Me and My (almost) Cousin

Something just happened tonight that is freaking me out.

I'll start from the beginning... During my senior year in high school ('02), my parents divorced. My uncle (also divorced) moved in with my dad when I moved out to go to college. Mainly to keep my dad company and also to help pay my dad's mortgage and bills. Not long after, my uncle met a great woman named Tammy. She has a son named Josh who is about 2 years younger than I am. My uncle still lives with my dad. He says he never wants to get married again, so apparently he and Tammy are going to be dating for a long time.

I'm now 23. Josh is 21. I go home almost every weekend (if my schedule permits) to visit my dad and see my family. A few months ago, I noticed that Josh has moved into my old bedroom and is now basically living with my dad and uncle. This annoyed me. I have never been all that close to Josh. He's very quiet and private. And we're very different. I'm athletic, clean cut and preppy (there's a few pics of me in my gallery). Josh is more of the skater type. Or maybe surfer, I'm not sure. Kinda skinny and sloppy. He has shaggy brown hair and pale blue eyes, almost a white color (I noticed them more recently).

Now that it's summer, I have more time off, so I'm staying at my dad's a few days this week. I came home this morning and Josh was sleeping in my bed and my room was a disaster. But something about this has, oddly enough, turned me on. All day today, I've wanted to jump his bones. I watched him sleep for a few minutes, just staring at his butt in his tighty-whities. Later, I stood in the bathroom and inhaled his cologne for at least 10 minutes. Just the smell of him makes my heart race. This afternoon, I decided to clean my room for him. I was picking up his dirty laundry and noticed a stack of porn under the bed. I shuffled through them and noticed there were straight AND gay magazines! My whole body turned numb.

Now what? I need advice! I have the biggest crush on him now. And I'm so confused. I don't know if it's okay for me to even think this way or not. He's not blood related. Hell, we're not even related (yet). But what if he's not gay? What if they were someone else's magazines? I want to act upon my feelings, but I'm scared. What are your thoughts/opinions?

If anyone is interested in this, let me know and I'll keep posting.

Thanks for taking your time to read this. Sorry it was so long.

[DiverDude]

This is very interesting to me, but I'm kind of on the fence about if you should or should not act upon these feelings.

Normally I would say go for it; he's not blood, and you're about the same age. On the other hand, if things become awkward, or if your assumptions are wrong, he's kind of stuck there, and there's going to be tension between the two of you.

He is an outsider to your family. Uncle's gf's son isn't close at all to the nuclear family, so I think it's alright for you to go with it.

By the end of this post and now that I've organized my thoughts, I'm leaning with the "it's okay" side. Good luck, and let us know more if something happens. This has really sparked my interest.

[timnmostud]

I just KNEW this was going to be a fun one!

Seriously, he's not bilogically related to you no matter who gets married. So you are in the clear there! Send out some signals and see what happens. Maybe stack the mags neatly so he knows you saw them! Tell him that you think the two of you should share the room! You are both young and no harm in trying if he turns you on! You know what they say about opposites being attracted! Let us know what happens!

[Philia]

Hm. How well do you know him? Cause I'm wondering if you've just grown accustomed to him. Get some experience between the both of you. Invite him to go out with you to do stuff. That way you can get to know each other, find out how serious this crush is, and build a sort of trust bond. Who knows, maybe he'll be able to confide in you or you in him.

Anyway that's my take on it. I hope the best for you.

Tell him that you think the two of you should share the room!

That's a good idea. I'm in the office right now. I was planning on sleeping in the den, but maybe I could tell him I want to sleep in my room. Would that be too suspicious though?? I don't care if anything happens tonight, I just want to be near him. That's so strange huh?

[puka-pride]

lol fuck your hot... if you cant get with him noone can... I say go up to him and ask himif he has any porn to borrow cus your horny... and if he says no be like yo i know your hiding porn somewhere.... and go and grab it... and grab the gay one... and start looking through it and talking about it...


orrrrr.... you can say u wanna sleep in your room and insist he share the bed with you.....


orrrrrrrr... you could just jump him.... :P

if you jumped me i wouldn't say no....

[latinoguy19]

Originally Posted by superboy83

That's a good idea. I'm in the office right now. I was planning on sleeping in the den, but maybe I could tell him I want to sleep in my room. Would that be too suspicious though?? I don't care if anything happens tonight, I just want to be near him. That's so strange huh?

you should ask him (: hopefully he doesn;t think it's weird; it is your room after all. i mean the magazines are a big clue...just having them means he must be curious. so take it slow, be cautious. you don't want anything to be awkward.


good luck!!

[latinoguy19]

Originally Posted by puka-pride

lol fuck your hot... if you cant get with him noone can... I say go up to him and ask himif he has any porn to borrow cus your horny... and if he says no be like yo i know your hiding porn somewhere.... and go and grab it... and grab the gay one... and start looking through it and talking about it...


orrrrr.... you can say u wanna sleep in your room and insist he share the bed with you.....


orrrrrrrr... you could just jump him.... :P

if you jumped me i wouldn't say no....

ha u beat me to it, and yes he is hot!!

[8tomtoms8]

Great story!!!
One thing you could do is offer to give him a shoulder and back massage. If he is at all curious about gay sex he'll probably take you up on the offer. I know I would. It is a great way to break the ice and also for you to get your hands on him. You'll get the chance to explore his body and it will feel good to him. It is also totally safe and fun. Let us know what happens.

[DriveThruRecFan]

dont be too obvious, take it really slow. find something in the room that is not available in the den, such as a TV or something, or say the TV reception in the Den doesnt recieve all the channels. then tell him you want to watch TV your old room, and fall asleep. ta dah!

or make up something along those lines, maybe computer will work? or i dunno.

[grady26]

superboy,

Why not tell him you were cleaning up "our" room and find the straight and gay porn, then ask him if they both turn him on. That could be a start of an interesting conversation.

The massag idea is good one. It works, I have been then, done that one!

[sxebrneyes]

There are definitely some varying thoughts on what you should do, but maybe now would be a good time as someone else had suggested try asking if he wants to hang out with you. That way you just might be able to pick up some vibes that might suggest he could possibly be gay/curious or whatever. Also by hanging out with him it might just help satisfy this intense attraction you are feeling for him. I mean instead just worshipping him from a far...

[orton86]

Maybe those were your old magazines! haha jk...I would definitely ask him the suggestion about if he has any magazines since you are very horny.

lots of hotties posting here ...
superboy ... um i guess yeah like what others have said get to know the guy better ... you both seem like really cool guys ... and he sounds like a hot surfer dude ... hehe

Thank you guys so much for all the feedback! It's now 7:12 am, the morning after my first post last night (for those of you not in my same time zone).

A few things happened last night. My last post was about 12:30 or so last night. I logged off and sat in the office for a few minutes, trying to build up the nerve to go to my room instead of the den.

When I opened the door to my room, he was already in there, lying on the bed with his headphones on and the lights off. He took one out and looked at me as if he was waiting for me to say something. I just did it: I told him it was too cold in the den and I'd rather sleep in my room. I already had a blanket and pillow (figuring I'd sleep on the floor). He said "ok, that's cool, but we don't need that many blankets do we?" It threw me off, but I didn't hesitate. I threw the blanket on the floor and said "I just brought it just in case." totally lying. He moved over and I crawled into bed with him!!

I have a queen-size bed, so there's plenty of room for two. This also became a problem, though. There was too much space between us. There he is, lying in his tiny white briefs and NO t-shirt(!!) and I'm a whole foot away from him!! I'm not a very ballsy person when it comes to these things. I haven't been in a teen-angst "does he like me or not" situation in a long long time. So of course, I just lie there all night wishing I could roll over and put my arm around him and cuddle and touch him in all the wrong (but oh-so right) places, but I never did.

I did, however, talk to him some! When we were lying in bed last night, I told him I cleaned the room (just to see if he'd catch on about the pornos) and he kinda hesitated to say anything. He finally said "sorry I let it get so messy. thanks." Not what I was hoping for. But when I got up this morning, I reached under the bed and stacked the porns up very nicely and put all the gay ones on top. Now, I'm sure he'll get the hint.

So what now? Any suggestions for today? My dad and uncle are at work, so we have the house alone together all day!!

dude, this sounds so hot. i'm so jealous right now. you are so cute!! tell us more about Josh!!

as far as today goes, i'd say you should try to just chill with him. maybe go see a movie. is there a movie theater in your town? or go get something to eat. you need to bond. show him that you're cool and make him want you...bad! make him crave for you.

if you sleep together again tonight, try to get close to him, just pretend like you roll around in your sleep. try to touch him and see if he touches you back. OMG i'm so jealous!!! keep us updated!!!!!!!!

oh btw, this is my first time on this site and judging by this thread, it's going to be fun!! hi everybody!

[Just_Believe18]

stacking the magazines was a nice touch. Now it's definitely going to be an unspoken thing. Good idea on the sleep over thing. I think you know how to handle this.

I recommend more bonding. Just hang out and get to know the guy more. Even if you like him and think he's cute, he may not be your personality type.

And there's no taboo even if he was your cousin. Heteros can marry their 1st cousins in most U.S. states. That taboo is a modern fairytale, especially for gay guys who don't have to worry about kids.

[--O2--]

Has anyone noticed that this "Josh" is in the closet?

Red flag anybody?

As for the family, while there is clearly no ethical problem here, there is boundless opportunity for political problems.

Proceed with extreme caution.

[puka-pride]

walk around with no pants!!!!

[Gooey45]

Dude this one is easy ask him if you can borrow one of his underwear after you come out the shower with your towel go to the room when hes there and take off the towel and take your tme putting on his tightie whities . And look at him as you do it . then leave your cousin will most likely now have a boner and you can once again sleep with him this time no sheets entice him. You don't have to do all the work . #1 he has gay magazines im closeted and i dont have gay magazines.So for him to actually buy it means his closet door is not locked.

Trust me the shower thing is like a porno hell start posting here after that one.But dont act on it until you know him better if he acts on t then your free.

Thanks for the advice guys.

A few things did happen today that are making me wonder. I went to luch with some friends and when I came back he was in the other room so I thought I'd check the porn. Sure enough, it was gone. I freaked out a little. He's got to know I saw it. He looks at me alot, but I'm not sure if that's good. And he didn't put on clothes all day long. He was in his briefs, no shirt, all day. But, that could be normal for him. I'm not really sure what to think at this point.

Has anyone noticed that this "Josh" is in the closet?

Red flag anybody?

As for the family, while there is clearly no ethical problem here, there is boundless opportunity for political problems.

Proceed with extreme caution.

I'm not sure if he's closeted or not. Maybe his friends know. I haven't told my family I'm gay, so why would he tell them either? Even if he is gay (or bi) I'm not sure where he is in accepting it. Also, he's not in my family. He's my uncle's girlfriend's son. So other than a gay controversy, there is no real family issue here.

Chadx86, I could talk about him all day. He's so hot. He's in very good shape and I love his style. He's tall and lean and looks like he has a pretty big package stuffed in his undies. haha. He's quiet and laid back and very easy to get along with.

We did go rent a movie and a video game together today. We both sat on the couch and he propped his feet up on my lap!!! I was so tempted to slide my hand up his leg and into his little undies. I had to sit on my hand to keep myself from touching him!! Also, while we were making some nacho's, I said something funny and he started laughing and had the cutest look on his face, then he grabbed me like he was going to wrestle me. It was kind of weird, but so cute.

I suck at flirting games. What should I do to hint to him without crossing the line? I'm not the type to get naked in front of him for a reaction!!

Ok----the gay mags are gone, he KNOWS you SAW them.

How about replacing them with a couple new ones?..........

[puka-pride]

omfg lol he is totally hinting back at you...

str8 guys don't put their feet on eachother...

if it was me i woulda started to rub his feet....

why don't you go out and buy a gay porn mag of your own... and place it on top of his pile

that'll get things rolling

Oh My God !!! ......I'm hooked on this drama like a daytime soap !!!!!!
I need to know more .......ASAP!

[j0rdan]

Originally Posted by getstoseven

Ok----the gay mags are gone, he KNOWS you SAW them.

How about replacing them with a couple new ones?..........

^^ What he said

[backpacker]

You could just ask him where all the GOOD magazines went.

[orton86]

This is so much better than the creepy cousin story...lol

Ok, one last post for the night before I go to bed!! I'm in the office again and everyone except Josh and I are asleep. I'm starting to think that he's into this as much as I am, but I'm just too damn scared to do anything about it!

I agree that guys don't normally prop their feet up on eachother (especially when they're in their skivvies). Also, since my last post, we wrestled in the den and I let him pin me. He was laying on top of me with his hands holding my hands down, his face right in front of mine. I swear, it was like a movie. I started to subtlely lean in, to see if he'd kiss me or something, but he got up. And just a little bit ago, he asked me if I'm sleeping in there again. I think that's a good sign right?

I've already thought of what I'm going to do tonight. He's never seen me in my underwear. So I'm only wearing my boxers to bed tonight. I'm nervous as hell. I just got out of the shower so I smell good and have that slightly wet but sexy thing going for me.

Ok, well, time for bed. Night everybody.

[macroman]

Man!! for some strange I am waiting superboy's update in the morning...We should start making bets on whats going to happen.. I say some mutual touching, nothing more, but if so great!!

[Just_Believe18]

I bet something happened tonight.

[RMphan]

Originally Posted by orton86

This is so much better than the creepy cousin story...lol

orton strikes again... so true... hah

[Aflute04]

tee hee, if this cousin moves in with him... I'm out of here

And please, don't whisper 'give it to me cuz' if you two ever do the deed...

Am I thinking of the same thread?!?!

[Chosen]

You only live once, if your going to live your life by the stupid boundaries set by society which are only really there to enable people to judge then have fun.

[Tommyboy69]

From what you are telling us, I would have to agree with the others. He wants something to happen as badly as you do. Continue slowly turning up the heat and let nature take its course. Asking where the good magazines went is a good idea--maybe look at some together while lying in bed in your underwear!

Aflute04 and Chosen: it's not his cousin. it's his uncle's girlfriend's son. he explained it earlier in this thread.

DUDE!! i can't wait to see what happened. this is freakin hot. i wish my life was this fun! Superboy83, you gotta let us know what happened last night ASAP!!!

[Aflute04]

Originally Posted by orton86

This is so much better than the creepy cousin story...lol

I think you misunderstood what I was asking...^^^ I was referring to this post, not the initial post... Thanks anyways

Welcome to the site chad! You'll find a lot of stories like this, so if you ever feel the need to share yours (whether it be real or fake, we seem to get a mixture of both), you know where to write it. We'll either believe you for a while and then call you out, or just go straight to the calling you out part... Either way, you get some advice and some of us get entertainment (moreso when the person is being outrageously false in their claims of 'love').

***Back on topic***

Hey guys. Well, last night was pretty uneventful and I'm feeling pretty discouraged. I think he fell asleep almost as soon as I got in bed. I did manage a few grazes with my hand, but it didn't cause him to do anything. I guess in hindsight, he didn't freak out so that's good, but I was really hoping he'd get the clue and respond. I think I'm trying to force something to happen rather than just wait and see. He may be straight for all I know.

So what should I do? Give up? Is this wrong? I'm so confused. I guess I read too much into it and got over confident.

But even if I do give up, I know I'll always wonder what would have happened. What would you do?

[Gooey45]

This is so exciting for you just take the plunge one thing i learned about taking that plunge is afterwards if it ends up bad if you love yourself enough you wont care, i mean he's kinda like family and he's a dude.Straight guys dont go around telling other guys that a guy hit on them he'll keep your secret.This happened with my friend when he moved in with me we did something it ended up bad but we still good friends and keep it our secret.

Im gonna explain to you how it happened with my friend , I would always go to his room and lay on his bed and watch tv he would come in kick me out of his bed and i would sit in the floor across from his face and look into his eyes for hours we would do this.He would smile, cover his face etc.. Is all in the eyes.After that kept happening i started noticing he would get boners around me and play with my hands etc..Hand shakes is a good game to play when you into someone.Bring in some liquor to settle things too.Just make it fun not lovey dovey . Dont scare him like i did to my friend dont blow him the first time just give him a handjob and thats it.and make sure you recieve as much as you give.

Somehow i think you must have already done something i hope it goes well. Fuck buddies are awesome!!!!!

[macroman]

I agree with these guys to not give up. I tried to get somewhere and then gave up with a buddy of mine and now I keep wondering if anything could have happened.

In my case ,I had made sure to play the role of I am just straight (I am bi). With my knowledge of massages, I was able to give intense massages in the right places, "I really liked massaging his ass, he would allow me to pull his pants down, because truthfully, I mentioned thats the part of the body that endures the most stress at times." I would always be upfront that I am cuddler, so I told him to forgive me If sometimes unintentionally hug or rub your back at nights (this is when we hung out and end up falling asleep at nights). I would give him some good back rubs and ass massages and it never seemed to bother him. However, I back off and now he's about to be married and lives on the other side of the country.

In a nutshell, your "cousin" has already reciprocated to some extent, just play it safe. If you have time, hang out with him more. If you puts his foot in your lap again, tell him about the feet mirror imaging the body and specific parts of the foot when massaged help specific organs and give a foot massage.

Report to us again soon. Have Fun.

[OptimalOptimus]

Wow, your a cuttie first of all.

ok, your thing here is a good read. what to do ?

Hmm.. try beign his friend first. see if you can even be friends. hang out with him. with enough time things could happen. IF he's gay. go swimming together. lets you check out eachothers bodies. go camping or sumting where you to have to be close together in the tent lol Have fun with it. Whats there to lose ?

Travis

I think I've decided to stop trying to make this happen. I feel like I've glamorized this in my head to be something that it isn't. I keep thinking that if I push this too far and it gets out of control or screwed up, he might tell someone and I don't even want to think of the consequences of that.

I mostly say this because he's acting tense today and he's looking at me funny. I don't know if maybe I freaked him out last night or what, but I'm officially scared. lol. I've decided to go back to my dorm tonight instead of Saturday. I think he'd prefer that too. It's not like we could have had a relationship anyway, not that I wanted one. I think I just liked the game. And, in the words of Gooey45, "Fuck buddies are awesome."

If anyone has any advice, I'd love to hear it.

[tommy296]

He's probably acting tense because he's just as afraid as you are! Spend the day with him and do something fun. Help him relax. Even offer him a massage! Then tonight, make sure he knows it's your last night there, so the pressure's on for you both to make a move. Alternatively, you could talk to him about the mags, tell him you have thought about that too, and just give him a safe place to open up. Good luck!

[muscleboy82000]

My suggestion is to just come out and tell him you found the gay porn and that you are cool about it. Honest and open is the way to go. Trying to give and receive signals lead to miscommunications and issues.

If you want to something to happen, the go for it full speed ahead.

From reading your posts, he is either gay or still in the confused/I dont know mood. I believe this because no straight person would have gay porn or want to sleep with another guy.

It is my two cents but hope it helps

[Just_Believe18]

You are not blowing this out of proportion. A straight man does not own gay porn. I am a gay man and I do not own lesbian porn. It's that simple.

If you are in no hurry to rush things just hang out with the guy. You say you like being with him. He's a fun guy and great company. So keep it that way. Right now, the two of you have all the time in the world to become friends. So be friends and worry less.

If he can sleep right away next to you, that means he is comfortable. He's not freaked out but I am sure he's thinking the same things in his head: "What do I do? What do I do?"

So after you read this, go up to him and ask him if he wants to see a movie tonight. Die Hard and 1408 are playing.

[trawler69]

I'm with those above. Make friends with the guy and get to know him. A few days ago you had no time for him

I have never been all that close to Josh. He's very quiet and private. And we're very different.

. You know he has Gay interests from the porn you found. He knows you found it but he doesn't know what your take on it is. He could feel threatened thinking that you know about him and might be "winding him up for a fall" meaning encouraging him to out himself only to take the piss when he does. In this sort of situation where two closeted guys are skirting round each other someone has to make the first move and, in my opinion, the best one is to be honest about yourself. He knows you found his porn, doesn't know what to think, put him out of his misery and let him know that you are cool with it and that way inclined as well. It may not lead to a sexual relationship but it could lead to a supportive friendship.

You guys are great. I am so happy I've had a place to come to confide and spill all this out to. I'm so glad I can get feedback from such nice people. I would have had so much pent up if it weren't for JUB.

I'm not sure what's to come, but Josh now knows I'm gay. I called one of my very best friends that lives in town and asked her to hang out with me so I wouldn't have to stay at home feeling all weird. I explained the whole thing to her. She came over and decided she'd try to test Josh to see if he's straight. She's very hot. Probably the hottest girl I know personally. She tried flirting with him and he did not respond much at all. We were going to the pool, so she had a bikini on and she sat in his lap and he all but pushed her off. So she said (and I quote) "Come on Josh, flirt with me! I can't flirt with James since he's gay." I laughed it off and acted cool, but I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. He hasn't asked me anything, but he's not acting weird either. It's like he knew and it didn't phase him at all. So I'm not sure if he just doesn't care or if he is glad that I'm gay.

I'm staying another night tonight since things aren't so tense anymore, but I'm sleeping in the den. I just don't want to make him feel threatened. If he wants to make a move, he can come to me.

I don't think I can ask him about the magazines. I think that's too brash.

[Kyanimal]

Oh!, for Heaven's Sake!, when You're in BED with Him, just "casually" roll over next to Him, and start "absent mindedly" rubbing His back! He'll likely just "chill", stretch out, and let You do with Him just about ANYTHING that You want!!

And when He rolls Toward YOU, "Presenting" His "Front", which He likely will!, continue rubbing His Chest, and down to His "Tummy", and work Your hand into His jockeys! Forget Your own "Hangups", and Go For "The Gold!", Pulsating, Boner that He is trying to Give You!!

Oh, Please!, let "Us" know that "something" Happened!!

(I can't take much more Suspense!!)

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

[Phelix1]

*waits for the next update*

[ISpitAndSwallow]

I am waiting too.

Last night was...interesting. Shae (my best friend who came over yesterday to hang out with me) called some of her friends and found out there was a party out on some country road in the middle of nowhere (it's what kids in small towns do) and she wanted us to go with her. So we went out to this party that was like 20 minutes away in the wilderness on this old gravel road. There were a few jocks and a couple skater guys but it was mostly girls. Shae had me drinking alot of beer but she and Josh didn't drink any. I was pretty damn wasted (in retrospect, I think this was all part of Shae's little scheme).

We stayed out there for about 2 hours. Came home about 2. Apparently I made Shae stay the night. She and I crashed in the den and Josh went to bed in the bedroom. At some point in the middle of the night I stumbled into the bathroom to pee. Instead of going back to the den, I went to the bedroom. I crawled in bed with Josh and I'm not really sure how or what led to it, but we started making out! I even think I said "I love you" (God I hope I didn't, but I'm almost positive I did). I know we touched eachother in a few places and I know for sure he's packing heat in those whitey-tighties, but I don't think we did much more than that. Not that I'm disappointed. I woke up this morning still in my underwear and he was still in his. I carefully snuck back into the den and immediately woke Shae up and told her what happened. She's jealous. I think she wanted in on some of the hot action. haha.

He still hasn't got up today and I'm actually feeling pretty damn good (minor headache, but that's about it). I'm a little nervous about facing him today. He was totally sober so he is going to remember last night. I'm debating on whether I should play the "I was drunk and don't remember last night" thing or just face it. I guess I should wait to see his reaction. I'm thinking I may stay until Saturday after all.