Now I know that when I right a blog it's normally something irrational or depressing. I'm sure half of it doesn't even make sense most of the time. But there's a reason for that:
Since I was ten I've bottled all my emotion, opinions, knowledge, what-have-you inside. I always do that and I always will.
For me there are very few outlets for when it all just boils up to bursting. I find that writing seems to be the best wayto do this. Most of the time I just open up Word
A sad truth about me is that my personality type can be mostly summed up by Astrology texts describing the average Scorpio. While there may be more to who I am than that, it easily relates how my social interaction plays out and also how my moods are displayed. I am the perfect mix of a Scorpio born in the year of the Snake which makes me all the more complex.
When I think about it I realize that because I act in the fashion best described by Eastern and Western Astrology I've gotten
For almost two months now I've been telling myself that I'll stop coming here. That I'll delete my account and that will be the end of it. It's not true though. I've gotten too much out of being here for it to be that easy. Feeling the kind of regret that I would is not something I'd like to experience yet again.
Of course it's not as simple as that either. There are other reasons for me to stay and still others for me to go. I just don't know what I should do anymore. I can't even