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I was in love with him. Hell, I still am in love with him, and probably will be for a long time. But as of a few hours ago my seemingly perfect boyfriend and I have gone our separate ways.
From the very beginning I knew I liked him, but I honestly don't remember a single point before he asked me to be his boyfriend when I felt like I was ready to be in a relationship. At this point in my life I'm just too consumed in building my future and didn't ever really see how a new person would
For as long as I can remember I've dreamed of meeting that person that I wanted to be with, unconditionally. I didn't always accept that I wanted that person to be a guy but I knew what I wanted from a young age. After coming to terms with my sexuality I spent a period of time believing that I would never find that guy. I'm not quite sure why, I just didn't believe he existed.
At the end of 2009 I met Alex here on JUB. He was/is perfect. Exactly what I had always dreamed of. From
I wrote this at a time when my best friend and I were both in awful situations. The entire time we were amazingly supportive of each other, but equally awful at supporting ourselves. She had lymphoma and I was extremely depressed (borderline suicidal) over my sexuality. Ultimately we both made it through, everything turned out for the best, and we're closer than ever.
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I take a step back,