Today me and a friend are supposed to see a movie. I was trying to reach him before go there, but he din't answered his phone. I went anyway and he din't showed up.
I was slight dissapoited but I already was seeing it happening. I always try to believe in the worst, or at least I never have hope.
I never have actually, I try to avoid if possible, even when the outcome looks like will logically go toward to a possitive result... I don't really expect that, I still think
This year, I was studying in a "pos-graduação" (I don't know the proper term) after finishing architeture, it was about engering.... well... I am giving up now, it is just so awfull bad.
I don't feel like I actually learned, maybe a little but not worth it, and also feel the same about future classes, I feel explored by the university that only wants a quick buck.
The last drop was saturday, a teach proposed a text that was impossible, I might had the mind to
I am now a architect. I made my thesis and got... 8.5 out of 10
it is a good grade. good, but not great.... I feel ashamed... I wanted to be able to be pround, to tell with pride that I got a great grade... but I din't.
I feel stupid. Stupid for actually care for such a detail. And for not having anymore reasons to be pround of.
I am nothing. Nothing worth the trouble.
I am 8.5, but worting 0
The Worst part of sadness is to think that you will always be sad.
The Worst part of sadness is to think that happyness is easy, but you just can't do it.
The Worst part of sadness is to think that is only your own fault that you are sad.
The Worst part of sadness is to think that is okay, and fully understandable that people just don't like you.
The Worst part of sadness is to think that you deserve to be sad. Why else would you be?