i dont know what i did but i fucking loved it
so my repressed feelings came out yesterday.
one of my good buddies decided to play with me, gave me something of his to play with.
not his penis, but something he values.
sitting beside him, feeling his soft warm skin touching mine, so i decide to rub my elbow on his arm, letting him know i love him.
keeping myself from kissing him all i could think about was his beauty and warmth.
had we been alone i may have been able to feel more of his love for me, but i can only take that so far, but i will take what i can get. yolo.