My doctor is quite enthusiastic and honest which is quite a relief.
The scan reveals two aspects of over 40yrs of smoking. First of all the Emphysema which is basically the lung tissue unable to transfer oxygen to the blood any more, is quite serious. Sufficiently so that she doesn't understand why I am not out of breath all the time. Obviously as I don't do anything strenuous I a not likely to be short of breath yet.
So though there is no going back or possibility
Tonight is my last evening on my own, from tomorrow, Madame, my boss is back in residence. I will put on my ‘uniform’and fix a welcoming smile on my face before driving to the airport to await their arrival. Hanging around in the Arrivals is not too much of a drag as I always get emotional seeing friends and families greeting each other and of course spend much of the time just enjoying seeing attractive guys hanging around too.
As usual I have done nothing worthwhile during
I realise that I haven’t updated this blog for quite a number of weeks, a failure that is completely related to my present state of mind. Since the beginning of the year I have lost every iota of enthusiasm to do anything; requiring enormous amounts of effort even to do the simplest of things.
If it is essential it gets done but then all I want to do is remain in bed and not get out of it to be obliged to face the world and recognise that my life was deteriorating slowly into non-existance.
I do miss the days when these blogs were really quite popular. Members visited regularly, left comments and updated personal entries. Are their decline due to the reduction in the number of members on JUB? Or have smart phones and social networks absorbed the free time that members used to allocate to visiting here? We are forecasted even more days of heavy rain, something that drives me nearly into the depths of depression. Sitting here listening to it teeming down outside reduces my