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    Ever Felt...

    ...you've reached your contributional limit? You find that the barrel is empty, the well dry and any attempt at further input vanishes rapidly into a, metaphorical, singularity. No lower common denominator. No shared commonality at all, other than on, perhaps, such a quantum level as to have no discernable affect on higher levels.

    It's a shift of disparity that, unnoticable at first, one day surprises you with the amount in which it's enlarged, and encompassed your dealings and interactions. To the point where the distance reached is well nigh astronomical in proportion so that in the end, your voice falls into dead space and is heard by none. Ghostly and spectral it floats etheral, heard only by it's source.

    Ever felt that?

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    Nope. I'm always trying new things, taking risks.

    You slowly die if you don't.

    IMHO, of course.
    The world never changes if you're forever "minding my own business".
    The mindset that no one knows you're gay because you haven't told them,
    is like the dog that thinks you don't see him stealing the steak because he avoids your glance.
    Staying in the closet is like continuing to sit in the back of the bus.
    It's accepting that it's wrong to be who you are.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Lube View Post
    Nope. I'm always trying new things, taking risks.

    You slowly die if you don't.

    IMHO, of course.
    Not quite what I was referring to, but your point is taken, and mine is made.

    *wonders to self if he's being cryptic again?* ... *rests in his individuality anyway*

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    No.

    I'm merely bi-polar...
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    Re: Ever Felt...

    I think many people feel small and insignificant at times, that whatever they say matters to no one. I've felt like this before.

    From what I've gathered, you have kids, so you have a family. Some individuals have no one at all. What you say and what you contribute probably does indeed matter to people, even if you feel differently.

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    Not really...But others might surely think that I am.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    Quote Originally Posted by The_Pianist View Post
    ...you've reached your contributional limit? You find that the barrel is empty, the well dry and any attempt at further input vanishes rapidly into a, metaphorical, singularity. No lower common denominator. No shared commonality at all, other than on, perhaps, such a quantum level as to have no discernable affect on higher levels.

    It's a shift of disparity that, unnoticable at first, one day surprises you with the amount in which it's enlarged, and encompassed your dealings and interactions. To the point where the distance reached is well nigh astronomical in proportion so that in the end, your voice falls into dead space and is heard by none. Ghostly and spectral it floats etheral, heard only by it's source.

    Ever felt that?
    Sure. One time I used an oil base lacquer/sealer type primer on the walls of a small room without ventilation.

    Even then spectators lives where affected by my words, and actions. I just have to hope that I helped improve their lives to some degree.

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    Peanut butter.

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    Smooth, or crunchy?

    Old jar, or fresh jar?

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    It sounds like burn out to the extreme to me....

    you need to take some time off.

    *pot calling the kettle black here*


    Thank goodness the definition of marriage does change over time. Women were originally thought of as property and marriage was originally about an exchange of property.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    Quote Originally Posted by The_Pianist View Post
    ...you've reached your contributional limit? You find that the barrel is empty, the well dry and any attempt at further input vanishes rapidly into a, metaphorical, singularity. No lower common denominator. No shared commonality at all, other than on, perhaps, such a quantum level as to have no discernable affect on higher levels.

    It's a shift of disparity that, unnoticable at first, one day surprises you with the amount in which it's enlarged, and encompassed your dealings and interactions. To the point where the distance reached is well nigh astronomical in proportion so that in the end, your voice falls into dead space and is heard by none. Ghostly and spectral it floats etheral, heard only by it's source.

    Ever felt that?
    yes I have

    and then I realize that my ability to connect with others and the world around me is MINE, not the worlds

    that means its fixeable if I can embrace change

    does a closing door harm your fingers with malice, or does your choice to stick them in there as it swings shut cause the pain?

    I don't know...

    Some great authors kill themselves because they think they have lost their relevance, and yet Dannielle Steele turns out three books a year for a decade. To whom is she rellevant? probably to herself, first and foremost.

    Change and relevance seem to be connected somehow, and if I cannot embrace change, I cannot see my rellevance. Change does occur whether we want it to or acnowledge it. that is the nature of reality. If I cannot see reality, then i cannot see my place in it.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    In certain aspects of my life, but not in life in general.

    Until the day I die, I have a list of goals that must be accomplished. And the only to get those accomplished is very drastic, and time consuming, so my contribution is yet to be added.

    I'm sorry to have kept you waiting, but I'm afraid my walk has become rather sillier recently...

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    Seeing the ex really sucks...

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    I take it you mean JUB? I reached that about 2 months ago, which is why you haven't seen me around for awhile. Am I back? I dunno...all the posts still seem to be about the same topics, it's like I never left.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    i like peanut butter. i like it best with jelly. my favorite type of jelly is plum. plum jelly has this sweet, but not too sweet taste to it that i love. not sure of why. blah blah blah blah blah


    you see? there's always something to contribute... contributions don't all have to be treatises-of-man's-place-on-the-universe (even though those are a lot more interesting).

    it might be just burnout; or it could be that you've lost interest for a while ... or maybe altogether. (i'm sure you already knew that).

    sorry for the lack of a resolution 'cuz i don't know of any.

    like bell-bottoms, this to shall pass. in the meantime, go out for a few drinks.

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    Gery, it sounds like you're going to be leaving us again...

    If you are talking about JUB, then I feel the same way at the mo...

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    I've just been, still am, really stressed, worried, feeling fragile, wits endish, kinda pulled in several directions, and rather frightened about a things or two.

    There's more in my JUBlog for those interested.

    In regard to JUB, I'm just feeling more of a disconnect than usual.

    There still lies within, despite being all growed up and everything, the little boy who wants to belong somewhere, and fit it, be accepted and appreciated.

    Lately, due to the afore mentioned stressors, I'm feeling a tad impotent (about familial circumstances) while trying to gear up for training for the new job. So the emotional swings have been far more pronounced than usual. Just feeling really really really off balance.

    This is hard to say, but there's a sensation of little appreciation, or respect going on in my life right now and I find it difficult to reach out for support ANYwhere due to past events and that I've so often found myself, when in real need, still having to deal BY myself.

    I don't trust that anyone will really be there, or, that they'll vanish at a most crucial and critical time, when I'm at my most vulnerable...as has happened. Once burnt, twice burnt, etc. and so on and so forth.

    I'm feeling vulnerable even admitting THIS. Bottom line, in general, I'm feeling really hurt and wounded. I can't even play to help deal as I usually do. I'm trying to make things better for all concerned and am feeling almost overwhelmed and I have to keep drawing from that internal wellspring and I don't know how much is left.

    I'm trying hard to change things but I'm finding it difficult and tiring. Somehow, I need to recharge and I'm not sure how to do that anymore. I only know I have to somehow keep going and SOMEhow, improve things. I just hate feeling so alone all the time.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    did you know that coping after an injury, dealing with difficult families issues, facing difficult finances, ending a job, starting a new job and planning for the holidays are some of the biggest stressors people can face?


    did you know that you're facing all six?
    .... at the same time?


    i said it before and i'll say it again: go out, have some fun. rewarding yourself is one of the most effective ways to manage stress.

    ... the crazy doctor told me so.

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    Quote Originally Posted by davy View Post
    did you know that coping after an injury, dealing with difficult families issues, facing difficult finances, ending a job, starting a new job and planning for the holidays are some of the biggest stressors people can face?


    did you know that you're facing all six?
    .... at the same time?
    Yeah, impressive ain't I?

    *flexes psychic muscles*


    i said it before and i'll say it again: go out, have some fun. rewarding yourself is one of the most effective ways to manage stress.

    ... the crazy doctor told me so.
    I did that already. Six days down in Southern California at the end of Agust. It wasn't quite long enough, we could have done with another weeks but, it'll have to do.

    NOW I gird my loins, set my face like flint and forge ahead come hell or high water, or both. I'll survive, it's what I do.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    I feel like that all the time.

    But it goes away.
    Gentlemen.... Thank you.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    Quote Originally Posted by The_Pianist View Post
    ...you've reached your contributional limit? You find that the barrel is empty, the well dry and any attempt at further input vanishes rapidly into a, metaphorical, singularity. No lower common denominator. No shared commonality at all, other than on, perhaps, such a quantum level as to have no discernable affect on higher levels.

    It's a shift of disparity that, unnoticable at first, one day surprises you with the amount in which it's enlarged, and encompassed your dealings and interactions. To the point where the distance reached is well nigh astronomical in proportion so that in the end, your voice falls into dead space and is heard by none. Ghostly and spectral it floats etheral, heard only by it's source.

    Ever felt that?

    Yes.


    Take my mood from the past three or so weeks and there you go.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    Yes.

    Every time I try to talk to my teenaged daughter.

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    Big hug Gery

    I can sympathise in some respects - been there, done that with the whole undervalued/underappreciated malarky. Not nice, took me a while to get over it but I think I'm just about there.

    You've obviously got a lot on your plate right now so it's bound to have an effect. You can only do your best, that's all anyone can ever ask.

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    Its the main reason why I deleted my account, but Gery I've told you many times about the whole contribution and me having nothing in common with these JUB members. Just be glad that you're apart of this community, there have been people here that have contributed nothing, but you have.

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    Quote Originally Posted by The_Pianist View Post
    I did that already. Six days down in Southern California at the end of Agust. It wasn't quite long enough, we could have done with another weeks but, it'll have to do.

    NOW I gird my loins, set my face like flint and forge ahead come hell or high water, or both. I'll survive, it's what I do.
    why merely survive when you can survive well?

    when i say treat yourself, i don't mean go out on another vacation. i mean give yourself an hour or five and do something you WANT to do. and do it every few days (or maybe everyday) until you've made some of those stressors go away.

    vacations help you focus on what you do with life. stress relief treats help you deal with day-to-day life.

    there be a difference in there somewheres.... i promise

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    ^ Oh, I do that as I am able. However, the stressors do not go away.

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    stress never goes away.

    someone once told me: stress is proof that you're alive.



    i guess how you deal with it determines how you live

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    ^ Yup, they're called coping skills for a reason.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    grrrrr.... dammit, gimme the last word.

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    ^Sure. Did you have one in mind?

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    Nutmeg!!!!

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    That's a pretty decent word. Makes me think of the pumpkin fritters my South African (she was born in Port Elizabeth) grandmother used to make.

    Go ahead then.

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    Re: Ever Felt...

    um... yeah

    so, as i was saying before: managing stress is a very important skill to learn for life and happiness.

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    Yes, I think we can agree on that.

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    i'm glad we do.

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    Okay...um...now what?

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