At least someoneís happy
by, July 9th, 2011 at 03:43 PM (459 Views)
Apparently I am a bridge. One that other gay men here in town seem to use to find someone else.
I was messaging with a friend this afternoon and I come to find out that a guy I went out with recently has found himself a boyfriend. We only went out a couple of times but as usual I liked him more than he liked me. I even got the ďwe should just be friendsĒ line.
OK I know Iím not really a bridge but knowing Iím the last guy this fella went out with makes me think all matter of things. None of them good. Especially since Iíve been out for a few years now and I still canít find anyone who likes me enough to want to be my boyfriend. It makes me feel like Iím damaged goods or something. That Iím somehow not worthy.
More than anything it makes me feel like a loser.
I canít help but wonder what Iím doing wrong. Youíd think in a city of 1.33 million people Iíd find a boyfriend by now. You know, law of averages and all.
Shit. I guess I am a loser and a lonely one at that.
Anyhow Iím sure heíll be happy.
At least someoneís happy.