I need some advice!
I've jerked off every single day this week reading all those hot stories in this jub section.
I'm incredibly turned on by str8 guys.
I love to suck str8 cock and fool around with guys who won't even kiss me and turn all weird after sex. Right now Iím trying to turn my str8 mate into my wank buddy.
Most of my sexual fantasies involve me being used for sex by str8 guys in prison, in the army, etc.
I have a lot of random sex and to be honest Iím not too picky when Iím really horny.
Iíll let some old guy blow me and behave just like one of those str8 guys myself. Isnít that weird?
I'm out and proud. I'd be free to go out and meet other gay guys, who I might fall in love with and who might develop feelings for me, too.
Someday I want to marry Mr. Right. Have the husband, the house and the dog.
Just a regular settled life.
What's holding me back? Why am I not really dating?
Please tell me, what do my sexual desires reveal about me?
Is it self-loathing? Don't I love myself enough to allow someone else to love me?
Why do I want such opposite things? A fulfilled love life and random meaningless sex?
Iím not even sure I want all the sex I am having. It has become a reflex. You all know, sex in the gay world is like a commodity. You want it, you take it. Itís just so easy.
Maybe I just lack self control. I bought a prostate massager and a masturbation sleeve to keep me from pursuing random hook ups but just jerking off by myself is too boring.
Oh my god, maybe I have started to disconnect sex from feelings. This post is really turning therapeutic on my ass. Hahaha
Iíll often meet or call friends after those hook ups to feel some kind of human connection, not having had that intimacy with the guy I just fucked.
I donít know what to do? I feel like my behavior is keeping me from being happy.
Does anyone here feel the same? Itís all very hard to explainÖ Sorry if this isnít making much sense.
Oh, and if there are any hot guys reading this: Iíll give you the best head youíve ever had. Just call me.
Just kidding. ;-) Iíd really appreciate some advice.