Lord forgives me I have accidently jerked off & came to this thread twice
I say accidently because I did not mean to cum lol.
Wow, this thread is about to make me cry & I have not read past the 7th page. My father is not in my life. I have met him twice he denies me as his son. I think he is the reason I like men and even moreso why I like older men. When I was little (ages 10-16) I would get internally enraged when I saw fathers & sons.
I hated seeing the security & cockiness their sons felt by having their dad in their lives. And, when I saw them laughing & playing sports together, I would get so jealous. I am one of those guys older people like to talk to & a lot of older guys try to gently be a father figure to me in some way. If we become close all I can think about is holding them & them holding me & giving me what I never had in a father but it always turns sexual in my head & I donít know why. I canít see any other way for showing affection because I have never experienced it with my father & search for the closeness in other ways.
But, just like regular relationships I think itís very important for Dads to express their love to their sons. Whether it be hugging them, telling them they love them, kissing them (innocently), sharing stories about your own father, & making them feel comfortable with his & your own body.
Also letting your son explore his curiosities while maintaining some boundaries.
I.e. if your son is about to go on a date it would be helpfull if your dad showed you how to kiss a girl.
He may be curious about how he should kiss but should be able to come to his father to help him practice.
I know thatís not the best example though.
I think all of the things I have mentioned culminate into a sense of making love with your father & sex does not have to be included all the time but pleasuring each other and enjoying one another I think can create very close bonds & better emotional security down the line.
I really want a relationship with my father (sigh)
& I have gotten desperate for a fathers love & affection
One time I was at a bus stop and sat next to this older drunk guy he was about 40 and he was handsome. We started talking and he put his arm around me and a wave of tranquility just came over me. He said my hands were big and put my hand up to his and interlocked our fingers & my knees buckled. I canít believe how much an ill touch from this older drunk guy could make me feel.
I know I sound a bit crazy
But at least I and my mom have a relatively close relationship (she gets on my nerves though lol)