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    well damn, that kinda gave me a boner. good job

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    Great chapter ITC. Keep up the good work. Looking forward to the next one. Don't be too long in positing it. H&K
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    WOW !!! ITC Thank you. This is a fantastic tale, please post more, and soon !
    I hope both Henry and Jonathan can overcome their addiction and get back to college.
    It seems that Aaron and Lucas can help each other to climb out of their respective pits and find happiness.
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    Wow, great chapter! I'm really loving this story, please, please, please keep it up!

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    Like others have already said ... !!!

    Just ... !!!

    MORE!, Please!!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    Sooooooooooooo adorable. Loved it! Thanks, ITC for another masterpiece!

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    Dear InTheCloset,
    THANKS! I Needed That.
    It's been one Helluva week, and the soft, gentleness, and pleasant surprises on both the academic and relational fronts was a great tonic for what ails you.

    I enjoyed this installment very much.
    Your writing continues to capture the soul.
    Thank you for sharing your talents with us.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    P-E-R-F-E-C-T! a wonderful first kiss for an even better story. want really expecting it inthis chapter but i kinda was. i love how u write and hope u never quit.

    i was horny as fuck when i read this and now im all warm and loving inside. an even better feeling. i cant wait for the next chapter.

    love the work so keep it up.

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    Hey guys, sorry it's been a while. I've been going through a lot of personal changes and a lot of bad shit has happened to me lately. I've gotten through it and everything's getting better, but I just haven't had the time between everything going on to do any writing. But the past couple days, I buckled down and wrote until my fingers went numb. I've already gotten amazing feedback on this chapter thanks to a very good friend

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    Chapter Nine:
    The Gathering Storm


    I felt my phone buzz in its usual spot underneath my pillow. Without opening my eyes, I pulled it out and opened it, hoping it was just my alarm going off. The hope was dashed when I heard Carly’s voice come from the receiver.

    “Hey, are you talking to me yet?” she said.
    I rolled my eyes with the lids still closed and said, “Yes, I am. Good morning to you too.”
    “Hi, good morning,” she said, “So like are you off your period? Cause I kinda want my best friend today.”
    “Yes,” I said with a sigh.
    “Good. Meet me for breakfast in 10 minutes, and DON’T be late,” she said.

    I hung up the phone and dropped it onto the ground next to my bed. I took in several deep breaths before I could summon the strength to get up. I felt paralyzed from what happened last night. My mind raced with questions, and my heart just raced as I thought about Lucas.

    The sun seemed a little brighter today. I opened my eyes and was almost blinded by how brilliant the light was coming through the blinds. I played last night’s events over in my head. I stopped at the moment where Lucas and I were sitting next to each other, staring at my warrior in the sky. I replayed the shock that went through me when his arm brushed against mine. Every time our skin touched, it was like a tiny electrocution.

    But when we were standing outside with the streetlights blinding my eyes, it was like those quiet moments before the storm hits. I played it in slow motion in my head. The way his lips felt against mine, sending a rush of energy through me. The electrocution was as powerful as a lightning storm at that moment. It didn’t feel wrong or disgusting like I was programmed to think kissing another guy would be. It felt like having the final piece of my puzzle missing for years, and then Lucas coming along to fill the empty space where the piece should have been.

    I looked at myself in the mirror for a few minutes. I wasn’t an athletic guy, but I did think I was fit. I ran my hand through my dark brown hair and brushed at my face where stubble was starting to form. I thought it made me look jaunty, so I decided to not shave that morning. I threw on a light blue t-shirt and a pair of cargo shorts, grabbed my bag, and went out to meet Carly.

    The air was crisp with the fall season looming over the horizon. A light breeze flew past me, cooling me from the heat emanating from the sunlight. The cool air stimulated my senses and enveloped me in a feeling of being truly alive. It was probably the first time in almost two years I’ve actually had this feeling.

    I walked slowly from my dorm to the dining hall where Carly was surely waiting for me. She wasn’t the patient type, so I quickened my pace. I noticed her from a distance looking at her watch. When I approached her, she glared at me.

    “5 seconds late,” she said.
    “Really?” I asked, “You’re going to be THAT impatient?”
    “I told you not to be late!” she said.
    “Well you know me,” I said with a smile.
    “What’s that smile about,” she asked.

    Her eyes narrowed as she studied my face. After a couple seconds, her eyes widened again and her face looked stunned. She took in a sharp gasp and smiled at me with her “I know what you did” smile.

    “You’re glowing!” she said.
    “It’s the sunlight,” I said walking past her to get in line for breakfast.
    “Aaron Michael Saunders don’t you dare lie to me,” she said.
    “Fuck this middle naming me noise,” I said, “I didn’t do anything.”
    “Liar!” she said.
    “Whatever,” I said grabbing a plate.
    “He kissed you didn’t he?” she asked.
    “CARLY!” I yelled.

    Everyone around me hushed and stared at me. I knew it was because I yelled, but part of me felt like it was because they knew. I set my plate down and walked out of the room. I could almost feel everyone’s eyes burning holes into my back as I left. I hooked around the corner of the building and sat down on the ground. I didn’t feel like crying, I just felt ashamed.

    Carly slowly came around the corner and sat down next to me. She put her hand on my arm and I turned to look at her. She looked sad, and I felt terrible for being responsible for that look on her face.

    “Aaron I’m sorry…that was inconsiderate,” she said.
    “You were right though,” I said.
    “I was wrong to ask,” she said, “It’s not my place to ask you that kind of thing, and I’m sorry I did it in front of all those people.”

    I leaned into her and set my head on her shoulder. She brought her hand up and brushed the side of my face, in an almost motherly way. After a few moments my phone started buzzing in my pocket. I pulled it out to see “Lucas” displayed on the screen. I silenced the ring and put the phone back in my pocket.

    “Why don’t you want to talk to him?” she asked,
    “I don’t know what to say to him,” I said.
    “Did you kiss him back?” she asked.
    I remained silent.
    “Sorry, I did it again…” she said.
    “I did,” I said.
    “Did you like it?”
    “Yes…” I said.
    “Then go do it again,” she said.

    I looked up at her with a confused look on my face.

    “Go tell him that you like him, that’s probably what he was calling about,” she said.
    “But…”
    “No,” she said cutting me off, “Go get him.”

    I stood up and picked up my bag, but hesitated when I tried to take a step. I looked at Carly and she sighed.

    “Aaron Michael Saunders if you don’t go get that boy then so help me I will make your life a living hell,” she said with a grin.

    I smiled back and turned to walk towards the dorm buildings. I paid no attention to the clouds forming in the sky as they started cutting off the sunlight….

    ***

    I knocked my three vertical knocks on Lucas’ door. My heart was pounding in my chest as I thought of what I might say to him. I knew I liked him, and I knew I liked our kiss. But what I didn’t know was how this was going to work out, or how I was going to come out. I didn’t even know what I was…

    “Hey Aaron,” Lucas said as he opened the door.
    “Hey Luke,” I said.
    “What are you doing here?”
    “You called…” I said.
    “You know…some people return phone calls with…phone calls?” he asked with a grin.
    “I know, I just thought we should talk in person,” I said.
    “Ok, come on in,” he said.

    He smiled at me as I walked into his room. His gorgeous hazel eyes sparkled, and I couldn’t look away from him. I stood in the middle of the room, and he stood at the door after he closed it. I shifted on my feet as the discomfort set in. I didn’t know what to say. I definitely didn’t know what he wanted me to say.

    He walked over to me, placed his hands at my sides and kissed me. When he pulled away, I felt tears form in my closed eyes. I opened them to see him with a sad look on his face.

    “You’re breaking things off with me aren’t you?” he asked.
    “No!” I said, “I don’t know…”
    “Aaron, if you don’t want to be with me, you just have to say so,” he said.
    “Luke,” I said, “That’s not it.”
    “Then what’s wrong?” he asked.
    “I really don’t know what happened last night,” I said, “And I’m not sure how to process it.”
    “Aaron…you kissed me back…” he said.
    “Yeah, but before I did it you freaked out,” I said, “You were ashamed of it.”
    “So? I thought you were going to hate me, I didn’t know you were going to respond the way you did,” he said.
    “No, my point is…if you were ashamed of it, then how am I supposed to feel about it?”
    “Aaron… I wasn’t ashamed of liking you,” he said.
    “You weren’t?”
    “No,” he said resting his hand on my face, “I was ashamed of what I did.”

    He leaned in and kissed me again.

    “But I’m not anymore,” he said.

    He pulled me into him and kissed me. The feeling of his lips on mine, and his hands on my back were all like little electrodes sending off continuous shocks through my body. He pushed be backwards and I fell onto his bed. He leaned in on top of me and started kissing my neck. I felt his tongue slide across my skin as he kissed me. My skin surged with excitement as his hands explored my body. I felt his hand go under my shirt, and suddenly I was overwhelmed with fear.

    “Luke…” I gasped.
    He moaned softly.
    “Luke…stop…”
    He moaned again and moved his hand down my thigh.
    “No,” I said.

    He stopped and looked me in the eyes, panting from his excitement.

    “What’s wrong?” he asked.
    “I’m just…not ready,” I said.
    “What do you mean?”
    “Sex is a big deal for me…” I said, “I hear people saying that their first time is something they remember all the time, whether it was amazing, or something they’d rather forget; whether it was with someone they really cared about, or some random person from a bar; whether it makes them happy, or it makes them depressed. I want my first time to be something I smile about every time I think about it. I’m sorry…”
    “Aaron,” he said firmly, “Don’t you dare be sorry for that.”
    “What?”
    “You have no idea how much respect I have for you now,” he said, “That is the most amazing thing I’ve ever heard.”
    “Really? It doesn’t bother you?” I asked.
    “Of course not,” he said, “I promise I won’t ever pressure you Aaron.”
    “Thanks Luke,” I said with a smile.
    “So, does that mean we can’t even kiss?” he said with a frown.
    “Of course not,” I said pulling him up to my lips.

    I felt a surge of electricity go through me. His soft skin felt warm to the touch. After a few moments he pulled away and just looked at me. A smile stretched across his face which forced a smile onto mine. We both jumped at the same time when his phone started buzzing on his bedside table. I ran my right hand through his hair as he reached over and picked up the phone.

    “Hello?” he asked.

    I could hear the faint sound of a female voice speaking very quickly coming from the phone.

    “Lynn…wait; slow down,” he said, “What’s going on?”

    He listened intently to the phone and made a frustrated look.

    “Ugh, okay I’ll be downstairs in 2 minutes,” he said, “What? No give me 2 minutes!”

    He hung up the phone and looked back at me apologetically. He looked like he were about to break in two.

    “That was my friend Cherilyn,” he said, “I need to go downstairs and help her with her essay. She’s totally incompetent when it comes to writing so she needs my help.”
    “Oh, okay that’s no problem,” I said, “Just hurry back.”

    I leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips.

    “You are making it really hard to leave,” he said.
    “I know,” I said kissing him again, “But if it helps, I promise to be here when you get back.”
    “Deal,” he said as he stood up.

    He grabbed his bag and his keys and walked towards the door. With his hand around the knob, he froze. Before I knew it he was back on top of me on the bed giving me another kiss. This one lasted for about 5 years. Or, at least that’s what it felt like. He stood up and smiled at me.

    “Had to get one for the road,” he said.
    “Oh just get out of here,” I said blushing.

    After he left, I grabbed his remote and turned on the little TV sitting on a table at the foot of his bed. I flipped through the crappy local channels and found nothing to watch. Looking around the room, I noticed his laptop sitting at his desk. I opened it up and turned it on, hoping to check my email, but was stopped by his password protection.

    Damn.

    I stood up and looked around the room. It was then that I noticed the smell. It was like those moments when you were a child, standing outside in a rainstorm, watching the clouds form and taking in the scent of the first droplets hitting the ground with a hint of vanilla in the air as well. I looked outside and noticed the sun was completely blocked out, and the ground was polka-dotted with water.

    The vanilla smell rose out from the rain smell when I closed the door. I sat back down on Luke’s bed and brought his pillow up to my face. It smelled wonderful; peaches and cream. My eyes instinctively shut as I took in the details of his room. When my eyes opened, I noticed a stack of papers on the ground next to his desk. I stood up and looked at the one on the top that read, “Aaron Saunders’ Heart of Gold.”

    This must be his essay.

    I picked it up and thumbed through it.

    Damn he wrote a lot…

    I turned the pages and noticed a section that was circled in red. I read through it and my eyes widened in terror as I read something that tore my heart apart on the inside…

    The source of Aaron’s issues with trusting people is most likely caused by the trauma of losing his mother to Breast Cancer. His life took a turn for the worst as the one person he could trust in his life was suddenly taken from him, and since then he’s had this wall constructed around his heart to make sure no one else was able to touch it. I’m not sure why he let me through, I don’t even know if he truly likes me. But what I do know is that he’s the kind of person you have to be careful with. He’s the kind of person who doesn’t let people get close because he’s certain they’re just going to throw his trust in his face someday along the road.

    I heard the door open behind me, but I couldn’t put the paper down.

    “Okay, crisis averted. Now where were…” he said.

    He trailed off when he noticed what was in my hands.

    “Aaron…”
    “Luke what the fuck is this?” I asked.
    “You…you weren’t supposed to see that,” he said softly.
    “I can’t believe you would do this,” I said. I felt the tears start to burn my eyes.
    “Aaron wait,” he said, “That’s just a rough draft. I wasn’t going to turn that in I swear.”
    “I trusted you,” I said staring angrily through eyes that were quickly filling with tears.
    “Aaron I wasn’t going to show that to anyone. I circled it because I was taking it out,” he said, “I was just writing down everything I had in my head. I swear I wasn’t going to put that in.”
    “You shouldn’t have even THOUGHT about writing that down,” I yelled.
    “I’m sorry!” he yelled.
    “I can’t even look at you right now,” I said as I bolted towards the door.
    “Aaron please don’t leave!” he yelled, “Just give me a chance to explain!”
    “You only get one chance with me Luke,” I said, “And you already blew it.”

    ***

    The rain pelted me as I walked across the courtyard. I felt like there was a hole in my side, growing in size every second. It hurt a lot, but I couldn’t stop the pain. I got inside my dorm building and went straight up into my room. I didn’t even change out of my soaking wet clothes. In all my wetness, I flopped down on my bed and cried. The part that hurt the most probably didn’t have anything to do with being betrayed. I was almost certain that it hurt so much because of who betrayed me.

    That’s what I get I guess…
    Give me one firm place to stand, and I shall move the Earth...more than the 383 miles it would move anyway.

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    A heart breaker yes but so well written that its great. A very powerful chapter indeed. No need to appoligize for taking some time. We all have shit in our lives and, although JUB is a great site, it doen't run our lives. I'm just glad that it's coming out in the good for you.

    I feel sorry for Arron but he needs to just listen and talk shit out with Lucas. I know he was upset and all but still. A good relationship is based off of trust, commitment, and communication. Love can conquer all so I know Arron will relaize what a dumbass he was and go running back to Lucas. Maybe after some time alone and some sulking he will realize what he needs and what he wants.

    Thank you for writing for us.

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    Another great chapter ITC. Thanks for a great read. H&K
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    Yaaay been waiting for this for so long
    Another great chapter, thanks so much!

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    WOW! Just WOW!!

    I'm sorry to hear about your personal issues, but I'm certainly glad that things are working out! And, THANK YOU!, So much!, for writing some more for us!!

    At first, it looked like a long read, but went by so quickly! That was INTENSE! I wish I had your talent to put such fervor into the written word! It was like I was Right THERE!! Not just "watching", but IN Aaron's head! I could almost feel his heart beat!

    DEFINITELY looking forward to MORE!

    Of course ... no matter what ...

    Keep smilin'!!
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    Dear InTheCloset,
    A very powerful chapter.

    Poor Aaron. He needs to be able to learn to let go and let God.
    He HAS to start trusting someone else in his life - to start taking chances,
    or he will have an extremely sad and lonely life.

    You write a powerful, very human, story.

    The emotion and interaction is extremely real and intense.

    I'm sorry to hear that you have had a rough patch, recently. I know the past couple of weeks were on the exciting side for me, too - especially the week before last as we approached the Full Moon - our son's former sitter swears she could tell when the Full Moon was coming from the crazies coming out in all of them.
    Ol' Man Murphy was out in spades, wreaking havoc on anything and everything, it seemed.

    Here's hoping you're on a good, long upswing.

    Thanks for taking the time from your real life to share your talents with us in this touching story.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    Wow this is a great update. Thanks for that! It was well worth the wait.

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    Wow, ITC! That truly was an intense chapter. The excitement and build to the high pitch of love and trust only to crash into the depths of despair. I really liked it, but only because I have the feeling that this will truly open other doors for Aaron. My romantic self will not allow me to believe that he will continue to push himself away from the one person that has been able to bring him to the such extreme highs. His trust must again be gained by Lucas, but it will be and both of them shall have gained more understanding and maturity in their relationship.

    Of course, you, as the author only know if this is true. I will wait patiently for your continued expertise in shaping this delightful story.

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    Poor Aaron and Luke.

    Amazing update though, ITC. Thanks, can't wait for more.

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    Awesome chapter ... I feel the pain, although my consciousness tells me he should trust his initial feelings. To see love being rejected is sad ... I am sure it will work out later, but right now I am caught in the pathos ... and I want to cry ...

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    Poor Aaron, .... and poor Luke !!!
    The path of true love never does run smooth !!
    I do hope Aaron can stop judging everyone, and give Luke a chance to explain.
    More please
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    Okay guys, now I wanted to once again apologize for the delay, but this chapter took a little extra focus. Thank you all for reading and again, I want to thank my very good friend for helping me when needed

    I do switch from Aaron's perspective to Luke's halfway through so I could bring in an issue that I believe is still a very important issue in our times. It doesn't get discussed enough and it is my belief that ALL people need to be aware that certain things can happen to anyone. So as a disclaimer to the ending, do not pass judgment on me, for I'm not just trying to shock you.

    ENJOY!

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    Chapter Ten:
    The Stand Up


    “Come on Aaron, you gotta come out sometime.”
    I’m not here, go away.
    “You can’t stay in there forever.”
    I can try.
    “Aaron…please…”

    The sound of Carly’s voice begging me to leave the confines of my room was really hard to ignore. She sounded so desperate. After she called last night asking about what happened, I knew she felt guilty about pushing me to go for it. It didn’t matter though, it was my fault anyway.

    “Come on Aaron…this isn’t healthy.”

    She had been at my door for almost an hour now, pleading with me to come out. I was probably about ready to crack when she gave up.

    “I gotta go to class Aaron. Please call me.”

    My eyes stung from the air when I opened them. I don’t think I stopped crying at all last night. I was still in my clothes, which were dry now but crusty from the water. I decided I should at least shower and change. It took a lot of effort to get up from my bed. My energy was completely drained, but I managed to make it to the closet to grab a towel and a fresh change of clothes. The light rapping of someone’s knuckle against my door came just as I was about to open it and leave.

    “Aaron…”
    It was him.
    “Please talk to me…”
    I remained silent.
    “I know you’re in there.”

    Without hesitation, I dropped the clothes in my hand and opened the door. I don’t know why I did it, but it happened. He was standing there wearing sweats and a tight gray t-shirt. His hair was slightly messy and his eyes were bloodshot. He had something in his hand, but it was hidden behind his back. A smile attempted to penetrate his forlorn expression, but was unable to.

    “Can I come in?” he asked.
    “If you have to,” I said.

    My voice was rough and harsh. I hadn’t planned on it, but that’s just the way it came out. He hesitantly stepped forward as I moved out of his way. His approach was careful, and he slowly made his way into the center of my room. He held something out to me and took a deep breath.

    “Aaron, I swear I never had any intention to put this in my final draft,” he said.
    “If that’s what you’ve come to talk about then you might as well leave,” I said.

    He looked as if I had just slapped him.

    “How can you act so cold?” he asked softly.
    “Years of practice,” I said.
    “Can you just hear me out please?” he asked.
    “Fine,” I said, “You have one minute.”
    “Here,” he said handing me the paper, “This is the final draft. You can check the date the printer left on the back.”

    I took it from him and crossed my arms with it in my hand.

    “I would never hurt you intentionally,” he said.
    “Lucas…you just don’t get it,” I said.

    I walked over to him and held the paper in front of me.

    “Whether you decided to put it in your final draft or not, you still considered it,” I said.
    “No!” he yelled, “I swear I didn’t.”
    “But it’s in your notes, which means that part of you considered it. Even if it was just for a second, you still had the intention at one point.”

    I walked over to the door, opened it, and motioned for him to leave. He slowly walked towards me, and stopped when he was inches away from me.

    “Aaron,” he said.
    “Lucas…I’m not saying goodbye,” I said.
    His face almost lit up when I said that.
    “But I am saying that I don’t think a relationship would work,” I said.
    The excitement left him just as quickly as it came.
    “Well,” he said, “If that’s your decision then this should just be goodbye.”
    A moment of silence passed between the two of us.
    “I like you way too much to be just friends with you,” he said.

    I looked away from him, not knowing what to say. He lifted his hand and placed it on my shoulder, and his pain passed through him into me. It shattered my anger and all I wanted to do was grab him and tell him not to leave, but he was already out the door. Shame washed over me and I went back over to my bed. I sat down with the paper in my hand.

    I flipped it over and started reading…

    ***
    “You can’t turn this in,” I said.

    Lucas looked up from his book to see me standing in front of his desk. The classroom was just barely filling up and he was sitting in the front for the first time. He looked empty, as if the only thing keeping him together was ripped away from him. I felt a knot in my heart when I looked at his vacant eyes.

    “Why can’t I?” he asked, “There’s nothing in there that will embarrass or betray you.”
    “That’s my point,” I said, “There is no way in hell this paper will get an A.”
    “Is that really the kind of person you are?” he asked, “Do you really kick people while they’re down?”
    “Luke listen,” I said as I sat down next to him, “I was wrong to get mad, but you can’t turn this in without the part about my mom.”
    “Well it’s a bit late for that,” he said. His tone never changed and every word he said hurt me a little more.
    “Actually,” I said pulling a folder out of my bag, “It isn’t.”
    “What’s that?” he asked.
    “I rewrote your essay,” I said, “And added the part about my mom.”
    “Why?”
    “Because…it’s the only thing that will definitely give you an A,” I said.
    “Aaron, I don’t care about that,” he said, “I’m not gonna willingly do something to hurt you.”
    “What’s the big deal? I’m already mad at you. This isn’t going to change anything,” I said.
    You are such a liar…
    “I’m not doing it,” he said.
    “Fine…”

    I grabbed his essay and ripped it in half.

    “Now you’ve got nothing else to turn in,” I said.
    A look of shock crossed his face as he said, “You are such a dick…”
    “Then fine…I’m a dick,” I said.

    He grabbed the folder out of my hand and stood up. As he walked towards the back of the room, I felt myself break apart inside. I had hoped he would recognize that as an apology, but he had to force my hand…

    Class went by faster than usual. It felt as if it had just started when Professor Robbins was concluding his lecture. Before I could pack up my things, I saw Lucas shoot out the door. I quickly gathered my books and grabbed my bag as I bolted out after him. He was walking quickly with his head hanging towards the ground. I could tell he was crying. He turned down an alleyway between the two buildings and I followed him into it.

    “Lucas!” I yelled.
    He stopped dead in his tracks and said, “What do you want?”
    “Can we talk?” I asked.
    “I told you already, I don’t want to talk,” he said.
    “I know that’s not true,” I said.
    He remained silent.
    “Come on Luke…” I said.
    “What do you want from me Aaron?”
    “I don’t know,” I said, “Just not this.”
    “Aaron I just can’t do it,” he said, “I can’t see you everyday if it tears me up inside. I can’t talk to you if hearing your voice breaks my heart. I can’t be around you if I can’t be with you.”

    He lifted his hand and brushed it against my cheek. His eyes were closed in pain, and I could feel everything I was angry about dissipate as the feeling of his skin touching mine sent another shock through me. I grabbed his hand and held it against my cheek as I pulled him in and kissed him. Tears were coming from both of us as we kissed, and the world seemed to stand still around us. He pulled away and looked into my eyes.

    “I’m…confused,” he said.
    “Yeah so am I,” I said.
    “What does this mean?” he asked.
    “I’m not sure…but you’re right. We can’t be just friends. There’s always going to be something more between us.”
    “So you are saying goodbye then?” he asked.
    “What do you think?” I said as I pulled him back towards me with a small smile on my face.
    “I think I like saying goodbye,” he said with a grin.

    He pulled me into him and kissed me softly on the neck. A small moan escaped me as his lips met my skin. He let out a slight chuckle when he heard me. I opened my eyes and saw his bright hazel eyes staring back at me, with the big beautiful grin accompanying them.

    “You need to go get ready,” I said softly.
    “For what?” he asked.
    “You’re buying me dinner to apologize,” I said.
    “What?!” he said in an insulted tone.
    “Don’t worry,” I said, “I’m buying dessert to apologize to you.”
    “Oh really now?” he asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
    “Yeah,” I said as I started walking away, “Meet me at 7. I’ll text you the information.”
    “Where are you going?” he asked.
    “I got a job interview in 20 minutes,” I said, “I’ll see you at 7.”

    ***
    Lucas’ Perspective
    My phone buzzed in my pocket when I was sitting in my Astronomy class. I snuck a look at it and saw it was from Aaron. After class was released I opened it to see the information he sent me. I hadn’t heard of the restaurant before so I had to Google it when I got back to my room. It turned out to be a little Mexican restaurant that was about 3 miles away from the campus.

    I sat on my bed and looked at the clock that seemed to be burning through the coming darkness with the numbers forming the time, 5:30. As I lay back on the pillows, my mind was overwhelmed with thoughts of Aaron. The thoughts of him touching me and kissing me made my heart race in my chest. I imagined his body lying on top of mine as his hands explored mine and his lips pressed against my skin.

    I felt my cock stiffen in my jeans as I imagined Aaron descending upon it, and unbuttoning my pants with his teeth. I imagined his warm lips wrapping around my cock underneath the fabric of my boxers. Suddenly, we were alone in the Student Union. The building was empty except for us and the lights were all out. He pulled me by my shirt collar onto a couch in the middle of the room. As I fell on top of him our lips met and his arms encased me in his embrace.

    He flipped us over and sat up to take off his shirt. His body looked amazing in my mind. I ran my fingers across his stomach, but the feeling could not be imagined. I dejectedly returned my attention onto myself as Aaron leaned back in to slowly lift my shirt as he kissed a trail up my stomach and chest until his lips met mine again. He returned to my unbuttoned pants and peeled back the fabric of my boxers to unleash my stiff cock. The feeling of my – his fingers on my cock made me jump a little.

    I watched as, despite him being a virgin, he took my whole cock in his mouth like a pro. I’ve been given a blowjob before, but there was something about Aaron that made imagining one twenty times better. His ghostly hands roamed my skin and left little shockwaves in their path. The shockwaves continued across my skin until they reached my balls and I felt myself climaxing. I looked up at Aaron who was preparing to take my whole load in his mouth.

    I released everything I was holding back and I watched as the scene in my head dissolved around me, and I was once again alone in my room with a fresh pool of cum all over my hand. I took a moment to catch my breath and sighed sharply when I realized that Aaron wasn’t there.

    A rush of shame came flooding into me as I realized what I had done. I grabbed a handful of tissues and cleaned myself up as my conscious reamed into me for fantasizing about my celibate boyfriend. No matter how I tried to look at it, this was a form of pressuring him, whether he knew about it or not. The guilt was so intense I felt I needed to take a shower to wash the betrayal off of me.

    ***
    I walked into the restaurant and was astonished at how busy it was. Aaron said he wanted us to apologize to each other, but I had no idea he wanted it to be so public. I requested a seat at a booth near the front so he could see me when he walked in. The waiter brought some chips, salsa, and water and handed me a menu. Twenty minutes passed and there was no sign of Aaron.

    Ten more minutes passed and I pulled out my phone and called him.

    “Hey you’ve reached Aaron, don’t you feel special? Leave a message and I’ll get back to you if I feel like it.”
    Damn, voicemail.
    “Hey Aaron, it’s Luke. I’m at the restaurant. I don’t know if you got held up or something. Gimme a call, I’ll wait for you.”

    45 more minutes passed and I was started to get very worried. The waiter had been back several times asking about “our other party” and I just kept telling him a few more minutes. I called Aaron’s cell again and it went directly to voicemail.

    “Aaron, I’m getting worried. Where are you? Please call me.”

    A whole hour a half had gone by and still no sign of Aaron. I went through the whole basket of chips and the waiter came back a 5th time looking very annoyed.

    “Look, I know you’re pretty bummed right now but I’m working to pay off some debt right now and I need you to clear this table,” he said.
    “Sorry,” I said, “Thank you anyway.”
    “I’m sorry man, it sucks getting stood up I know. Her loss right?” he said.
    “Yeah…right,” I said.

    I didn’t even want to correct him. My mind was lingering on the words “getting stood up.” Aaron didn’t stand me up…

    Did he?

    I walked out into the cool crisp air of the night and took in a deep breath. I was obsessively checking my phone to make sure it didn’t die or to make sure that I didn’t put it on silent. But Aaron never called back. By the time I got back to my room I had probably checked it thirty or forty times. I lost count after 25 or so.

    I slowly changed my clothes and crawled into bed alone. I had so been hoping that tonight I finally would have fallen asleep with Aaron in my arms, but I guess he just didn’t have the guts to break things off with me directly…

    ***
    The ringing of my phone woke me out of a sound sleep. I didn’t remember falling asleep, but I didn’t care. I got Aaron’s message loud and clear tonight and I didn’t want to wake up and face a reality without him when I could have him in my dreams. The phone wouldn’t seem to stop ringing so I threw the blankets off of me and sat up to answer it. The word “RESTRICTED” was displayed on my screen.

    “Hello?” I said weakly.
    “…”
    “Hello? Who’s there?”
    “Luke…” Aaron said in a raspy voice.
    “Aaron?” I asked, “It’s 3 in the morning. What happened are you okay?”
    “No…” he said.
    “What happened?” I asked again.
    “I…I...” he said between sharp gasps.
    “Aaron?” I asked.
    He was sobbing softly on the other end as he said, “I w-was raped…”
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    Oh no, that's absolutely awful!!! I hope Aaron is okay. And that he and Luke are okay. Thanks so much for the great update!! xo

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    omg Is All I Can Say.......plz Keep It Coming

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    I agree with LADIICROFT, ITC, keep it coming. That chapter was fantasctic. H&K
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    Oh God!! No!!
    Please update soon
    Poor Aaron .... poor Luke!
    I so hope they can be a comfort to each other.
    Wonderful writing, Thank you
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    Dear ITC,
    It was an extremely powerful chapter.
    I'm not sure what else to say at this point.
    It covered a range of emotions, culminating with the horror of the act committed on Aaron.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    ITC ...

    You're ripping this Old Guy's Heart apart! Damn You! ... and, ALL of Your AMAZING Talent!!

    Don't you DARE stop Now!! Or ... I'll have to Hunt You Down! ... Stalk You for a few days! ... And POUNCE when You least expect it!!!

    THANK YOU! for the poignancy!

    You MUST play the rest of this out, for US, Now!!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    OMG

    Poor Aaron

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    i have to agree with Don i am speachless. wow. not expecting that one and cant believe wat happened. i cant wait to see wat happens next.

    thanx for writing and hope u continue on.

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    ITC,

    What can I say that has not been said in all the above posts. Such a poignant chapter. You are correct, however, in stating that it is a subject that is not discussed enough. Most think rape happens only to the female gender, but, when in reality it happens all to frequently to males as well. It is a subject hidden under cover of fear that one will be looked upon as less than masculine. In this day and age, when sexual ads are so extremely popular in the media from the different drug companies, we still hide male rape as if we were coming from the Victorian era. Just as in the 80's when AIDS was hushed, the only thing that brought it into public knowledge was the awareness and education of it's existence. Male rape needs that awareness as well. Kudos to you for bringing the subject to the forefront. Now let us all, here on JUB, begin to educate those around us of this unspoken evil.

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    Great chapter! Also a shock ... male rape is not openly talked about - so this is overdue. But what an unfortunate time for it to happen to Aaron as he was about to enter into his first relationship ... I will wait anxiously for the next chapter ...

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    OMG!!!!!! That is the last thing Aaron needed to go thru. It so sad. He already has trust issues. Now not only was his first time with a guy, a time he wanted it to be special, will be remembered as pain.

    He will probly feel shame. I'm afraid of how far this will affect thier already complex relationship. He will probly feel ashamed and unworthy to be with Lukus. And God I hope he didnt catch any STD from it. I can't wait to see how this all plays out. I hope it is all ok in the end, but have a feeling there will be alot more tears befor it gets better.

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    all i gotta say is WOW!!!! that was awful for that to happen to aaron.

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    Ok i jsut went through and read all the chapters so im all caught up. OMG WOW. i love the story man. I can not wait to find out what happens next.
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    This is a great story...I read all of the current chapters and finished Graduation....you are truly a gifted writer. Thank you for sharing your talents with us for free! I'm sure someone of your talents could publish award winning books.

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    -ITC

    Where are you? I know you have a life to live, but I'm so hooked on your story.

    Graduation was a fantastic story, which is what led me here.

    I think you've outdone yourself with this one. It's even more gripping than the last one (if that's even possible).

    I don't mean to sound rude, but I'm waiting with baited breath to see what happens next.


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    I do apologize for the wait, but classes are coming to an end soon which means it's almost finals week. I'm trying to find the energy and the inspiration to write, but it's really difficult since the only time I have is at night.

    I WILL finish the next chapter soon, but I'm not sure when it will be posted.
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    ITC,
    REAL Life come first.
    No worries.
    We'll be here when you have the time.


    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    Hey guys, I do apologize for the wait. Lots of crap going on recently and I'm trying to get my hands on a guy in my psych class so I haven't had much of an opportunity to write. I want to thank you all for being patient and I hope I didn't lost anyone in the downtime.

    I also want to give a HUGE public thank you to my good friend Irishinvader, without whom this chapter would not have made it past 2 pages. Much love Irish and thank you so much.

    Enjoy!

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    Wings of A Butterfly

    Chapter Eleven:
    The Magic in the Music


    I watched him carefully as his chest moved up and down. He looked like he was just sleeping, but the machines beeping every few seconds told me that it was much more than that. I looked at his face which was scarred but peaceful, and wished that reaching up and touching him would be enough to wake him.

    But his state wasn’t just sleep. The attack left Aaron with severe trauma to the head. Shortly after he arrived to the hospital, he slipped into a coma. He was supposed to be awake a couple days ago, but for some reason his eyes wouldn’t open. People came and went to visit him. One of them was a girl who turned out to be his best friend Carly. Others were people who had heard about what happened, and were hoping Aaron was awake.

    I stayed as much as I could. I wanted to be there when he opened his eyes. If they didn’t force me to leave at night I wouldn’t have left his side. Every morning I walked in, hoping his eyes would be open; and every night I left, hoping he would be awake the next time I saw him.

    As I sat there, looking at his face, I couldn’t help but cry. Not because I didn’t think he would wake up; I knew he would. I cried because of what happened to him. He was just opening himself up, and some scum went and did this to him. It was at that moment, I heard Aaron’s voice ringing in my head. He wasn’t talking to me; his eyes were still shut. I was remembering a conversation we had before. My mind flashed back to that night at the club, with music playing in the background of our conversation.

    “God, they sure picked a shitty rotation,” I said.
    “Why do you say that?” he asked.
    “Don’t tell me you actually like this garbage,” I said grinning at him.
    “Meh, sort of. I only really liked the first song,” he said.
    “Which was that?”
    “Crushcrushcrush by Paramore,” he said.
    “Get out!” I yelled, “Dude I love Paramore.”
    “You’re kidding,” he said.
    “Not at all, Haley Williams is the shit.”
    “I’m more into the instrumentals of their music,” he said.
    “How so?” I asked.
    “They put more energy and passion into the beat of the music. The guitar and drums totally overpower the song and they say more than the lyrics do.”

    And then it hit me. Energy. Passion. Music…

    Music!

    I pulled out my iPod and put one of the buds into his ear. I selected a random song and pushed play. I put the other bud into my ear and listened with him. The somber tones of the piano keys started playing as a soft voice began singing.

    I’m so tired of being here…
    Suppressed by all my childish fears…
    And if you have to leave,
    I wish that you would just leave.

    I looked at his face as the voice grew stronger. His heart rate remained unchanged, and nothing seemed to happen. I reached my hand up to his face, but it felt the same. It felt as if he weren’t even there.

    When you cried I’d
    Wipe away all of your tears
    When you’d scream I’d
    Fight away all of your fears

    His face still seemed lifeless. I wanted so badly for that to work. I felt my heart drop a little as I sighed out of frustration and clicked to another song to try again.

    Maybe a faster song…

    I clicked over to Celldweller on my list and played Own Little World. It had a harder, more energetic tone. The song opened with a screeching guitar and soft vocals that became overpowered by the rest of the instrumentals.

    Mutual sight
    Mutual sound
    Mutual struggle
    For shared ground

    His hear rate jumped a bit. My eyes widened with hope as the Celldweller song reached the chorus.

    Welcome to a world
    Where the air I breathe is mine
    Nothing to overwhelm me
    And nothing to cloud my mind
    Be anyone do anything
    I’d ever wanna try
    Time doesn’t exist here I WILL NEVER DIE.

    The minor rise in his hear rate leveled out and crashed my hopes. I went over what he had said in my head again. I tried so hard to figure out a way to bring him back to me. I was about to give up when my finger slipped and selected a new song. The song opened with the repeated strokes of a guitar followed by a drum and guitar intro. I felt my heart race as I recognized my favorite song.

    Heaven ablaze in our eyes
    We're standing still in time
    The blood on our hands is the wine
    We offer as sacrifice


    I got lost in the music as the monitors beeped with Aaron’s increased activity. My heart screamed with excitement as his heart started increasing its rate.

    Come on, and show them your love
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly
    For your soul, my love
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly
    For your soul


    My eyes were shut and I could feel his pulse increasing as I squeezed his hand. Tears were falling down my eyes as I thought about everything Aaron has made me see in myself. The song was reaching its final verse as I felt his hand close around mine.

    Come on, and show them your love
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly
    For your soul, my love
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly
    For your soul
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly
    Dont let go
    Rip out the wings of a butterfly

    Rip out the wings of a butterfly

    I looked up at him and saw his eyes flash open. He looked around in a haze and finally laid his eyes on me. He smiled slightly and mouthed the words, “Don’t let go,” as he squeezed my hand tighter.

    I buried my face into him and cried out of happiness. I said over and over again, “Thank God.” He made me look at him and said in a hoarse voice, “Don’t thank him.”

    ***

    I walked into the library in search of Aaron. I had checked the dining hall, the Student Union, and even Carly’s dorm building. No one knew where he was. One of the nurses at the hospital told me he just got out of bed and left this morning, so I spent the rest of the afternoon searching for him.

    I went to the third floor of the Library where no one usually went and found him sitting at one of the tables in the back. He didn’t hear me approach, but we were all alone up here. He had a massive bruise around his left eye and on the side of his neck. He sat beside a mountain of his books and barely flinched when I sat down next to him.

    “I went to see you in the hospital,” I said.
    “Yeah, they released me this morning,” he said blankly.
    “No they didn’t,” I said.
    “Well…you know how I hate hospitals,” he said.
    “What are you doing here?” I asked.
    “I have a test on Monday,” he said.

    He never once looked up from his books. I put my hand over the book he was staring at and forced him to look up at me. He was unable to hide the pain he was in, both physical and mental. The sparkling blue eyes that looked at me were full of fear.

    “Aaron,” I said, “You were raped…by a man who pumped you full of drugs, beat you senseless, and left you to die in an alley…You really need to lie down and rest.”
    “No,” he said, “I can’t sleep.”
    “I thought the doctors gave you-“
    “That’s not what I meant,” he said, “I can’t sleep.”

    He took a deep breath and stood up, revealing the brace his left leg was in and a few bandages on his torso. I couldn’t help but see him as this helpless victim that was totally destroyed by what happened to him. The bandages might come off soon but I was afraid his wounds would never heal…

    “I’m afraid to sleep,” he said, breaking me out of my thoughts, “When I close my eyes…all I can see is his face.”

    His voice started breaking and I could almost feel the tears building up in his eyes. I got up to stand beside him in case he wanted to turn to me and cry on my shoulder. He just stood there staring at the wall.

    “I can’t close my eyes because I’m afraid that when they open, I’ll be back in that room with no way out,” he said.

    I put my hand on his neck and made him look at me. The tears distorted his beautiful brown eyes as he tried to resist, but then allowed himself to look at me. I wiped a couple tears off his face and smiled at him.

    “Then come stay with me,” I said.
    “Wh-what?” he said.
    “Come stay with me,” I repeated, “I’ll protect you. And when your eyes open…you’ll be in my room. And I’ll be there.”
    “Y-you serious?” he asked.
    “Of course Aaron,” I said.

    I pulled him in and embraced him tightly. I felt him start crying again as we stood there. After his sobs started dying down and the sun started setting, his arms moved up to hold me back. He lifted his head and rested it on my shoulder next to my ear.

    “Thank you,” he whispered.

    I responded with a light kiss on his cheek. We released each other and he gathered his books. He returned to my side and I put my arm around his shoulder as we left the library together.

    ***

    I sat him down on his bed and kissed him on the forehead. I went over to his closet and started putting some of his clothes in his bag. When I turned around, he was smiling at me. I smiled back at him and raised my eyebrow. I walked over to him and sat down beside him on the bed.

    “You feeling alright?” I asked.
    “Yeah,” he said, “It comes and goes.”
    “Are you ready to talk about it?” I asked, hoping I wasn’t going to upset him.
    “Not yet Luke…” he said.
    “Okay, that’s fine,” I said, “I’m here when you’re ready.”
    “I know you are,” he said, “And I really, really appreciate it.”

    I put my arm around his shoulder and pulled him into me. We sat there for a moment in silence as his head rested on my shoulder. We were like that for a while until Aaron let out a yawn and I realized how late it was getting. The sun had completely gone away and left the world in darkness. We left the building and walked together across the courtyard. Aaron never let go of my hand.

    When we got inside, he yawned again. I dropped the bag of his stuff and pulled out a white t-shirt and his gym shorts and threw them onto the chair. I smiled at him and went over to my closet to pull out some clothes for myself, when I turned and noticed Aaron clenching his teeth as he was trying to take his shirt off. I walked over to him and grabbed the bottom of his shirt. He stopped my hand and looked directly into my eyes. His eyes were full of uncertainty as he looked at me.

    “Let me help,” I said.
    “Luke I can do it,” he said.
    “Not without hurting yourself, now please let me help,” I said.
    He sighed and said, “Okay.”

    I slowly and gently lifted his shirt up from the bottom and helped him slide his arms through the sleeves. When I pulled the shirt off of his head, I noticed a big black bruise near his ribs. I gently ran my fingertips over it and he flinched a little.

    “Does that hurt?” I asked.
    “No,” he said in a surprised tone, “Not when you touch it…”
    I leaned in and lightly kissed the bruise and said, “How bout now?”
    “Much better,” he said smiling.

    I smiled back and kissed it again as I grabbed his shirt off of the chair. I gently slid his arms into the sleeves and pulled it over his head. When his shirt was on he unbuckled his belt and focused his eyes on mine. His pants dropped to the floor. I honestly thought I wouldn’t be able to control myself, but I did.

    I slid on his gym shorts carefully over his knee-brace, looking at his sparkling blue eyes the entire time. When the shorts were secure, I stood up and smiled at him. He caught me off guard and wrapped his arms around me tightly; well as tight as he could without hurting himself.

    When we broke the hug, I went and quickly changed myself. I came back and sat on my bed and noticed him sitting on the spare bed plugging his phone into its charger. I threw the covers off my bed and inched up against the wall. I looked over and saw him pulling back the covers of the spare bed.

    “Hey, uh what are you doing?” I asked.
    “Getting into bed?” he said questioningly.
    “Well…” I said, “How am I supposed to protect you if you’re all the way over there?”
    “Lucas…I don’t think I’m ready for that,” he said.
    “Aaron, it’s just sleep,” I said, “Nothing has to happen if you don’t want it to.”
    He sighed and said, “Okay.”

    He hobbled over to my bed and eased himself in. When he was pressed up against me, I brought the blankets over to cover him and wrapped my arms around his torso underneath them. I looked at him and was relieved to see his smile again. He had a few almost invisible freckles on his face that made him look so innocent, so precious, that I could only handle looking at him for so long.

    I kissed the top of his head as I shut off the lamp on the nightstand next to us. His grip tightened around me and squeezed him back as if to say, “I’m not leaving.” Sleep was about to wash over me completely when his voice rang out in the darkness and pulled me out of my almost slumber.

    “Why are you here Luke,” he whispered..
    “Huh?”
    “I told you my reason for going to college…” he said, “What’s yours?”
    “Oh,” I said, “Well I don’t really have one.”
    “Come on,” he said.
    “Seriously,” I said, “I’m only here for my General Ed right now. I never really came here with a plan.”
    “Do you have a plan?” he asked.
    “Sorta,” I said.
    “Tell me,” he said softly.
    “Well, I never really understood how so many people I knew already figured out what they wanted to do with their lives before they left high school and I didn’t. About five months ago, I finally figured out what I want to do.”
    “What’s that?”
    “For as long as I can remember music has been a driving passion in my life,” I said, “I’ve been writing songs, playing guitar, and listening to any song I could get my hands on.”
    “Okay…” he said.
    “Well, when I was home for the summer, I had nothing to do outside of work. My friends were all vacationing with their families so I was kinda left alone most of the summer. I was surfing the internet aimlessly and stumbled onto an ad for internships in the music industry. And that’s when it hit me.”
    “What?”
    “I want to do something with music. I wanna be the person who’s responsible for the band playing on that stage. I wanna be the person responsible for someone’s voice getting heard. I wanna be the person responsible for a teenager turning on the radio and hearing a song that changes their life.”
    “Wow,” he said, “That’s really…”
    “Lame?” I said jokingly.
    “No!” he said, “Amazing.”

    The smile on his face was audible in his voice. He moved his head onto my chest and used it as a pillow. I could almost feel the anxiety melting out of him as he was finally able to go to sleep. But something bugged me. Something had been playing over and over in my head for a day or so. Something made me need to probe.

    “Aaron,” I said.
    “Yeah?” he whispered.
    “Why did you say ‘don’t thank him,’ the other day?” I asked.
    “Huh?” he asked.
    “When I said, ‘thank God,” you said ‘don’t thank him.’ Why?” I asked.
    “Oh…” he said, “I don’t want you to think he was responsible for me waking up.”
    “What?” I asked.
    “You’re the reason I’m awake now,” he said, “Not God.”
    “Oh…” I said.
    “Good night Lucas,” he said. The grin on his face was even more obvious in his voice this time.
    “Good night Aaron,” I said, “Sweet dreams.”

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    Brushing away the tears, ITC, that was a heart wrenching chapter. Very much worth the wait. There is still a lot of healing that has to come, but for now, even I feel safe now with Aaron in Lucas' protection. Looking forward to further installments.

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    Well worth the wait, ITC.

    I know Aaron has a lot of healing to do, but having Luke by his side is the best thing for him.

    I'm looking forward to your next installment.


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    Wow that was powerful. I'm happy to see that Aaron and Lucas are going to be ok.....Plz keep it comming but plz dont make us wait long...Thanx

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    WOW! What can I say? I'm sitting here with a big smile on my face, but, I seem to be having some trouble seeing! I'm feeling a bit tense, but, also, so very warm and comfy. I have read some Very good stories here, but none have had quite the effect that Your's has! Just ... WOW!!

    THANK YOU!, ITC!!

    Keep smilin'!!
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    damn it itc. i was hoping for a lousy chapter so i could dump this damn thread.

    but oh no, oh no you couldn't accommodate that...j/k...great job as usual

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    ITC, that was a beautiful chapter and like Chaz I'm glad the Kleenex were close by. Thanks again and am waiting for the next capter. H&K Vic

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    Bravo bravo. Well worth the wait. Something bad has brought them closer to ever, closer to love.

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    ITC, that was an amazing chapter. So much love and emotion.

    You have a great selection in music in this chapter. Wings of a bufferfly has got to be my favorite song of HIM's. Then Evenescece is great. Her songs useally have a good message.

    This chapter was well worth the wait. Unlike some of the others i didnt have and kleenex near me, so i had to run and get some by the end

    Im looking forward to your next chapter.
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    Dear InTheCloset,
    Thank you.
    This was a wonderful, powerful, sad-happy chapter.

    To see and hear and feel Aaron's aches and pains and despair is heartwrenching.
    Then, to see Lucas work so hard to help Aaron come back from the abyss. The total giving, selflessness is wonderful.

    I know that Aaron believes that Lucas was responsible for his return, not God.
    Those of us who have a strong faith in God know that He works in mysterious ways, and through others. I'll choose to believe that He guided Lucas' fingers to trip on the Ipod and play the song he did.

    For you see, unlike some of the Holy Roller "Christians" who love to hate all things Gay, I don't believe our good Lord has anything but love for all of us, and wants nothing but what is best for all of us, individually.

    I think HE may by working through you, too. You have developed an incredible story, one that pulls at all of our heart strings.

    Take care of yourself and your studies, your real life. That ALWAYS takes precedence.

    Thank you, for finding the time and energy to devote to crafting this wonderful tale and sharing it with us. If IrishInvader helped you behind the scenes, perhaps poking, prodding you, we thank him, too.



    And I know, if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest . . .

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    ITC, you have filled my heart with love for these two. I long to experience such a tender love. Thank you for giving us this marvelous story.

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    Absolutely beautiful. Thanks, ITC. Can't wait for more.

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    i must agree with Tim. well worth the wait. lots of love and passion.

    if u want to add more bulk to ur chapters try adding more detail. i mean u do paint a good picture but if u want to paint a great picture just add little things like the color of cloths, sheets, and crap like that. time consuming, yes, worth it, yes.

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