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I have gone from a deep depression and attempted suicide b/c I knew I was gay and didn't think I could live being out. What would people think and say.
My wife left me after I told her that I was gay. I wanted to be the person to tell her rather than she would hear it through rumors that I was seen in a gay bar. We were married for 35 years+/-. Adopted two babies a boy then a girl and watched and felt them grow with us into a family.
When the wife left me so did the kids/adults
My partner died in Aug 2008 and just before he died he told me to go out and enjoy the gay life style.
As much as I try to do that, I can't as I am still in love with him.
Five days after he died I woke up in a hospital from a drug overdose. It was my attempt to be with him. However He is there and I am still here. Guess I will have to wait for my body to give out naturally.
Our relationship wasn't based on sex , but a whole lot of love.
Okay Bob has been gone 2 months and not much has changed. i sit and cry, I lie down and I cry just not continuous.
Might sound crazy but I talk to him often during the day. I have his picture under my pillow and place my hand on it every night and go to sleep.
I see my shrink a lot more often but always honest as to what I have been thinking and wanting to do. Not sure about that one.
I know that Bob would not approve and as I have learned from a post here, I would
Bob,my partner of four years died august 3,'08.
From the time we got the word, there was no question wether I would be there for him or not. I stayed by his side 24/7 and loved every minute of it. It was all that I could do for him.
I found some good in myself that I didn't know I had.
As many times he would say, go out and have a gay time. I stayed with him and never went out with the desire to hook up. The door was wide open but i never used it.