Hi there, I'm new here.... but I've actually seen this site for quite a long time, just didn't join.
Anyway, about me, I'm pretty sure I'm gay but I only realised it since about 3 years ago. Since I was 13, I kinda admired boys more than girls, but I thought it was just a phase or that it was normal. But then I gave in to the thought that maybe I was gay, and tried to accept it, up until now. I don't hate myself for being gay, in fact, I kinda like it, but the problem is, in my country, everybody isn't as open and free about these kind of topics.
I'm in secondary school now, and I've actually planned on telling one of my friends, one of my closest friends so to say... but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. There was a time when I was determined and ready to tell him, but when the time came, the words just couldn't come out of my mouth. I would either just call him, then say it was nothing, or my mouth would just try to change the topic.
On the other hand, even though I'm pretty ready, I'm just afraid of losing a friend, just in case, since I've never actually heard about any gay people in my school yet. I guess their all bottled up because of the society I'm in.
Sorry if its a little long, but I just need you people's advice. pls post whatever you guys can say.