. Our bodies sweaty as they writhed against each other in the aftermath of my fucking best cum in probably forever.

    At that moment I felt that I somehow knew everything about Paul I ever needed to know. It had confirmed all I had felt as we’d spent most of yesterday together doing pretty much nothing at all.

    So we were lying there face to face. Naked. My mind felt like it was melding with his like in one of those sci-fi stories.

    Then suddenly he said something about reading porn. My guts cramped up as all the fears and terrors that my nightmare caused came crashing down on me. Only in real life, it wasn’t my mother who knew . . . but Paul.

    It may be completely illogical, but when I realized that he might have read my story on JUB, my guts almost exploded. My thoughts cringed in the back of my brain. My body . . . I couldn’t even move.

    Immediately my brain told me that Paul couldn’t possibly connect me to that story even if he had read it. H.R. had gone over that with us so many times. He’d taken every precaution. I should have been able to reassure myself. But just like when I had my nightmare, I couldn’t control the fears and doubts. The guilt. The shame.

    I don’t know how I found the strength to ask, but I had to ask, “Do you have a site where you like to read it?” Maybe I was hoping he’d say something other than JUB. Maybe I just asked because I couldn’t stop myself.

    It was like I was in freefall from the greatest moment of my life to the worst. I guess it didn’t really matter what I asked. I was falling and couldn’t seem to stop.

    “Have you ever heard of JustUsBoys?” he asked.

    That’s when I hit the bottom. Hard. Like it knocked the wind out of me.

    I knew I should answer, but I couldn’t speak. I tried to open my mouth to answer, but I couldn’t seem to make it work. I tried to nod my head yes, but my head just fell kind of to the side.

    Suddenly my mind was overpowered by the memory of Paul standing in front the picture of me that Justin had drawn. Paul staring at my cum-splattered body. Oh, fuck me!

    Then my mind raced off in a new direction. A couple of little things he had said ran through my head in rapid succession: “I’ve read how sweet your pre-cum is. I dreamed of tasting it.” . . . “It’s sweet like I thought it would be.” . . . And Paul staring at that picture of me saying, “Justin must be a really good friend.” The words echoed in my head. I thought I was going to be sick.

    He knew about Justin and the picture. He knew about my pre-cum. He must have known I could suck myself off. He’d planned it all. It was an elaborate scam. He knew all about me. Everything! He was playing me. Tricking me into shit. This was some sort of game to him.

    I panicked. I scrambled out of bed. Found my shorts. Pulled them on. My head was reeling. I didn’t really know what I was doing or why. I just knew I needed to get away from this.

    I just remember thinking, I’ve gotta go. I bolted from the room grabbing a T-shirt and I was gone. I was out in the parking lot before I realized I was barefoot. But I couldn’t go back. I just started to run. The T-shirt still clutched in my hand.

    I know I ended up in a grassy area on campus near the administration building. I was completely winded and confused and scared. I don’t remember thinking about anything. I must have sat there a long time because it was almost dark by the time I got back to my place. I remember how hungry I was. I guess I hadn’t eaten all day.

    I probably should have tried to figure out if Paul was still there, but it didn’t even occur to me that he could be.

    When I got inside I found a note from him:

    Jess

    I had a really great time. Actually it was a lot better than great. It was the best. I can’t thank you enough for making my first time so special. You couldn’t have treated me any better than you did. I’ll never forget it. You are the best!

    I am sorry you had to leave so fast. I sure hope everything is OK with you. I’ll call you later. Maybe we can get together this evening. I’ll be hanging out at my place.

    Thanks again. Paul

    I reached down with every intention of crumbling up the note, but somehow I just couldn’t. It made me so sad. I could feel what he was trying to tell me and I wanted to tell him the same thing.

    But I couldn’t forget that he knew and he didn’t tell me. He led me on. Played me. I reached toward the paper again, but there was like this struggle inside me that wanted me to hate him, fear him, drive him away. And one that wanted me to hold him and . . . That’s when I started to cry. I cried for a very long time.

    Finally I was all cried out. I walked into the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. My eyes were puffy and red. I looked like I hadn’t slept in days. Even my skin looked like shit.

    Finally I climbed in the shower and let the warm water run over me till it turned cold. I dried myself off and went and sat on my bed. I couldn’t help but look at the disheveled sheets. With their obvious cum stains. Our cum stains. Me and Paul all mixed together.

    I ripped them off the bed and threw them on the floor. Then I sat on the stripped bed and I called H.R.

    I remember him saying, “I hear you. I hear what you’re saying. But I don’t think he could possibly know even if he did read the project. We’ve been through this a millions times. He can’t know.

    “Yeah, I know the picture is a big clue we didn’t figure on, but even that doesn’t make the link. Think about it. Think what he saw. Think what I wrote about you guys. How does he make the connection? He can’t. It’s just a coincidence. You met a guy who read your story and you're falling in . . . OK. OK. So you're not. It just seems like you’re really into this guy and if you are then don’t let this stop you.

    “OK, let’s assume he does know. So what’s the harm? . . . Wait! Just wait! So he didn’t tell you that he knew who you were. So face it, you haven’t been completely honest about who you are either. When he said he read shit on JUB you didn’t say, ‘Oh I have a fuck story about me posted there.’ . . . Well, you had every opportunity to tell him. . . . I know you were scared and upset. . . . I’m just telling you I think you’re over-reacting.”

    I hung up really pissed at H.R. It seemed to me he was taking Paul’s side. Fuck him!

    About a minute later my phone rang. I checked and it was Paul. I let it ring.

    It was the next morning before I checked my messages. Paul had texted me twice. The first one thanked me again for “a wonderful time”. The second said he was checking to see if I was OK. I ignored them

    Actually I did my best to ignore thinking about Paul at all. It upset me and it confused me. I was mad, angry, scared and sad. All in no particular order. Just a mess of feelings whirling around in my head and stomach.

    It had been about 10 days since that night we’d spent together. Paul had stopped texting me daily after the first four days.

    I was so depressed about the whole thing. I’d stopped trying to figure out what had happened and just accepted that it had. My little JUB project had bitten me in the ass big time. The first guy I thought I might have really made it with and it was all fucked up because of that stupid story.

    I was taking a shower playing with my cock a little for the first time in maybe almost a week. My soapy hand couldn’t ignore it. Or more precisely, my cock wouldn’t let my soapy hand ignore it. I hadn’t been getting myself off much for some reason since . . . since Paul.

    I guess I was horny. Anyway I was rock hard in seconds. I didn’t want to rush this. I was horny but I needed some me time. I needed to do this nice and slow. I deserved that much. Just me and my cock getting reacquainted.

    I was slow stroking, feeling the warm comfort of my familiar hand wrapped around my aching cock. I closed my eyes and could almost see my hand stroking my cock as clearly as when my eyes were open. But with my eyes closed, it felt better. Getting myself off all alone. The warm water on my back. That aching need in my cock and nuts. The silky feel of my soapy hand against my hard, throbbing cock.

    But somehow, without realizing it at first, in my mind my hand became Paul’s hand. It was Paul slow stroking my cock. Making it feel so good. It was that first time again. In my bed. Lying naked between his legs as he stroked me off for the first time. I could feel the warmth of his face beside mine. Feel his hard cock pressing behind me. Smell his manly odor as he . . . Oh, this was so good! So much better than I’d ever . . .

    My nuts were getting tight. My breathing raggedly. I wanted to cum so bad. I wanted to be held and loved and . . . Ohhhh, fuck. I came so hard. Cum spraying on my chest and abs. On the shower wall.

    I kept stroking as my orgasm seemed to go on and on. And all the while Paul was wrapped around me. Stroking me. Making me feel so good.

    I opened my eyes. Alone in the shower. Cum on my hand. On my body. On the wall. I didn’t want to be there alone anymore. I closed my eyes, but I couldn’t conjure back that image I had just enjoyed. I started to cry again for the second time.

    At last I pulled myself together and was getting ready for class when my phone rang. Without thinking, I picked it up and answered it.

    “Jess?” a sort of timid, shy voice said. I didn’t recognize it.

    “Yeah, who’s this?”

    “It’s me, Paul.”

    I almost hung up, but instead stood frozen, my phone to my ear.

    “Are you still there?” Paul finally asked.

    “What?” I asked, surprised by how flat my own voice sounded.

    “I’ve . . . I’ve missed you and hoped . . .” There was a long pause. “ . . . hoped you’d talk to me. I really want to talk to you. I think we need to talk.”

    “About what?” I asked, again in that flat voice I didn’t recognize as my own.

    “About us. About what’s happened. I think I must have upset you and I’m sorry. Can we please talk?”

    “You’re damn right you upset me. So what do you want to say? Say it now.” I was suddenly angry.

    “Can’t I talk to you . . . face to face?”

    “Tell me what you have to say, or I’m hanging up and that’s the end of it!”

    There was a long pause.

    “I should have told you right away, but I didn’t know how. I know who you are. I know about your story. I’ve read it. And I think I love you.”

    I remember it was like a bullet piercing my brain. Pain. The words actually hurt. My head hurt and I felt dizzy. I think I hung up without saying anything. Just hung up. I’m not proud of that moment, but that’s what I did. Paul said he loved me and I hung up the phone.

    To Be Continued . . .

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    Re: Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

    Hi! This is my first post in this board, so feel honored :P I've been reading your story for a couple days, I'm currently on Book 1, chapter 19. I think it was a wonderful idea for Jess, Billy and Justin to write about your experiences, you must have a great deal of trust within each other to pull it off. Hardreader, you're doing a great job on pulling their emotions into a book; you managed to make me (and a lot of other readers, I guess) feel and care for the characters, and knowing it all happened AND that they're around, it makes for the most vivid reading experience I've ever had. The different views in each chapter were a brilliant idea as well! You could make a best-seller out of this, seriously.

    A special note to Justin, you're so, so sweet, I want my boyfriend to be like you . I hope you're still on the cast as I write this! I should tell you though, I'd work on the spelling of your posts, sometimes I couldn't figure out what you were saying

    Keep up the good job

    P.S.: I'm not checking for latest comments until I'm done reading (don't want to risk spoiling the story xD), so if any of you reply to this post, please PM me your reply

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    The stars just never seem to line up for Jess. Something always goes awry.

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    Oh that first moment you hear that 3 word phrase. It is a dragger of sorts. One that you dont expect and dont have an answer for when you first hear it.

    I remember mine with Zach. I ran from it, i beat around the bush. He jsut kept saying it. I knew that i felt the same about him, but i was scared to say it back. He was the frist guy (and only) that i could say it to and be honest.

    "I love you" The phrase is so powerful that it can shatter the strongest of men.

    Im cant say that i know what you must have felt Jess, when you found out that Paul knew who you were. I have met people that asked me to. It is strange, the only thing that we could seem to talk about was what i wrote. that was the basis that they went off. What they knew about me was 4 years old. They only thing that is the same about me from 4 years is my love for zach and my family. I really only have one friend from highschool. Everyone else has moved away or stopped talking to me.

    Jess you are an amazing guy, No-one can blame you for being scared. Being in that situation, any guy would be. Hell i might even had been mad at HR for someone finding out after he told me so many times that no-one ever could.

    Pual, you are great also and lucky to have shared that moment with jess. To be the first one he shared that moment with. It is one thing to watch it, it is another to be a part of it.

    I most go now, i have to acutally got back to work in the moring. I got one day of rest after getting back. .....sigh.....
    "If I have to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU."

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    OMG, I can't believe that's what happened after such a wonderful chapter preceded it. I guess that's how we know this is real life after all...

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    Jess, this chapter tells me so much about you. I can't blame you for feeling afraid, confused, angry, and shocked that someone you were beginning to love had just discovered your most personal secret. I was disappointed in how you handled your emotions, but then again this was a tough time for you. The fact that you had cried alone speaks volumes about the flood of emotions that were just about drowning you. The emotions you felt in the last chapter gave me enough confidence to say that you did overcome this eventually- with Paul and HR's help no doubt.

    Paul, you are a really nice friend I'm sure. Through all of this, not once did you accuse Jess of anything, nor did you show any resentment about it. You were concerned for your new friend/lover Jess, and you just wanted to help him deal with what he was going through. Jess is lucky to have someone as supporting as you are.

    HR, I must say it- you are very much a part of this story, and you shouldn't think otherwise. From the many times I've been able to chat with you, I've gathered enough to know that you are a great friend and that you are a very helpful/ giving person. Your relationships with all the characters in ITIK may be more of a backstage sort of thing, but you still have a crucial role. Without you, I'm not sure Jess and Paul would even know each other. A lot of things would be different, and nowhere near as good, if you weren't as involved as you are. You are probably the most influential character in the story, even though it's only just becoming apparent in what you've written. I look forward to chapters with you more involved, hopefully .

    As always, I loved this chapter. So what that it wasn't full of sex. Is life always about bunnies and unicorns? No. It's nice to know that story includes the individual development of each character as a person beyond the wild random sex . I'm just happy I have the privilege to learn from the collective experiences of everyone involved in ITIK. It truly has been a blessing and a very enlightening experience for me to read about everyone's developments in the story. I'm glad all of you involved (including HR and HR's bf) have been willing to contribute and allow the story to grow. Great job everyone.

    I agree with WildBeast that you could have an amazing, best-selling series from the ITIK books. Just find the right publisher someday .

    P.S.

    You could DEFINITELY say I was "wondering" what you guys were saying . Btw Billy, HR was right lol . As for your "awesome time"- BIGGEST UNDERSTATEMENT EVER!!! You guys are awesome and soooooo lucky .

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    I had a feeling something like this would happen. There was a feeling of dread at the end of the last chapter. Even though we know that you and Paul do get through this rough time, still.....

    While I can't say I know how you felt Jess, I can understand why you felt the way you did. I'd call and blame HR too in a fit of rage and confusion. Now that I have a mini story out there too, I'm a little worried that I'm going to be found out even though I made sure to cover my tracks there are still little bread crumbs that could link me to that story. Also I'd be in shock too if someone told me that they loved me when they only know me from a story the read and only spending one day with me. Those words should never be said nor taken lightly. This is the first chapter that didn't get me off...I don't think it was meant to....I was too absorbed into your feelings I didn't even think to touch myself. To go from bliss to chaos in the blink of an eye...that only serves to prove what can go wrong, will go wrong. But I'm glad that everything turned out right for you and Paul.

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    Quote Originally Posted by rain09 View Post

    P.S.

    You could DEFINITELY say I was "wondering" what you guys were saying . Btw Billy, HR was right lol . As for your "awesome time"- BIGGEST UNDERSTATEMENT EVER!!! You guys are awesome and soooooo lucky .
    LOL I know right? They are waaayy beyond lucky!

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    Quote Originally Posted by PerpetuallyHard312 View Post
    Now that I have a mini story out there too, I'm a little worried that I'm going to be found out even though I made sure to cover my tracks there are still little bread crumbs that could link me to that story. Paul.
    So long as it's not some weirdo, I wouldn't mind if someone picked up on these breadcrumbs I leave around. With me it's a little more than that. I'm practically painting a trail of arrows sometimes, then the next day partially covering some of them.

    I'm not so worried about my privacy as I used to be, because it can be a worthy risk...but I make sure that whatever I post on here, I post b/c I'm not ashamed of it.It can make for a fun conversation when you bring it up. I've bought it up a few times with people...haha. Idk if I should have, but oh well .

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    Dear Jess,
    Wow. I knew you were frightened to death of what might happen if someone you knew (i.e. your mom) found you out. I also knew that there was a lot of tension at the conclusion of the last chapter before Christmas.

    I didn't think you'd bolt quite the way you did, though.

    I feel your/Paul's anxiety re: being afraid of what the other is thinking.
    I have gotten too close to some guys who weren't that way, and I let myself march on in not quite blindly, but under a compulsion, only to be shattered, which I knew was coming before it happened.

    Yes, we have the benefit of hindsight that you're still together, collaborating on this project, and other endeavors, too, but I wonder how long it took for Paul's simple sincerity to ring through to you, past all of your barricades - the simple "I think I Love You" that closed your call?

    I'm sure we will find out in the ensuing chapters but, while that may slake OUR thirst for knowledge, it doesn't do anything for the Hell YOU and PAUL went through until you got back on track.

    I'm so glad you came to your senses, let go of your shear panic and rage(?), and finally connected with Paul.

    There are a lot of "kids" on here who are like rudderless ships - they know what they think they want, but are frightened, or life circumstances have made their immediate positions absolute shit.

    None of you should have to deal with such heavy loads at your tender ages. You should all be able to meet life with sunshine, smiles, and good friends and family who love you and care for you. You should be free to do some of that exploring both of yourselves and the big world around you, safe knowing that you have a safety net should you fall.

    I'm glad you've found each other. I hope that you are becoming each other's safety net and more.

    Take care.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    Love you guys .... Love your honesty ... Live Life to the Full! Face it head on! You have a huge store of Love and support here ... Keep smilin'!!!

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    I cant't believe how nice all your comments are. I thought guys would hate this chapter and me. HR and I didnt even want to talk about it over Christmas break. It wasn't my best move for sure hanging up on Paul like that, but most of you seem to understand what I was going through. I wish I could have read all you wrote when it really happened. I want to thank each of you for what you said.

    It's funny that we just talked about some of you guys when we were at HR's for New Year Eve. And you were the most understanding, especially rain and Perpetually Hard and Tim White. And Don Quixote, your's was nice too.

    Tim, I'd love to talk to you about what you went through and your right that "I love you" is such a powerful thing to say. I handle it better now.

    Thanks everyone for always being so nice. I guess I should try harder to be nice too, especially to Paul. He's the best!

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    Thank you Jess, for sharing your life like it's an open book. It's easy to relate to being young and confused and hurt because we've all been there so we all understand. I also just wanna say that I know it must have been really hard on Paul too, since you were his first and then it seemed like you basically called it quits on him. I thank both of you for letting us see that it's not all hot sex and good times. Thanks for keeping it real.

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    We could never hate you, Jess. Many of us have been around since ITIK 1, where we developed an immediate soft spot for you. I know I speak for others when I just want to give you a .

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    I'm Lovin' this even more than before!! It's very rare that we get a chance to be privy to the thoughts and impressions behind others' actions. Most often we are only afforded the Surface of what is being said, seen, and done. Getting to know what's really/truly going on Inside the heads, within those eyes/faces/bodies, adds a much Richer Dimension to what's happening!

    THANK YOU!, HR, Jess, Paul, Everyone!!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    I never expected all these comments. It is hard to believe how many nice things you guys are saying. And on top of this I got five PMs. All but one of them was really nice too. So this is a big day for me.
    HR and I are already hard at work on the next part. I guess HR is doing most of the work. I just tell him when he gets it wrong. Thanks from both Paul and me.

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    Jess, you are such a nice dude. Paul too. I'm glad that you guys work through this and it's obvious how much you two love each other. Thanks for leaving a comment for us to read, and such a nice one at that. I wonder if we'll get to hear from Paul too before the next chapter gets posted? *hint, hint* LOL. HR, I haven't forgotten about you man. Your heart is bigger than you let on. Have a great weekend fellas, take care!

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    The comments posted to last week's episode were some of the smartest and best I have seen since this project began. We got insightful advice from readers and respectful replies from Jess. I also happen to know that there were a lot of behind-the-scenes PMs flying back and forth. And from what I hear they were as good or even better than what was posted here, although by pretty much the same cast of characters.

    But my job is to answer the mail, not critique it. So here it goes:


    WildBeast -- "Hi! This is my first post in this board, so feel honored :P I've been reading your story for a couple days, I'm currently on Book 1, chapter 19. I think it was a wonderful idea for Jess, Billy and Justin to write about your experiences, you must have a great deal of trust within each other to pull it off. Hardreader, you're doing a great job on pulling their emotions into a book; you managed to make me (and a lot of other readers, I guess) feel and care for the characters, and knowing it all happened AND that they're around, it makes for the most vivid reading experience I've ever had. The different views in each chapter were a brilliant idea as well!" It is so good to welcome another new fan to the series. Eventually, WildBeast, you'll catch up with your reading and then we'll be saying, 'Welcome, WildBeast!'

    thermodynamics -- "The stars just never seem to line up for Jess. Something always goes awry" So you noticed too!

    TimWhite07 -- "Oh that first moment you hear that 3 word phrase. It is a dragger of sorts. One that you dont expect and dont have an answer for when you first hear it. . . . "I love you" The phrase is so powerful that it can shatter the strongest of men . . . Jess you are an amazing guy, No-one can blame you for being scared. Being in that situation, any guy would be. Hell i might even had been mad at HR for someone finding out after he told me so many times that no-one ever could. Paul, you are great also and lucky to have shared that moment with jess. To be the first one he shared that moment with. It is one thing to watch it, it is another to be a part of it." Very smart words. You're wise beyond your years. BTW happy birthday a little late.

    rain09 -- "Jess, this chapter tells me so much about you. I can't blame you for feeling afraid, confused, angry, and shocked that someone you were beginning to love had just discovered your most personal secret. I was disappointed in how you handled your emotions, but then again this was a tough time for you. The fact that you had cried alone speaks volumes about the flood of emotions that were just about drowning you." You should know that of all the words written about this episode, Jess tells me that yours touched him the most.

    PerpetuallyHard312 -- "While I can't say I know how you felt Jess, I can understand why you felt the way you did. I'd call and blame HR too in a fit of rage and confusion. Now that I have a mini story out there too, I'm a little worried that I'm going to be found out even though I made sure to cover my tracks there are still little bread crumbs that could link me to that story. Also I'd be in shock too if someone told me that they loved me when they only know me from a story the read and only spending one day with me. Those words should never be said nor taken lightly." I think the two of you are very much in sync.

    DonQuixote -- "Wow. I knew you were frightened to death of what might happen if someone you knew (i.e. your mom) found you out. I also knew that there was a lot of tension at the conclusion of the last chapter before Christmas. I didn't think you'd bolt quite the way you did, though." When your sky is falling, sometimes it best to run.

    bodhi1 -- "Love you guys .... Love your honesty ... Live Life to the Full! Face it head on! You have a huge store of Love and support here ... Keep smilin'!!!" Thanks, bodhi!

    BADgreek -- "Thank you Jess, for sharing your life like it's an open book. It's easy to relate to being young and confused and hurt because we've all been there so we all understand. I also just wanna say that I know it must have been really hard on Paul too, since you were his first and then it seemed like you basically called it quits on him. I thank both of you for letting us see that it's not all hot sex and good times. Thanks for keeping it real." This is one of the reasons I love writing real stories about real guys. Keeping it real is never a problem.

    Kyanimal -- "I'm Lovin' this even more than before!! It's very rare that we get a chance to be privy to the thoughts and impressions behind others' actions. Most often we are only afforded the Surface of what is being said, seen, and done. Getting to know what's really/truly going on Inside the heads, within those eyes/faces/bodies, adds a much Richer Dimension to what's happening!" This is very high praise coming from you, Chaz.

    I'll be posting the latest episode from Jess tomorrow, assuming all goes well. Until then, stay happy. And stay hard!
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    We are indebted to Hardreader for his excellent stories and I am sure that all his fans will be looking forward to the new one he has promised!



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    Please remember to leave us a link to the new story, so we can find it from Here!

    And ... now ... cuddling up, and hunkering down, to wait for the next from Jess, Paul, and HR!

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    Jess' Story
    I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
    Chapter 13, Part II

    From Jess' viewpoint

    I felt like I had been hit in the gut twice. First Paul tells me he knows all about “I Thought I Knew” and then he has the nerve to tell me he’s in love with me. After only one night together!

    My mind was so fucked up by it that I really couldn’t process all the emotions and anger and fear that were tearing me apart. I literally had to sit down and catch my breath. But I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest hurt. I felt too weak to stand up. I was a mess.

    Even in all that confusion, I knew I should call H.R. and tell him that I was right. Paul knew. As mad as I was at H.R., I didn’t need to rub his face in it, but he needed to know that his security plan had failed. It sure as hell had failed me anyway.

    It took me about an hour to settle down enough that I could make the call. When H.R. answered I didn’t say anything except, “He knows. He told me so.”

    “What does he know?” H.R. all but demanded to know. His tone made me even angrier, but I didn’t say anything to him about it. I told him the little bit Paul said before I had hung up on him.

    “Well, you have to call him back and ask him how he figured it out. Meet with him if you have to,” H.R. said as if he was talking to one of his lackeys.

    “You call him and ask. I’m not calling him. He lied to me.”

    “What did he lie about?” H.R. asked, his tone still demanding.

    “Well, not exactly lied, but he didn’t tell me the truth.”

    “The guy just told you he loved you. How much truth do you need?”

    “He doesn’t even know me,” I said. “We’ve known each other for like a day or two. We spent one night together and already he says he’s in love with me.”

    “Well, if he is a big fan of ‘I Thought I Knew' he probably thinks he does know you. Either way, you have to call him. And the sooner the better.”

    We both fell silent.

    “Jess, just do it. Please. For all of us. It’s not just for you, you know.”

    H.R. finally wore me down and I promised to call Paul that afternoon. I’d missed one class already. I might as well blow the entire day. I couldn’t concentrate in class anyway and I sure didn’t want to see anyone. Or for anyone to see me.

    Finally I got myself together and called Paul back. I was pretty calm, but mostly hoping he was in class or something and wouldn’t answer. I had thought through what I would say if I had to leave a message. I sort of knew what I was gonna say if he actually answered.

    Fuck me! He answered saying, “I didn’t think you’d call. I am so sorry.”

    He sounded so sincere. So sad. I could picture his face. His soft lips turned down in a frown. His eyelids drooping. His hair disheveled.

    I suddenly couldn’t remember what I had planned to say. The sound of his voice had thrown me off. It just sucked me in and all my thoughts crumbled to dust, leaving me . . . speechless.

    “Jess . . . Are you there?”

    I still hadn’t spoken.

    “Mhmm” I managed. “I . . .” I needed to think. What did I want to say? Then as quickly as my thoughts had vanished, they were back. It all clicked into place again.

    “I have two thing I need to tell you. One, don’t tell me you love me again. Don’t even try to tell me you know me. Trust me, you don’t. You can’t. And two, how did you figure out it was me? That I was Jess? The Jess in the story? If we’re gonna have any chance at ever being friends again, I have to know exactly how you figured it out.”

    “Can I come over? I can explain it all to you. Just let me come over and tell you.”

    I’d thought he might try that and I’d decided there was no way I could see him. Not right now. Not the way I felt.

    “I can be there in like 15 minutes and explain everything,” he said and paused waiting for my answer. I struggled to form the words. “Please,” he added in a tone that shattered my reserve.

    “OK,” I said, my stomach tightening. I took a deep breath. “But just to talk and then you have to go.”

    “See you in 15,” Paul said and I heard him hang up. I left my cell up against my ear. Listening to silence. Wondering why I had said “Yes” when I wanted to say “No”. Somewhere deep inside I guess I knew I had to see him. Even wanted to see him. I guess I even hoped that I’d find a way to forgive him for deceiving me. Tricking me.

    Suddenly I had to pee bad. As I shook off the last drops, I looked up and saw myself in the mirror. It wasn’t good. I washed my face. Brushed my teeth. Tried to make my hair look . . . better anyway. I was putting on my deodorant and planning to put on a fresh T-shirt when I heard a knock at the door.

    I wanted to make him wait while I got a clean T. He’d have to learn to tell the truth. If he said 15 minutes it should be 15. Not 10. Even as I thought those words, I realized how petty and stupid that was. Paul was here early not to . . . Fuck it! Fuck me!

    I opened the door and let him in.

    “I’m so sorry” were the first words to gush out of his mouth. His eyes held mine for a long moment before we each sort of looked each other over. Suspiciously? I’m not sure, but we both did it.

    He looked pretty much as I had imagined him when I talked to him on the phone. I was glad I had cleaned up until I suddenly realized I was standing there in nothing but a pair of cargo shorts drooping so low he could no doubt practically see my dick.

    I pulled them up on my hips . . . at least a little . . . and then raised my hands to indicate I didn’t want him to say another word.

    “Sit down,” I said, gesturing to a chair at the kitchen table. The same chair he’d sat in as we talked away most of the afternoon we had spent together almost two weeks before.

    “One more thing,” I said as he sat down, “I don’t need for you to keep saying you’re sorry all the time. I need for you to tell me how you knew.”

    “OK,” Paul said, looking sheepish, but obedient.

    As he told me what had happened, I became the one who was looking sheepish.

    “So Anne showed it to you and told you that I had written it? That’s it. So you didn’t figure it out? She just told you? I was going crazy trying to think how you figured it out. I thought maybe the picture of me that Justin did, or . . .”

    “Yeah, well that pretty much cemented any doubts I may have had. I was confused because if the story is true then . . .” Paul went on to explain how at first he thought I couldn’t be the Jess from my story, even with what Anne had told him.

    H.R.’s security had pretty much worked just as H.R. had planned and promised. But with the copy of the story I’d given to Anne, “ . . . it just had to be you. Plus the picture and a couple of things you told me about yourself. The guys and girls stuff. You used almost the same words that were in 'I Thought I Knew.'”

    “But I didn’t give Anne anything but that one chapter,” I challenged.

    “Jess, as soon as I started to read what Anne had given me, I recognized it. 'I Thought I Knew' is . . . Let’s just say I’ve read it more than once. It changed my life. You changed my life.”

    I shook my head no. “That’s not me. Well, it is about me and stuff that I did, but guys think once they’ve read it they know me. And they don’t. And you don’t. It’s flattering when guys tell me stuff like you just did that I changed your life or whatever . . .” I didn’t know how to continue. I shook my head doubtfully. “But you don’t really know me at all.”

    Beyond that I was at a loss for what to say. He’d found out because I had broken one of H.R.’s rules. I had told someone that I was the guy in the story. He always said that if anyone found out, it would be because we told them. Basically H.R. was right about that.

    Paul and I sat across from each other at the kitchen table just looking at each other. I wasn’t mad at him anymore. If anyone was to blame in all of this, I guess it was me. Paul had promised Anne that he wouldn’t say anything to anyone before he even knew what she was giving him. I could understand that. He was trapped. He couldn’t tell me. He probably shouldn’t have told me. But I was glad he had.

    He’d certainly tossed Anne over for me. At least he didn’t seem to have any problem with the fact that I’d been part of the project. As best I could tell, he actually thought it was pretty cool. I guess he wasn’t playing me.

    He explained how he was trying to find a way through the box he was in with Anne. Trying to find a way to get me to tell him about “I Thought I Knew” instead of him having to . . . Well, having to do what he’d just done. Tell me how he knew. Break his promise to Anne.

    “I’ve been a real shit about all this,” I finally said, looking up into Paul’s eyes. I hoped I would see something that would give me hope. Hope that I could salvage something from the wreck I’d made of things.

    “It’s OK. I understand,” Paul said. “You were scared and confused. I can see how you thought I was scamming you or something like that. I just want to be your friend. I want us to be back where we were when we woke up on our first morning together. I like you, Jess. I like you a lot. I know how forgiving you can be. After all, you . . .”

    “Wait!” I cut him off mid-sentence. “Stop right there. Don’t do this to me. Don’t be telling me you know this stuff about me. How could you know that I’m . . . What was that word you said?”

    “Forgiving?”

    “Yeah, how can you say you know I’m ‘forgiving’?” I asked.

    “For one because of the way you forgave Billy when he tricked you so that you’d catch him fucking Justin with that dildo. I don’t know how you could forgive somebody for doing something like that to you, but you did it. You’re an amazing . . .”

    “No. No! NO! That’s exactly what I’m talking about.” I all but shouted at Paul. “You think you know me because you read something H.R. wrote. It didn’t happen that way,”

    He looked so surprised when I said those last words. “Well, it did, but it didn’t,” I tried to explain. I wasn’t mad at Paul. I really wanted to explain this to him. I wanted him to understand what I meant.

    “I don’t remember exactly what H.R. wrote,” I said as calmly as I could. But memories of that day I walked in on Justin and Billy had added to my . . .

    I took a deep breath and let it out slowly and tried to begin again. “I do remember that H.R. made it seem like I forgave Billy like a week after. He made it seem like I said, ‘Sure, Billy, it’s OK that you invited me, your best friend, a guy who thought he was in love with . . . invited me over to your house so I’d catch you fucking another guy with a dildo. Just so you could save yourself the inconvenience of telling me you loved someone else.’

    “Well, the truth is I hated Billy for months. At least two. I wished that terrible things would happen. Like he’d get cancer, or catch AIDS, or go blind, or get kicked out school for being such a perv and never get to college. I was like that till I just couldn’t hate Billy anymore.

    “Believe me, Paul, you have no idea how unforgiving I can be.”

    “But you did forgive him, right?” Paul asked.

    “Yeah, I did. When I’d exhausted all my anger and hatred and frustration. But don’t ever think you know me because of my story. I’m more than just my story.”

    “I think I understand,” Paul said, making it sound sort of like an apology.

    “I want you to understand. I want you to get to know me to. But not because of something you’ve read about me. I want you to get to know me like the afternoon we talked so long sitting right here. Just saying what we thought. Who we are. What we want and hope for.”

    With that I stood up and walked around to stand beside Paul and he stood to join me. He turned toward me and gave me the greatest hug. It was exactly what I needed. No words. No promises. No explanations. I needed him there supporting me. Holding me. Caring for me. This me. Not some story version of me. I was the Jess I wanted him to come to know.

    I pulled back so I could look him in the face. What I saw was the almost perfect face and expression. I could see in his eyes how he felt.

    “Thanks,” I said and kissed him. First with closed lips, but soon they softened and opened and we let each other in.

    Our kiss and embrace seemed almost dreamlike. After two weeks of such turmoil and pain, this kiss was amazing. When finally we broke the kiss . . . I feel so stupid saying this now . . . I felt like I wanted to tell Paul I loved him.

    Instead I smiled my special smile. The one I had reserved for Billy for so many years. My best smile. And I said, “Paul, I . . .”

    I stopped myself and thought for a moment.

    “Paul, you’re the best.” That was enough.

    To Be Continued . . .

    I hope everyone enjoyed this episode. And that it turned out pretty much the way you hoped. Believe me, Jess put a lot of himself into getting it just right. I know he'd love to continue hearing from all of you. Your support has meant a lot to him. And to Paul, too.

    I hate to harp on this, but please do consider leaving a comment, even if you've read all three books and never posted once. It's easy. It's free. And JUB won't bug you with spam or stuff like that.

    Also you should consider rating this project. That's easy too. Go to the stars in the top righthand corner and follow your instincts.

    Thanks for reading. I'll be back in a week or so with the start of a new chapter from Paul. Until then, stay happy. And stay hard!
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    Wow! LOVED this chapter! It's, perhaps, one of the BEST chapters, yet, in ALL of "ITIK"!! (And, there wasn't even any Sex! )

    THIS chapter was so REAL! It went to the Core of Jess, and Paul, too! Two Guys facing each other, with no "walls", no "macho fronts", no "facades", just Pure TRUTH! Far more "Dangerous", and so much more Trusting, than "just" being Physically Naked together! THIS was "Heart Naked" Together!!

    So Rare! So Wonderful!! THANK YOU!!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    Kyanimal hit it on the nose.

    This has to be one of the if not the best installments of ITIK. I have re-read the frist two books while waiting for the 3rd one. Yes there are heart felt moments, but this one just seemed so real. Like i was not reading it, i was there listening to it.

    And Jess i know how you felt. Talking to someone about you. Them having this picture of you already in their head of what you are going to be like.

    When i was in Iowa, I ment a few people who read my frist story. I had been talking to them for a while, and i told them we were going there for christmas. When we ment up with them, I pretty much had to make them forget what they knew and to teach them who i am. Once i did that we had a good time.

    Going through it with paul may be hard, but you can get through it. After this chapter I dont think that i can say, I know you .... whether it be that you can do something, or anything like that. I can only have that feeling and the hope that you will get through what ever life throws your way.

    Paul, You are a lucky guy To have Jess. Even though you know a little about him, from what you read, He is complety different guy. You both may bare your soul in this project but we will never know the real and true you unless we are lucky enough to ever meet you.
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    Jess,
    Chaz has done a pretty good job describing reactions to this chapter.

    I haven't been quite where you've been, but we've all had some intense, intimate moments of truth. I have written about an experience or two in posts, possibly even in ITIK I or II.

    Thank you for sharing yours and Paul's.
    As Chaz said, Yes, it's So real. So Powerful.

    I know how hard it can be to forgive someone you feel has crossed an uncrossable line. I've been waiting over 13 years for someone to forgive me and acknowledge my existence on the planet - not that we run into each other much.

    The last time was in an Italian Gift/food store. I was with my kids, looking at Ironstone we collect. He was looking for a pasta serving plate. I didn't even know it was him until after I'd offered a suggestion as to some nice ones.

    He never said a word, just nodded w/out looking at me and kept looking. When I realized who it was, I made sure the kids gave him plenty of room. We were waiting for a gift that was being wrapped in the back room, or I would have quietly exited stage left, as they say.

    I'm glad HR forced you to call Paul back, and I'm glad you agreed to the face to face. Most of all, I'm glad you found each other, and are still together.

    You deserve all the happiness in life you can get.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    Real honesty in this Chapter ... I love it, I salute you!!!

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    Amazingly hot story, HR! I emailed you a couple weeks ago after finding the stories on Nifty and finished them up to this point pretty quick ... love it!

    And just so you feel special, I registered an account on here just so that I could leave a comment.

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    Welcome to JUB - it's a whole different experience than Nifty - you get to share in the open dialogue/postings of your fellow readers, and get invited into other threads, too.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    Jess, I can't even imagine how it might have felt to go through something like that. Of course you now know that Paul would never intentionally hurt you, but at the time you felt betrayed, lied to, maybe even violated. It's actually quite easy for us to feel like we know you, at least on some level, from reading about you. I guess we need to keep in mind that we're only getting a very small piece of a very big puzzle by reading about your sexual experiences back in high school and then in college. How can we define you by those experiences?

    Paul, your honesty may have caught Jess off guard but I'm pretty sure that he values that honesty as much as he values your friendship and your love. How could anybody not fall for you? Anne has good taste. Lol!! Kidding. I'm gonna be the guy to say that Jess is the one who is lucky to have found you (No offense J). It seems like you have loved Jess from the very beginning and the fact that you loved him enough to tell him the truth says a lot about you as a person.

    Ky, Tim, DQ, Bodhi and xxx (welcome!) are right; this is arguably the best chapter so far in the entire project. No sex at all, but the intensity of the intimacy was just so mind-blowing! It's like you guys allowed us to see ourselves in an argument with our boyfriend/significant other/lover and it's way more personal than sex. It's like "Holy shit, we're allowed to see this?" and I thank the three of you for deciding to go ahead with this third part of the project. To think, we almost missed out on this...

    I think the best part about reading about the rough patches you guys go through is that we already know how it ends. Of course I can't leave out HR, whose writing (and mind) bring all of your experiences to life for the masses. HR, I think the last few chapters are giving the readers a much better idea of how much you really care about your friends. You are one of the most caring people I know. Don't ever change, you perv! Take care fellas.

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    It seems that every time I write it is to say what nice things all of you say about Jess and me. I can hardly believe that so many of you thought this was the best part ever since the very beginning. Being part of it now I can't really judge that.
    You can't even imagine how that makes Jess and me feel to read. Thanks to each of you who commented.
    To be honest the real reason I needed to post a comment was to let you know that until I read this latest part, I didn't know that Jess had shared his "special smile" with me that day. He had never told me that. I probably knew the way he smiled at me after that had changed, but I never thought of it as his "special smile." That's something very important to me that I just found out and I wanted to share it.
    I'm working with H.R. on the next part and I think you are really going to like it. I hope so, even if it isn't the "best ever."
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    Quote Originally Posted by MyBFCallsMePaul View Post
    I'm working with H.R. on the next part and I think you are really going to like it. I hope so, even if it isn't the "best ever."
    - Paul
    O.K. Let's re-phrase, and say that the last chapter has been the best So FAR!

    Very much looking forward to hearing more from YOU, too, as Always!!

    This isn't a "competition".

    It's ALL just so Amazing!!

    THANK YOU!!

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    Paul, this last chapter was awesome not because it was from Jess' point of view, but because it gave us a very intimate look at the two of you and showed the depth of your love for each other. You guys deserve not only our kind words, but also our thanks for allowing us to see a part of the journey you two have commenced as a couple. Just for the record, I think you did the right thing by telling Jess that you thought you loved him. I feel that if you care about somebody then you should let them know. Take care!

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    My Gods, man... When you said you were a writer of erotica, I had no idea that you were a genius of the genre. Ohhhh. my... I was so turned-on that I signed up, and started a profile just to be able to read and comment.


    WOW!

    There is a picture and a video of me self-sucking in the same way you describe here. I was I was fantasizing a man with me... licking me, touching me... fucking me while I lick myself.

    I want to fuck a guy while sucking him off at the same time. I am flexible like that.

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    Wow just wow, I havent commented on book 3 yet but OMG wow incredible. the whole time i was wishing Paul would come on JUB so I can say thanks for his side of the story. The countless times I have gotten off to this story is amazing lol, you guys are hella awesome. there is so much I want to say but cant figure out how to write it lol. i'll figure it out somehow. but until then you guys effin rock!

    HR- I am just wowed at ur writing style and honestly can put into words how i fel about this story, it is simply amazing and thank you again for helping Jess, Paul, Billy, Justin put this in words. Such an amazing story amazing. Happy 2010 to you and yours.

    Jess- Thank you for allowing us into ur life for this story. As for being mad at the way you reacted to Paul figuring it all out, I cant be, Id prob react the same way. Its great to see your emotions it really is. And honestly the more i think about it I absolutely love your attitude towards the gay/str8/bi label. Why be a label just be youself and have fun doing it. Happy 2010 Jess.

    Paul- Sure its late but thank you for joining JUB and Thank you for ur side of the story I am so glad for it. I am so very jealous of you also. When I first started reading I was like OMG I wanna meet Jess or someone like him, congrats. I wish the best for you also Paul welcome to the family glad ur here. happy o-10 to you too.

    justin/billy- I hope all is still going good with you guys. You guys are still awesome and will always be. thanks again for your story. happy 2010 to you guys as well.
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    These last few chapters were amazing.

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    Cumming Friday

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    Chapter 1 of hardreader's new three-part project will be posted tomorrow. It tells the true story of four guys who have decided to make an unusual and very erotic exploration of their friendships and commitments to each other.

    This project focuses on one very real evening in the lives of writer Tim White, his husband Zach and their two closest friends during which they explore the sexual boundaries they have lived by for so long. hardreader takes you on a tour inside the participants’ minds, sharing their inner thoughts, hopes and fears. He bares their secret fantasies and desires . . . fantasies and desires that may unleash a few of your own.


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    Wow!!! Can't wait!!! What a title - What a Cast!!! What a chronicler!

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    An-Tis-i-PATION!!

    Bring it ON!!

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    Sorry I'm late in posting a comment on the latest chapter, I've been having connection problems recently and my connection is still very unstable so I wanted to say something while I still can. This chapter is what I've been looking forward to. The answer of how you two got over this rough patch of yours. I'm so glad that you were able to collect yourself Jess and were able to maintain a relatively cool head while you sought answers. I don't think that was easy to do. Also it must have been a relief to know that HR's fail safe didn't fail after all. That makes me feel better about my little story too.lol I have one question for Paul that I'm sure that have been asked many times before but I simply must know,Out of the hundreds of thousands of guys that would give their right nut to be in your shoes, you were the lucky guy to be selected to join the ITIK family and meet all the guys and be in a relationship with one of them, how do you feel?

    How's that for long winded? lol

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    jess & paul, good 2 c u nye. u r such a blast. finly caut up w/ the nu chptrs & ther rly gr8. shud b back home sun. sry i never pst 2 ur sty. its prbly btr than our bk.
    hi hr, luv u 2!

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    Bound By Cum
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    Read it now only at JustUsBoys.com

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    First time posting about this series...I've read Book 1 over on Nifty over the past month and just last week I found the original postings on this site...it's quite refreshing to see a true story with feedback from the actual "characters." I really enjoyed this last chapter and felt it really brought the reader back to Book 1, giving more insight into how Jess really felt about Billy after the fateful dildo incident...I've been pulling for Jess in my head since that chapter. I really like Jess' accounts cuz they really delve into his feelings and just show how emotionally complex he is...a sort of gay Holden Caulfield.

    HR, you truly have a talent for capturing raw human emotion and the vivid details you weave in each chapter have been the source of many a nut for the past month...keep up the great work.

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    This past week's episode received some of the highest praise bestowed on "I Thoguht I Knew" by readers since the series began. I think I may skip most of my corny comments this week and just let your words soak in:

    Kyanimal -- "Wow! LOVED this chapter! It's, perhaps, one of the BEST chapters, yet, in ALL of "ITIK"!! (And, there wasn't even any Sex!) THIS chapter was so REAL! It went to the Core of Jess, and Paul, too! Two Guys facing each other, with no "walls", no "macho fronts", no "facades", just Pure TRUTH! Far more "Dangerous", and so much more Trusting, than "just" being Physically Naked together! THIS was "Heart Naked" Together!!

    TimWhite07 -- "This has to be one of the if not the best installments of ITIK. I have re-read the first two books while waiting for the 3rd one. Yes there are heart felt moments, but this one just seemed so real. Like i was not reading it, i was there listening to it."

    Bohi1 -- "Real honesty in this Chapter ... I love it, I salute you!!!"

    BADgreek -- "I think the best part about reading about the rough patches you guys go through is that we already know how it ends. Of course I can't leave out HR, whose writing (and mind) bring all of your experiences to life for the masses. HR, I think the last few chapters are giving the readers a much better idea of how much you really care about your friends."

    jaydizzo -- "Wow just wow, I havent commented on book 3 yet but OMG wow incredible. the whole time i was wishing Paul would come on JUB so I can say thanks for his side of the story. The countless times I have gotten off to this story is amazing lol, you guys are hella awesome. there is so much I want to say but cant figure out how to write it lol. i'll figure it out somehow. but until then you guys effin rock!"

    NothingtoSay -- "These last few chapters were amazing."

    PerpetuallyHard312 -- "This chapter is what I've been looking forward to. The answer of how you two got over this rough patch of yours. I'm so glad that you were able to collect yourself Jess and were able to maintain a relatively cool head while you sought answers. I don't think that was easy to do. Also it must have been a relief to know that HR's fail safe didn't fail after all."

    DonQuixote -- "Jess, Chaz has done a pretty good job describing reactions to this chapter. I haven't been quite where you've been, but we've all had some intense, intimate moments of truth. Thank you for sharing yours and Paul's. As Chaz said, Yes, it's So real. So Powerful. I know how hard it can be to forgive someone you feel has crossed an uncrossable line."

    And new this week to the commenters on Book 3:


    xxxattan -- "Amazingly hot story, HR! I emailed you a couple weeks ago after finding the stories on Nifty and finished them up to this point pretty quick ... love it! And just so you feel special, I registered an account on here just so that I could leave a comment." Thanks so much for being such a great fan. Hope we can chat soon.

    Antush -- "My Gods, man... When you said you were a writer of erotica, I had no idea that you were a genius of the genre. Ohhhh. my... I was so turned-on that I signed up, and started a profile just to be able to read and comment."
    I hope guys check you out on XTube.

    blahster -- "First time posting about this series...I've read Book 1 over on Nifty over the past month and just last week I found the original postings on this site...it's quite refreshing to see a true story with feedback from the actual "characters." I really enjoyed this last chapter and felt it really brought the reader back to Book 1, giving more insight into how Jess really felt about Billy after the fateful dildo incident...I've been pulling for Jess in my head since that chapter. I really like Jess' accounts cuz they really delve into his feelings and just show how emotionally complex he is...a sort of gay Holden Caulfield." Good talking to you. Keep cumming back for more.

    Thanks to each and everyone one of you. Your words and your dedication to this project and to the guys who have made it all possible are hugely important to me. I can't thank you enough for supporting us with your reading and your words.

    Despite some last-minute changes Paul asked me to make, this week's episode will be ready to post tomorrow. Unless Paul asks for even more changes. Changes or not, I think most of you will like this chapter on a couple of levels.

    One last thing, I want to commend a new story just posted an hour or so ago. It is called "Straight Boy Roommate" by kevtrainerboy. I first read the opening chapters of this story on another site. I was so impressed by it I had to contact kev and talk about what he was crafting.

    We finally got to chat today and I urged him to please begin posting his story on JUB. I see he was listening. I recommend it very highly. Stories of this sort may not appeal to every whim, taste and fetish, but I believe this will have a wide appeal.

    I have already enjoyed it completely three times, if you know what I mean.

    So until tomorrow stay happy. And stay hard!
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    Thanks to those of you who took the time to rate this story during the past week. We really appreciate it even though we don't know who you were. At least we know you like what we are doing.

    Jess' Story
    I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
    Chapter 14

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    I’d been nervous since the second I saw it was Jess calling me. By the time I got to Jess’ place, I was more than nervous. With the mood he was in when I got there, talking to him didn’t help. He kept telling me, Don’t do this! Don’t do that!

    I was so afraid I was going to make another mistake and he’d bolt like he had the last time. If that happened I didn’t think I’d ever see him again.

    But when I told him how I knew he was the Jess from “I Thought I Knew,” it was like everything changed. He wasn’t mad at me anymore. He seemed more upset with himself.

    After that I just tried to understand exactly what he was telling me I should and shouldn’t do. Don’t say I’m sorry. Don’t say I know him. Don’t say I love him. Those were the Big Three. That’s what I called them.

    I was still pretty worried about how it was all going to work out until he hugged me. When he finally did, I knew everything was going to be OK after all. There was something about the way he held me and the way he let me hold him. It wasn’t sexy or anything. It was like electric. Like he was communicating with me in some special, secret way. It made me feel so close to him and so comfortable. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but it was like we really shared something.

    When he told me I was “the best,” I could tell he’d thought about it and really meant it. It made me think really hard what I should say back to him. I decided to give him a gentle kiss first and then said, “Jess, I want to get to know you better. I want to be your friend.”

    From the smile on his face, I knew that was a pretty good thing for me to have said. Seeing him smile made me smile. I think we were both smiling for the first time since . . . well, since he ran out two weeks before.

    With things seeming to go better between us, I didn’t know if I should stay or go. I didn’t know what Jess wanted me to do. Right then I would have done whatever he wanted. I hoped he’d just tell me, but he didn’t. He pulled me into him for another hug and started stroking my hair with one hand. His other was at the small of my back pulling me closer to him. Holding me tight.

    He must have murmured, “Oh, Paul,” like a hundred times as he held me and stroked my hair.

    It was so nice. I could feel the heat of his body against mine. His naked chest pressed against my thin summer shirt. My hands free to roam across his magnificent back. I could hardly believe we were back together like this again. It happened so quickly. I guess the key to everything was how I had known about him. My only regret was it had taken us so long and so much . . . I guess pain or turmoil or whatever . . . to get back to where we were.

    “So what do you want to do now?” Jess finally whispered to me. It sounded and felt kind of sexy, like maybe he thought we should have sex or something. As I tried to figure out what to say, he began to kiss my ear.

    “Hmmmm. I’m not really sure,” I said. I wasn’t trying to be coy. I really didn’t know He kissed my ear again, this time with a little wet tongue action.

    “Maybe,” I said, “I should get to know you better. Why don’t you tell me a little more about yourself?”

    He gave me this really quizzical look, like he was trying to figure out what I was up to. Not in a bad way, but like really trying to see what was going on in my head. Since I wasn’t sure what I was thinking, I’m not really sure what he saw.

    He took my hand and led me over to his sofa. We sat down. Not real close, but turned so we could see each other. “So what do you want to know?” he asked, folding his hands in his lap. “Tell me, what do you want to know about me?”

    Impulsively I said, “Tell me about when you were a kid? Did you have a lot of friends? Or brothers and sisters? Who were you closest too?” I guess while I was reading about him, I’d always wondered that. Hardreader never seemed to talk about their families, or their backgrounds.

    From Jess’ smile I think he liked that question.

    “My brother,” he said and looked quite pleased with his answer and he was clearly waiting for the next question.

    “Older or younger?” I asked.

    “Older by . . .” he paused and I could tell he was doing the math in his head, “ . . . six years.”

    “So tell me about him.”

    “I idolized him. He was a star swimmer in high school and college. When he came home from college to see me in my first varsity swim meet, he was introduced like a celebrity. First-team all-conference. I was so proud.

    “We’d always been close, even though there was a big difference in our ages. We shared a room from almost as early as I can remember until my older sister went away to college.

    “I remember going with mom and dad and watching him swim in his high school meets when I was little.” Jess got kind of a far-away look in his eyes and I could tell he was remembering what that was like.

    “He never treated me like a little kid. He was popular. He had lots and lots of friends. We didn’t do a lot of stuff together because he was so much older, but sharing his room with him was special enough for me. I loved that room.”

    “What do you remember most about that room?” I asked.

    Without a second’s hesitation Jess answered, “The smell.” Then he looked like he wished he hadn’t said that.

    “The smell?” I asked. “Did it smell bad?”

    “No. It wasn’t like that.”

    “Then what did it smell like?”

    Jess thought for a moment and then got this grin on his face and I knew he was going to tell me something special, or significant . . . at least significant to him. “It smelled like my brother.”

    I gave him a questioning look and Jess started to laugh. “OK, so you want to know about me and who I really am. This is as good a place to start as any. You may think I’m kind of weird, but . . .

    “As long as I can remember, I would wake up in the night to this certain sound. I knew my brother was making it, but I didn’t know why or what it was. It was a sort of steady rustling noise under the sheets.” Jess had this big grin on his face as he told me this. “I’m sure you can guess what it was. Alex must have been about 12 or 13.” Jess winked. Of course, I knew exactly what he meant.

    “I was like six years old and didn’t have a clue what it was. All I knew was that it seemed to wake me almost every night. And after Alex had made that noise for a while, he’d start to breath different and sometimes mumble things I couldn’t understand. At least not then.”

    I thought I knew where this story was going and I couldn’t suppress my smile and a little laugh.

    “Once the noise stopped and Alex’s breathing started to become normal again, I’d smell this amazing smell,” Jess said. “It seemed to fill my nose and my head. I loved it and I couldn’t seem to get enough of it.

    “Sometimes in the morning I’d wake up to that same sound. And I’d hear Alex’s hard breathing and again there would be that smell. To me it was my brother’s smell. And that made it special and good. Something the two of us shared.

    “This is the kind of weird part: When I was still pretty little, Alex started getting up about a half hour before I did for school. So I was probably 7 or so. I don’t know exactly what he did, but probably took a shower and stuff.

    “I’m not sure how it started, but it got to be my routine to creep out of my bed and into Alex’s as soon as he left the room. I loved the smell of his bed. That’s where I could smell him the best. I’d curl up where he curled up and imagine we were cuddled there together. Like in a nest or something.

    “I was too young to know or understand anything about sex. This wasn’t a sexual thing. It just made me feel really safe and close to Alex.

    “Anyway, more and more Alex was making that noise in the morning. When I’d get into his bed, sometimes I could feel a wet spot where he’d cum. Of course, I didn’t know it was cum. I didn’t know what cum was. To me at that age it was just how Alex’s bed was.

    “Sometimes it was a little damp. Sometime not so little. I didn’t know what cum was. I just knew that that was where Alex’s smell came from. That’s sort of how he made it. He’d make that noise and then breath real hard and . . . wet his bed.

    “I knew the smell was strongest on the sheets toward the center of the bed. If there wasn’t a wet spot, there were almost always spots where the sheets were like starchy or stiff. That’s where I curled up when he had gone to shower or whatever. I loved to put my face right there and breath in my brother’s smell.”

    “Even when it was still wet from his cum? You put your face right in his wet cum?” I asked.

    “I guess I did,” Jess said and shrugged like it was no big deal.

    “One morning when he came back into the room I was curled up under his covers as usual. There was a bigger wet spot that morning than there had ever been before.

    “Alex said, as he always did, ‘Hey, little man, time for you to get ready for school.’

    “I stuck my head out from under his blankets and asked, ‘Do you pee in your bed sometimes?’

    “I remember he looked at me like I shouldn’t have asked him that. Then he looked at me real serious like and asked, ‘Why do you ask?’

    “‘Because sometimes when I get in your bed in the morning it feels like you might have peed your bed.’

    “‘No,’ Jess said. ‘I don’t pee my bed. It’s a guy thing. It’s not nice to talk about it. You’ll understand when you get older. But kids my age have a special kind of dreams called wet dreams. This secret fluid comes out of your pee-pee while you’re sleeping. Understand?’

    “‘I think so. Is that what makes that smell I like?’

    “‘Probably,’ he said. ‘But this isn’t something we should talk about to anyone else. Not even mom and dad. It’s just between the two of us. OK?’

    “A secret with my brother. I felt so important. It was like he’d let me into some secret club.

    “I don’t know how long it was until I figured out what was going on. He moved into my big sister’s room when she went away to college, so he would have been about 16 and I would have been about 10, I guess.”

    “How old were you when you first jacked off?” I asked.

    “Twelve, I think. I did it before I could cum. I’d just jerk it because it felt so damn good. Maybe when I finally came I realized what my brother had been doing, but I think I’d probably figured it our before that.”

    “So now I really know something about you,” I said and leaned over and kissed Jess.

    “Did you like my story?” Jess asked.

    “I did. I think I’ll like all of your stories.”

    He pulled me toward him and soon I was lying on top of him on the sofa. We were kissing and our penises were both hard. Trapped between our bodies. I could feel his pressing against me almost as clearly as I could feel mine pressing against him.

    Jess stripped my shirt off. He said that made us even.

    “I think it just makes me even hornier,” I said. So he told me to take my shorts off. By the time I had them off we were both naked. I could hardly believe how quickly and easily we’d done that. One minute we were just talking and the next minute we’re laying there together completely naked and hard and . . . I liked it.

    “Now let me tell you a story,” I said as I snuggled beside Jess, gently rubbing my hard penis against his hip. “It’s about a very handsome kid and his new friend. They were lying side by side on a magic sofa that makes kids horny. The new friend asked, ‘Would you mind if I cuddled up behind you and just hold you for a while?’”

    “I think I like this story,” Jess said.

    At that point, I stopped talking. His cock was already pretty hard as it lay on his abs. I couldn’t stop staring at it. I didn’t really know what to do though. Other than the little bit I’d done with Jess before, I’d never done . . . well, anything. I didn’t know what Jess expected. Or even what I wanted. Except I wanted to be really close to Jess.

    So I told myself that cuddling was good enough for now. We should take things a step at a time. If we did that we’d get there. I didn’t know where ‘there’ was, but I was afraid if I tried to go too fast again, things would get screwed up.

    If I was moving too slow for Jess, I could only hope he’d tell me so, or make his own move. I didn’t want to leave him disappointed. I just didn’t think moving too fast was a good idea either.

    I lay there, one arm slung over Jess. My hand almost directly in the middle of his chest. It was awkward as I lay there. My hand was so close to his skin, I could feel his heat. But I wasn’t quite touching him either.

    My cock was full hard and pressed against his butt and his was nearly full hard and almost standing free from his abs. It was leaking just a little. But neither of us was doing anything about it. At least for a while.

    Eventually the urge to touch Jess was too much for me. I told myself I just wanted to hold him tighter. Nothing really sexual. So I laid my hand out full open on his chest. It felt so good to feel his skin and his muscles. The very touch sent a charge through my body. Kept me hard. So hard

    My hand seemed to have a mind of its own. It started to wander around the front of Jess’ body. Just stroking. Feeling. Touching. Not sexual. Just feeling him under my hand.

    I can’t really explain how wonderful a feeling that was. Thinking back, it may have been the first time that I was with Jess and totally experiencing him as himself. As he really was. Not as the Jess’ from his story. Not some fantasy come to life.

    I was just so into being that close to him. To touching him. Smelling him. I kissed him just a little on the neck and shoulder. He turned his head so I could kiss his lips.

    “This is so nice,” he said. “Is this what you want to do? Do you want me to do something for you.”

    “Just cuddle,” I said. He sort of wiggled his butt against my hard penis and kissed me again before adjusting the pillow cushion under his head.

    I went on stroking his chest and nipples awhile longer before I think we both drifted off to sleep.

    I don’t think I’d been asleep long when I woke up. I’d just dosed off. It felt so good to be cuddled behind Jess. Then I realized my hand was holding his hard cock and his hand was holding the back of mine.

    He was amazing hard and hot. I gave him a little squeeze. He was awake and looked back over at his shoulder at me. We kissed again.

    “Are you OK with this?” I asked and squeezed his penis again.

    “Are you?” he asked. And I felt him make his cock twitch in my grasp. Then he tightened his hand on mine and said, “Who do you think put your hand there?”

    I kissed his neck. He groaned a little. I loved his sound from deep inside him.

    “We can just lay here,” I said. “I love being with you and cuddling together. We fit just perfect and your skin feels so good.”

    I took my hand from his cock and started letting it drift across his abs. But my hand kept bumping into his hard cock as I did that. I didn’t plan it . . . I really didn’t . . . but I started running my fingers lightly up and down the length of his cock. I could feel it rise up under my gentle touch.

    Sometimes I’d let my fingers toy with that sensitive spot on the underside of his cock where the head and the shaft meet. I know I feel like a tangle of nerve endings there. So sensitive.

    I ran my fingertip across his cocklips and found a droplet of pre-cum. I rubbed it gently into this hard head and let it lube my finger’s trail.

    At last I started running my fingers up and down the length of his shaft again, occasionally, including his nuts in the action.

    “Are you as close as I am,” Jess finally asked as he reached back with his free arm, wrapped it around the back of my head and pulled my lips to his.

    We kissed deeply and for a long time. I guess I lost control or track or whatever of my hand because when we broke our kiss it was wrapped around his throbbing cock.

    “If you don’t stop, I think I’m gonna . . .”

    He never finished his thought. Well, I guess in a way he did. His cum surged from his cock and splattered off the sofa back. More cum landed on me and on him. While he was still cumming, he put his own hand on his cockhead and caught some of his own cum. Then he reached behind and took my penis in his cum-slick hand and started jacking me off like crazy. The feel of his hand lubed with his cum sliding so easily up and down my swollen shaft was mind-blowing. Each stroke pulled at energy in my nuts. Created a storm in my crotch. Made my cock feel like it was going to go crazy.

    It didn’t take much of that. I was as hot as he was.

    My cum squirted across his butt and as I came I thrust against him. He quickly moved so that my cock was between butt cheeks as I continued to thrust. It felt so good. So close to making love to him. So . . . so messy, I think it was the first time I realized the joy and pleasure and shear exhilaration of making a mess of cum with a guy you really care about.

    At last I felt Jess whole body start to deflate in the aftermath of his cum. And then mine. I was deflating too. Not just my penis. My whole body seemed to relax and settle back to a lower state of existence.

    “I could get used to the way you cuddle,” Jess said.

    It made me feel so good. Even the simplest nice thing he said to me could make me feel on top of the world. This almost made my chest explode with pride.

    I so wanted to tell him I . . . but I didn’t. He’d told me not to. He didn’t tell me either.

    But I felt it. It was like it was all around us, but we couldn’t say it for fear of wrecking it. We had to move forward carefully.

    As I lay cuddled behind Jess, I though we’d done pretty good today.

    “You’re the best,” Jess said and moment later we had both drifted off.

    To Be Continued . . .

    As always, I hope you enjoyed this episode. Thank you once again for all the wonderful comments this past week and welcome to our new fans. Please do leave your comments. We love reading them and it gives us a better idea of who is out there reading and why.

    I'll be back in about a week with the next chapter. Until then, stay happy. And stay hard!
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    HOLY !!!

    I don't think I have the strength to type much more than that, just now!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    Great chapter! The nostalgia, pure sensuality, cuddling, and cum just radiate heat...it sure warmed me up on this rainy, blustery day.

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    Paul.
    THANK YOU so much for your continuing part in this retelling of your growing relationship with Jess.

    You are So real to us - because you ARE real.

    I'm so glad you guys got past the issues that freaked Jess out in the beginning.

    The warmth and closeness you both exude from the story, sticky cum and all, lol.

    The sex is nice, but the relationship is what's so important and vital.

    Having said that, I have to admit that I kept waiting for Jess to push back onto just a little bit more, and to encourage you to come inside him and make love to him. He mentioned it in your first time together so intensely, and I can sense it here.

    At the same time, I think it's probably best that you did just what you did - pleasure each other but not penetrate each other just yet. Letting yourselves get to truly know the other person as a complete entity, not just as a hot sex tool for quick gratification.

    I'm babbling. You are building a wonderful relationship. We can say that, knowing that you're still together all these months later. Monday Morning QBing is great, isn't it? lol.

    Thanks, again, Paul, for telling us your innermost thoughts.

    Jess, you've got a definite keeper. I hope you've both gotten past the "don't say THAT word" stage.

    HR, an impeccable recounting and emotion building presentation, in your usual, tantalizing style.

    Thanks to all of you! The other guys back there, too. They may not be front and center, but they're not forgotten, either.

    They stand, like the Colossus of Rhodes or the Lighthouse at Alexandria (but you gotta like the Statue imagery better!), a huge statue/beacon of light pointing the way for you. Hopefully, we're past the Clash of the Titans!

    Keep enjoying and loving each other.



    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    What a chapter! Do they really make boys like that? Another great job HR. Your work is terrific and you work your audience so masterfully. And it is hard, real hard.
    You lucky dog to have all those guys for the holidays. We are so jealous.
    Guys thanks for sharing and teaming up with HR to tell all. And we do want to hear more.

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    Aww, you guys are so sweet! You make such an adorable couple too. I am really happy to see that you guys worked things out so well. I can't wait to read the next chapter. I also wanted to thank HR, Jess and Paul for being so nice. You guys are cool people.

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    What a Chatper. And Pual this was one of the best. Just by reading it you could feel the passion that you both have. As Badgeek said, you are COOL people. You are wonderful. I wish you the best.

    I have to keep this short becuase the Baby is crying in my arms, and i cant type one handed very well.
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    Ok, I'm sorry but I had to read this again. Lol. You know how like if you see a movie or whatever and it's just so touching that you can't help smiling and feeling all warm and fuzzy? This was one of those chapters. It was definitely, as Tim said, one of the best yet. So good that I had to post a second comment.

    Sure the sex was fun to read about, but what really stood out to me is the fact that Paul tried so hard to let Jess know, to REALLY show him that he wants to know who Jess is. I can only guess what it must have been like for Paul to drop all of his preconceived notions about him and to be sure to avoid those "big three" things that would have bothered Jess.

    On the other hand, I can also see how it would have been really frustrating for Jess to not know whether or not this was a guy who really cared about him and if Paul was really interested in getting to know him or was simply trying to score with a guy he'd read about in some porn story.

    The fact that Jess gave Paul a chance and that Paul was trying to show that he respected the second chance is an excellent example of the deep feelings that the two of you have for each other.

    I know I keep saying this, but thanks for sharing all of this with us. My words cannot express how awesome you guys are, so I'll have to borrow from Tim again and say that you guys are wonderful. Really.

    HR, you're pretty wonderful yourself man. It's not just porn and wildly erotic times with you. I happen to know that you have a heart of gold. Thanks for making all of this possible.

    *cough* Read Bound By Cum *cough*

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