I swallow every time. I don't get to do it often enough--at ALL--but when I'm fortunate enough to be in such a position, I'm literally thrilled to be feeling and tasting his cum as it spurts into my mouth. I came (so to speak) about sucking men off in what I think is a unique way. I always considered myself completely heterosexual, and still don't kiss or "get into" the man's body--aside from his cock and balls. I was extremely shy for most of my life and had a very difficult time meeting women. After going a long time without and having little success via online dating services, one drunken night (I don't drink any longer) I sent men some messages on Adult FriendFinder. One guy in particular came after me, and I decided to go for it. I can't remember ever being so nervous. What I was looking for was a sexual connection with another person. I NEEDED that.
I met up with the guy and, after drinking some beers, we eventually went up to his bedroom and got naked. I went after his cock first, and sucked it in the fashion that I'd want my own cock sucked. That first time, I was completely turned off by what I was doing and almost got up and left several times. Eventually, he unloaded in my mouth and I swallowed it down. His reciprocation was weak and uninspired, and he wound up taking my cock out of his mouth, at which point I came all over myself. That was not a good introduction to sucking cock and swallowing semen, that's for sure. I never met up with him again.
Later on, after going a long time without meeting a woman, I hit up some men on AFF again. I wound up meeting with a much older man about four times, and that's when I slowly began enjoying the experience. He did some odd things--like squeezing my head between his knees--but he WAS an attentive cocksucker, and he DID enjoy swallowing my load. Still, I wasn't too thrilled receiving HIS load, but that was all in my mind. I never let him know that I wasn't into him or his load. It might've had something to do with that fact that he wasn't a "hot" guy, just a much older guy with a penis he wanted to have sucked. However, I was starting to develop an urge to suck and swallow, and I think I needed to find the right partner.
In about 2006, I finally met the guy that I was looking for. He'd be considered an attractive, well-built man, and his personality is calm, friendly, and reserved--a lot like my own personality. I've met up with him about ten times over the years and now fantasize about him from time to time. When I even THINK about having his cock in my mouth or ESPECIALLY his cum, I get hard in a matter of seconds. It falls so completely into that "forbidden" category for me, and if I were unattached and lived closer to him, we'd be getting together every week. I'm still not into men's bodies, only their cock, balls, and semen. That's just me. I wonder if there are other guys on here who are similarly not attracted to men in general and are only turned on by what they can do for men sexually. I always suck my partner off first, because nothing intensifies my own orgasm like having the taste of my guy's semen in my mouth when I'm cumming. Bottom line: I'd feel extremely disappointed if, when getting together, I wasn't able to receive my guy's cum in my mouth so I could taste it and swallow it. It's a minor obsession, an itch that I develop a really strong urge to scratch from time to time. Thanks for listening!