just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

I'm kind of irritated with Black Friday and all of its ugliness. I have no problem working tomorrow (if I hadn't made it known, I work as a sales associate at Walmart now where I've been since early October). The store is hosting a luncheon for us associates working, which is nice of them. I asked for the morning shift, uncommon for me since I usually work the evening into the night. They willingly gave me a short day so I can spend it with family.

However, even though I won't be working the 'events,' which will happen at 8 PM, 10 PM and 12 AM, the entire aura of Black Friday is as ugly as the name. It makes Thanksgiving look like a joke so people can save money on something they truly don't need. It takes away from the entire premise of the holiday, even if it's a day after. Cyber Monday I have absolutely no problem with, because it's not stealing the limelight from a holiday celebrating giving thanks.

I'll still be working on Friday, just later in the morning cleaning up all the mess from those who came and trampled their peers, elders and children to get the first copy of the latest video game. Such a joke this 'holiday' is...Black Fucking Friday.

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I'm kind of irritated with Black Friday and all of its ugliness. I have no problem working tomorrow (if I hadn't made it known, I work as a sales associate at Walmart now where I've been since early October). The store is hosting a luncheon for us associates working, which is nice of them. I asked for the morning shift, uncommon for me since I usually work the evening into the night. They willingly gave me a short day so I can spend it with family.

However, even though I won't be working the 'events,' which will happen at 8 PM, 10 PM and 12 AM, the entire aura of Black Friday is as ugly as the name. It makes Thanksgiving look like a joke so people can save money on something they truly don't need. It takes away from the entire premise of the holiday, even if it's a day after. Cyber Monday I have absolutely no problem with, because it's not stealing the limelight from a holiday celebrating giving thanks.

I'll still be working on Friday, just later in the morning cleaning up all the mess from those who came and trampled their peers, elders and children to get the first copy of the latest video game. Such a joke this 'holiday' is...Black Fucking Friday.

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i agree with you. the friday after thanksgiving is the WORST day to work or for that matter to be out on the street. between that and christmas eve. just don't wild out on any of these crazy ass people because i'm sure you're going to have some people that are going to simply use that day to push your buttons.

^ Yeah. It all does seem a bit stupid and "extra".

I understand what you mean, counterspade.

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^ Yeah. It all does seem a bit stupid and "extra".

I understand what you mean, counterspade.

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the commercials don't help either. i HATE those "every kiss begins with kate" also known as "buy a diamond, grind some hymen" commercials. they have a new one where they're trying to advertise to stepfathers where the stepdad actually buys the stepdaughter a diamond necklace. #-o really, breh?

I just don't watch any ads if I van help it.

New first-world bitch. I wanted to reward myself with some ice cream after cleaning house, so I went next door to the shop...which closed early for Thanksgiving. Fine, screw you - I'll have hot sake instead. :)

Lex

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Hey looky-looky, he's posting with lower case "i" when talking about himself. He must be the resurrection of Andreus!! (Sort of a parody comment inspired by another thread...)

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One of my very close JUB friends often speaks highly of Andreus. It's very clear that he cared for him greatly.

He's away at the moment, but when I saw that thread yesterday, I saved the link hoping to send it to him so he could read it when he returned. I thought he would have really liked to join other JUBbers in reminiscing about Andreus, and that perhaps he could have learned something new about the life of a man who obviously meant so much to him.

Unfortunately, with the direction the thread has taken, part of me is hoping it's gone by the time he gets back. It infuriates me that people have the audacity to shit all over such a wonderful thread, and I'm really glad I waited for the thread to develop instead of sending the link immediately.

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One of my very close JUB friends often speaks highly of Andreus. It's very clear that he cared for him greatly.

He's away at the moment, but when I saw that thread yesterday, I saved the link hoping to send it to him so he could read it when he returned. I thought he would have really liked to join other JUBbers in reminiscing about Andreus, and that perhaps he could have learned something new about the life of a man who obviously meant so much to him.

Unfortunately, with the direction the thread has taken, part of me is hoping it's gone by the time he gets back. It infuriates me that people have the audacity to shit all over such a wonderful thread, and I'm really glad I waited for the thread to develop instead of sending the link immediately.

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If I may suggest, from my own impressions of Andreus, he was accustomed to his life and his identity being somewhat of a lightening rod for discussion. I do not think he would have shied away from the discussion as it developed, in that it has served to reveal facets not so much of his life as of those who comment. To be honest, I don't think he would have minded a bit. He would have cared, but not have been in the least dissuaded from letting the thread progress.

I hate it when people go on and on about how they're not x,y,z...or won't this or that...but what do they do?

go out and do just that. :dead:

ugh.

I can't stand a liars and hypocrites. If you're doing something--own it. geez.

I feel horrendously creeped out right now. Don't ask me how or why, but I came across this youtube video of this frighteningly deranged Adam Lambert fangirl moping and whining about how he spurned her advances. She claims she's "trying to be a good girlfriend" to him, and that he should be more of a loving boyfriend to her.

I already mentioned in another thread how the Celeb-stalker types give me the willies, and by watching about 40 seconds of some fangirl's youtube video, I've delved way deeper into the psyche of one of these people than I ever cared to.

It shouldn't bother me, but it gave me one of those "WHY ARE PEOPLE LIKE THIS OH GOD" moments - the kind that make you want to lock yourself in your room and stop dealing with humanity.

i am VERY heated right now. a mixture of sleep deprivation and having eaten anything within almost 24 hours and something that JUST happened just now really has me..... fucking heated.

okay, i went over to east orange general hospital ready to do the whole fucking walk in registration process. FIRST OFF, FUCK ALL THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS OVER THERE. THEY'RE PLAYING FUCKING GAMES. THEY'RE PLAYING MOTHERFUCKING GAMES!!! it's FUCKING ridiculous how when you need help and all. these FUCKING greedy, cunt faced, good for nothing son of a bitches have to fucking put a price tag on it and when it's for free, they want to fucking give you HELL for that shit. like i literally was told by the staff woman in that bitch that the earliest i would get an appointment is on fucking feburary. they told me about the whole walk in process thing. i called them on tuesday and they were ready to do this whole hide and seek bullshit with me on the phone. like what the fuck man. either you fucking have it or you don't. don't fucking waste my time. i'm not going to run back and forth with you son of a bitches and assholes because you're like whatever. telling me all this bullshit on the floor. telling me to go to this spot, this floor or whatever AND then i come in and you motherfuckers tell me some bullshit.

for real, these people MAKE you feel bad for helping yourself or giving a fuck about yourself. i swear. like it reminds me of how my family or my mom was when i came out to her. even though she didn't spaz on me and was disappointed and it didn't go as bad as i thought it was, for a moment, she made me feel bad about being gay. even now, i have her and my brother telling me that i should stay in the closet and keep my business to myself. they don't want me to come out to any family or any of my friends. :( this is very similar. my mom, whenever i have a fucking problem or whatever, instead of dealing with it, she has had a history of telling me to "ride it out". "fuji, you should ride it out. there's nothing wrong with you. you're faking it. you want attention. your father said he experienced the same fucking thing you have". almost like she's taking the fucking mickey out of me. i HATE it when people fucking play with me or put down my word when i'm being dead ass serious then they look at me like in all shock when they go like "wow, you weren't playing" or "i thought you were joking". THE FUCK AM I TO YOU? i'm not a fucking comedian. i just want these people to treat me like a fucking human being.

i'm sick and tired of going up to these fucking mental health spots, spilling my guts out to them, begging for fucking help and etc then they make me feel BAD for even saying that shit to them or even showing up. i HATE it when people tell me to NOT be me, to NOT say how i feel, and etc THEN they wonder why i'm online venting, ranting, spazzing out, threatening to whip certain people's asses testing me and basically being a fucking ticking time bomb waiting to go off. i'm keeping the hope that one day, i'll be able to get all this bullshit straightened out because this feels like hell and it's really hard sometimes to not drag certain people into it. that could easily happen and to tell you the truth, i wouldn't feel bad either. they deserve it for fucking playing me out. if you think my misery is a joke or something to laugh at, i'll bring MY drama to your doorstep and we'll see how funny it is when it's YOUR problem.

okay, i'm done.

Im so sick of violent-cute
cute-violent art wave we encounter during these days

here's example:


I think the wave started from that damned Japan


We have happy tree friends here..and actually this trend is everywhere!
Im seeing this violent cute thing...filling Juxtapoz-magz almost 80% per edition, that just crazy!

Im not icky of them due to moral reason, I just bored :( It's like they keep offering same strategy for.."Oh-so shocking! Blood and Guts spilled out from beheaded-cute teddy bear head while candies just start popping out from it"

Although it's kinda worrying me for those who enjoying these things...especially younger generation :?
Mental check? Mental check?...

Anyway, the art is just boring and not shocking anymore..:(

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I feel horrendously creeped out right now. Don't ask me how or why, but I came across this youtube video of this frighteningly deranged Adam Lambert fangirl moping and whining about how he spurned her advances. She claims she's "trying to be a good girlfriend" to him, and that he should be more of a loving boyfriend to her.

I already mentioned in another thread how the Celeb-stalker types give me the willies, and by watching about 40 seconds of some fangirl's youtube video, I've delved way deeper into the psyche of one of these people than I ever cared to.

It shouldn't bother me, but it gave me one of those "WHY ARE PEOPLE LIKE THIS OH GOD" moments - the kind that make you want to lock yourself in your room and stop dealing with humanity.

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She must be the only person on the planet that doesn't know he's gay.

it seems like the same people that don't think about my feelings, disrespecting me, and how much they at times annoy me have the nerve to demand me to show them the same kind of courtesy. :lol: it's as if they show the upmost disrespect towards me and act or have the nerve to wonder why i get mad at them or want to beat the shit out of them whenever i get the chance. they tell me that i should tolerate it or make me out to be wrong for showing them the same shit they show me. one of these days, one of them is going to get it and i honestly wouldn't feel any type of remorse either. they deserve it and they should be happy that i'm taking time out of my day to ruin theirs. fuck them.

My husband is in Uganda for the next month, I haven't gone a month without sex since I was 14... So I'm not too happy about that. :mad:

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okay, i went over to east orange general hospital ready to do the whole fucking walk in registration process. FIRST OFF, FUCK ALL THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS...

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At least you're trying. Hard. Mental healthcare in this country is so ass-backwards, though, having never recovered from the Ronald Reagan defunding of all(?) federal subsidies toward it and, of course, the industry is run by very highly paid professionals.

One has to be rich to get good mental care, or perhaps be fortunate and happen to find the right people.

My wishes are with you on this, and remain so.

Fuji,

remember that the bottom line here is that words are just fucking words

You can/do assign how much pain or good advice You receive here. It

is all opportunity to learn. Select what works for you, delete what does

not. In english...if it doesn't seem dope they can piss up a rope.

You got certain people on would never steer you wrong.

Wimmin' :grrr:

^Having one of those self-hating days again?

Oh shit! I'm in trouble. I set the oven to clean tonight (cause my lasagna overflowed) and as per Murphy's Law, the smoke alarms are going off every few minutes. This was my wife just a few minutes ago :grrr:.

^ My smoke alarm is beeping - needs a new battery I guess.

I'm so pissed off!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j7_lSP8Vc3o

Venting huh? Well I'm kinda irritated at one poster I have since blocked lol... a guy who thinks he has his life in order despite displaying the maturity levels of Justin Bieber and Lindsay Lohan (LMAO!). I don't really hold much anger for long... especially towards a fraudster lol :D

Some times the alarms are easier on the ears

than the partners are. I usually just smle,

look kind of helpless and say that I'm never going

to try something like that again. That usually gets

an attitude adjustment or 2 nights in the guest room.

I am so fucking envious of people who wake up everyday and genuinely enjoy going to work.

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I am so fucking envious of people who wake up everyday and genuinely enjoy going to work.

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I hate those people too lol

random vent: I think my parents think I'm like 10 years old.

I mentioned to them that a friend is crashing with me for awhile (not that it's any of their business, but I live in a 2-family house with my great aunt; I just wanted to mention it to my mom first in case my aunt says anything about some random guy coming in and out of my apartment to her) and they're all of a sudden convinced that I'm somehow getting taken advantage of. as if I'm not an adult who's capable of knowing when I'm getting taken advantage of and correcting the situation if it exists.

no, the friend isn't paying rent, but he's also without a job at the moment. he's applying for multiple on-campus jobs, and once he's gainfully employed (and if the "crashing with me" lasts longer than a few weeks) he'll start contributing. in the meantime, he's cooking/cleaning and tbh, it's kinda nice for my own mental health just to have someone around. ever since my last roommate and I parted ways about 5-6 years ago, I've probably been spending way too much time alone, between spending all day at work in an empty office and only hanging out my friends 2-3 times/month.

and I won't share with my parents the other "benefits" he's providing ;)

Sounds like you're being a good friend and helping someone out, loki. There's a difference between that and letting someone take advantage of you. I had a girlfriend of mine do something similar for me when I had just finished college and was trying to land my first apartment. It's something I will never forget and always appreciate her for.

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random vent: I think my parents think I'm like 10 years old.

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Lol, I'm younger than you and I've already accepted the reality that all of my "elders" (parents, grandparents, parents of friends, even the random older guy who hits on me at the bar) will never stop acting like I'm not an adult.

I keep having really bizarre dreams lately and I'm so sick of it. I wake up in this weird, kind of fragile psychological state where I feel disconnected from reality.

^Mothers never stop being mothers. :)

Razors, I'd love to hear about your dreams. If you ever feel like sharing, you have an eager audience.

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Lol, I'm younger than you and I've already accepted the reality that all of my "elders" (parents, grandparents, parents of friends, even the random older guy who hits on me at the bar) will never stop acting like I'm not an adult.

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it's kind of ridiculous, because my mom is always trash talking my sister over how dependent my sister is on them (not financially, but my sister uses my parents for babysitting, cooking, calls my mom 10 times/day, etc) while praising my independence... but clearly I'm not so independent that I'm able to avoid letting someone take advantage of me.

I wouldn't say this to my parents, but having someone around is good for me mentally... and going grocery shopping with said athletic, 6-pack, baseball-playing roommate makes me feel self conscious about buying anything but health food ..|

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^Mothers never stop being mothers. :)

Razors, I'd love to hear about your dreams. If you ever feel like sharing, you have an eager audience.

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I'd love to share if I could remember the damned one that I had today. :lol:

I know I've had a lot of travel-related dreams lately. I had one where I was in Baku, Azerbaijan of all places (not as random as it sounds - I had just attended a lecture about Azerbaijan at my university a day or two prior) and I had this panic attack about being in such a faraway place and woke up.

^Much of the time, travel dreams relate to the dreamer's wish to escape from reality. He has a lot of stress in his life that he has trouble enduring.

But, keep in mind that symbols mean different things to different people. In this case, for example, maybe you simply have a wanderlust--you want to see distant places, and experience different cultures. If you have any Scots-Irish blood, this interpretation probably sits closer to the truth.

My uncle worked in Baku, Azerbaijan! :lol:

This was about in 2003/2004 - he was contracted out there like a lot of oil workers were. My auntie tried living in a house over there with him for a while. Their only social company was the other ex-pats. The other workers mostly stayed in a compound.

She said the Azerbaijani women would often give her dirty looks and even spit on the ground as she walked past in the streets. She didn't stay that long.

But my uncle raked in a large salary for going out there.

I hate it when I ask another poster a question about something they've said or posted here (not even anything personal--just random stuff), and they ignore it.

BITCH!

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I hate it when I ask another poster a question about something they've said or posted here (not even anything personal--just random stuff), and they ignore it.

BITCH!

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QUIT STALKING ME.



























j/k. (*8*)

Fuck the snow.

oh god. :( what have i done? here i am looking for help and i have the option to get it. i'm worried about how my parents and everyone else will see me. :( get the chance to speak with a psychiatrist and etc. do i REALLY need to get the help though? can't i just live with it? i literally want to bite my finger for real.

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oh god. :( what have i done? here i am looking for help and i have the option to get it. i'm worried about how my parents and everyone else will see me. :( get the chance to speak with a psychiatrist and etc. do i REALLY need to get the help though? can't i just live with it? i literally want to bite my finger for real.

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What do you have to lose? You don't listen to sound advice from anyone else... what's one more person's opinion to disregard??? ;)

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What do you have to lose? You don't listen to sound advice from anyone else... what's one more person's opinion to disregard??? ;)

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it's not that. it's that the fact that although this might be what i need. what if this does more harm than good? a part of me feels too tired to go too. i feel like i want to go to sleep. maybe it's the stress. it just scares the shit out of me.

Schrodinger's Cat...



... quit stalling and bellyaching and dramatizing everything and just go DO it ! :D

Get up off your lazy angst laden ass and go.

Fuck what people think about you...

First, they ain't you

Second, it ain't their fuckin business.

Third, if you don't tell the Doc won't.

Fourth...see all of the above.

@Borg...
You got to be gentle buddy. These fragile souls
need to feel mollycoddled first.

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it's not that. it's that the fact that although this might be what i need. what if this does more harm than good? a part of me feels too tired to go too. i feel like i want to go to sleep. maybe it's the stress. it just scares the shit out of me.

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Honestly refuji, for me the hardest and biggest step was going to the place to get help. I was rationalizing all of these excuses for not going, but something in the back of my mind kept telling me, "Go this one time and if you hate it, you'll never have to do it again."

Once I arrived and sat in the waiting room, I could feel a weight beginning to shift. Making that huge first step is enough to change everything. It's like your subconscious and conscious brain are finally recognizing and admitting to one another that you may need help. I encourage you to go, if only to see whether it'll work for you. I can't promise it will or that you'll feel any better, but what if you do?

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it's not that. it's that the fact that although this might be what i need. what if this does more harm than good? a part of me feels too tired to go too. i feel like i want to go to sleep. maybe it's the stress. it just scares the shit out of me.

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Just recently, three other JUBbers went, RJ. All three of them have benefitted from it.

One of them mentioned that now he feels numb, but feeling numb sure feels better than staring down a black hole of despair each day.

I have noticed that you feel a lot of anger, RJ. Very many times, displaced anger can stem from depression, which in this case can stem from low levels of seratonin in your body. They can help you, you just need to give them a chance.

I just feel super irritated...internet is slow, keyboard is having problems, twitter is a disappointment, and to top it all an ex wants to open up old wounds.

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AACK!

had a talk with the new roomie today... we agreed that as soon as he has a job, he's going to start paying rent, which will assuage my parents concern even if I don't really need the money and he's not increasing my living expenses at all.

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oh god. :( what have i done? here i am looking for help and i have the option to get it. i'm worried about how my parents and everyone else will see me. :( get the chance to speak with a psychiatrist and etc. do i REALLY need to get the help though? can't i just live with it? i literally want to bite my finger for real.

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Please, RJ...just do it. (Uh-oh, the Nike people are gonna be swarming all over JUB with copyright infringement lawsuits, because I just used their slogan.)

Seriously, if I lived within an hour or so from you, I would have been in contact with an offer to go there with you, and wait in the lobby while you're in the meeting. I support this idea completely and unconditionally. I've been known to do this sort of things a few times in the past when the circumstances came up (such as when somebody had a doctor appointment or dentist appointment or anything else that was scaring the Bejeebers out of them). Sometimes it can be a great thing for a sincere and listening "ear" to be there directly after the fact (the consultation or appointment) is finished.

How people will see you? For one, in my case, I'll see you as a stronger person, somebody who genuinely is seeking relief, a person worthy of respect, a person who remembers what courage means, and a person who is taking the first and biggest step toward fighting personal demons. You've seen this here in JUB before and, no doubt, IRL as well.

^I agree, Frank

RJ, let's look at Ashy. He stared his demons in the face, and kicked their asses. And now, everybody (almost) loves him.

There's something especially enduring about a man who admits his faults, and works on them in order to improve himself. People will look up to you with real respect.

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I hate it when I ask another poster a question about something they've said or posted here (not even anything personal--just random stuff), and they ignore it.

BITCH!

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Co-signs... whatever happened to being polite?

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I hate it when I ask another poster a question about something they've said or posted here (not even anything personal--just random stuff), and they ignore it.

BITCH!

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not that this was directed at me, but I very rarely answer questions sent via comment, just because it's a pain in the ass to reply to. but I'll answer almost anything asked via PM or directly in a thread :)

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not that this was directed at me, but I very rarely answer questions sent via comment, just because it's a pain in the ass to reply to. but I'll answer almost anything asked via PM or directly in a thread :)

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How? You just click the username and send a PM. You're not mentally challenged, right?