The Curse Of Benderboy.
Well, things have been looking up the last couple days. I am talking to a really cute guy. He is so sweet. I gotta take it slow tho.
The only thing that upset me recently is a horrible encounter at a doctors office. I haven't been feeling well, so I decided to go get a check up... The doctor came in for about 2 minutes, and told me I was fine.
He was so rude. He didn't sit down... He scribbled some notes on his clip-board. wtf
I am still not feeling good. I never complain
Today is one of the few days per year, where I feel happy. It's like my brain is sending out massive amounts of oxytocin. I am single. I have been single since the beginning of 2011. It is ok. I finally have loved myself. I love myself so much, it hurts. I smoked some weed 2 weeks ago. Some repressed memories came back. Some good, and some not so good.
It's ok tho. I feel like I am healing from the past.
Sometimes I feel like no one has ever felt depression like me. But I am sure
It's December 17th... Not too long before Christmas is here. Dimitry is flying back to Russia for a couple months. His flight leaves tomorrow night. I'll be alone for the holidays, but it's ok. I have such a wonderful life, that I am content being alone.
I hope the time we are apart brings us closer together. Lately, we have been drifting. I know we love each other. We have been thru so much together, that I can't imagine feeling closer to someone else.
We are not only invested