If i were you i'd ask him to fuck you. If you're not talking anyway, what's the worst that could happen. Plant the seed in his head and let him think about it Good luck!!! Let us know what happens!
The first time I realized I was gay was when I was ten. It was after a night I had a sex dream that involved my dad. The first time it happened I felt super guilty about it and couldn't look him in the eye. Then it kept happening more and more. Eventually I got aroused around him all the time and jerked off to the thought of him frequently. My dad was always a "man's man" and was an ex-marine so he would comfortably walk around in nothing but boxers. It always got me super horny. Sometimes he would walk around the house naked when he got up super early and I would walk in on him naked making coffee or something. (Usually on purpose.) Around the time I was fifteen I decided that I would try and sleep with him if I ever got the chance. So not to long later he got really drunk and my younger siblings were in bed. He was passed out in his bed and I figured I'd check up on him. When I approached him his cock was hanging out of his boxers. My dad is huge and has a perfect cock. I was super horny and pulled it out and started sucking him off but my mom came home about 10 minutes later and I wasn't able to finish but damn I wish I did.
Then when I was 18 and he caught me looking at gay porn and he sat me down and asked me why I was looking at it and what I found attractive about it. I just lied and said I was curious but we sat there for almost an hour and watched gay porn together it was both awkward and hot! A few months later I was hooking up with older men in their forties and my parents found out. I was posting ads titled "son seeking daddy" and my dad got really pissed. He came into my room and told me "I'm your daddy. No daddy is ever gonna make you feel or love you the way your actually daddy can." He probably meant it to be caring but at the time I took it as jealousy and made an effort for him to know when I was hooking up with guys his age. Although he made it an effort to let me know every time a gay guy my age hit on him. which in turn made me jealous. Then one night he straight up asked me if I wanted him to fuck me! My first reaction was to jump at the opportunity and say yes but reluctantly I quickly said no and acted as if I was disgusted he would ask. The only reason he asked I think was because of the daddy son classified posts.
Soon I moved away to college and I figured it would never happen so I kind of lost interest. The first time I came home for a visit my dad told me about his gym addiction and how he lost a lot of weight and he got buff. My dad was always pretty in shape cuz of his military background but he got super hot after I left for college. My interest quickly resumed and I would watch him walk around in nothing but boxers and run to the bathroom to jerk off. On a few very seldom occasions I peaked through his bathroom window and watched him shower. I'm 24 now and my father had a huge falling out after we got in a fist fight over something stupid. We haven't talked in almost 2 years and he said he's willing to do anything I want to become father and son again. I'm almost tempted to ask him to fuck me so that I can finally get over him but I'm afraid of his reaction. Any suggestions???