The one thing I don't like about the holidays is that every year I have been single. I've never shared the holiday with someone I was in love with. Forty one years of solitary seclusion.
No special gifts shared at Christmas...
No kiss at midnight to ring in the New Year...
Just me with my thoughts.
So all I want for Christmas is to not be single, to not be 'alone.'
But I already know my wish will not come true.
OMG, would someone please just kill me now? I have become the only single guy on my 4 man bowling team. Well, I have been for a couple of weeks already. One guy brings his partner with him every week and like a happy couple they behave like a happy couple. Then there's my fireman friend for whom I've grown to care a great deal more than I should have... After a summer of hanging out and whatnot he's cut me out completely because he's trying to get back together with his last boyfriend. And then
Apparently I am a bridge. One that other gay men here in town seem to use to find someone else.
I was messaging with a friend this afternoon and I come to find out that a guy I went out with recently has found himself a boyfriend. We only went out a couple of times but as usual I liked him more than he liked me. I even got the “we should just be friends” line.
OK I know I’m not really a bridge but knowing I’m the last guy this fella went out
I am fascinated by the short bio’s guys use on Grindr. It’s a short blurb that says little and sometimes a lot. To me it is an indicator as to what sort of guy sits behind that profile pic. To be certain there is an inordinate amount of douche-baggery on that app. You almost want to drill skulls with the amount of swelled heads there. Anyhow...
“For 99% of ppl here, u will get a friendly hi or hello but that’s it. Not perfect here but y’all ppl scare me.”