Just a rapid comment on my health following up from my last entry. I had the second scan of my lungs which showed no further increase in the nodules found in the first scan. So no more to do now except follow up with annual check-ups.
I am on the final few days of my nicotine patches after which I will have to rely on my e-cigarette to keep me sane and not smoking. It really is a clever invention though I am not 100% that it is not doing me some sort of harm; but as my doctor emphasized
My doctor is quite enthusiastic and honest which is quite a relief.
The scan reveals two aspects of over 40yrs of smoking. First of all the Emphysema which is basically the lung tissue unable to transfer oxygen to the blood any more, is quite serious. Sufficiently so that she doesn't understand why I am not out of breath all the time. Obviously as I don't do anything strenuous I a not likely to be short of breath yet.
So though there is no going back or possibility
Tonight is my last evening on my own, from tomorrow, Madame, my boss is back in residence. I will put on my ‘uniform’and fix a welcoming smile on my face before driving to the airport to await their arrival. Hanging around in the Arrivals is not too much of a drag as I always get emotional seeing friends and families greeting each other and of course spend much of the time just enjoying seeing attractive guys hanging around too.
As usual I have done nothing worthwhile during
I realise that I haven’t updated this blog for quite a number of weeks, a failure that is completely related to my present state of mind. Since the beginning of the year I have lost every iota of enthusiasm to do anything; requiring enormous amounts of effort even to do the simplest of things.
If it is essential it gets done but then all I want to do is remain in bed and not get out of it to be obliged to face the world and recognise that my life was deteriorating slowly into non-existance.