just some stuff that is on my mind.
by, July 13th, 2006 at 06:50 PM (321 Views)
Okay so for starters, I was just asked by my boss today if I would go back on the road. :grrr: I just finished a two month period where I was on the road six days a week and working like 23 sometimes72 hours without sleep. He told me that I wouldn't have to do that again for a while. I didn't mind it so much, the money was really good, but I had no life whatsoever. And now I have a wonderfull man in my life that I love very much and I don't want to be gone all the time for fear of us drifting apart, I mean this is part of the reason that I didn't spend the summer rodeoing, I want to be home and I want to be with my man. He has offered me a new company truck and a gas card, and a $3 an hour raise, if I go on the road again. But I just don't want to! I am not interested in being away from home anymore. I mean don't get me wrong, the offer is tepting, but I just don't know what to do. maybe you guys could help me out with some advice, it would be greatly appreciated.
On a lighter note, I sold my horses to a buddy of mine. So that is good. I had just finished breaking them. so it was perfect timing.
I am kinda going nuts!! I haven't rodeoed in like a MONTH!!! I think I am having withdrawls? I miss not getting chased around the ring by bull and I miss getting throwed off broncs, don't ask me why. I just do. I would love to be able to hit the road again like I did after I graduated, and just travel the country, rodeoing, making money where and when I can, and be able to be free again. :( I miss the days of not having any responsibilty and living day to day not worried about what tomorrow is going to throw at me.
But alas we all have to grow up. #-o And even though I have these thoughts of being a rodeo man, and i dream about it on a nightly basis, I couldn't be happier than I am right now. I have a great job, I am surrounded by good people, and I have a man that really does love me. And i wouldn't trade that for all the buckles in the world. Life is good. I am content with who I am and what I am doing for the first time in a long time. I am truely in a state of bliss when I am with Levi. I couldn't ask for a better man to call my own. He truely makes me happy and I love him with all my heart. Sometimes I don't think that I deserve to have such a great guy. But I'm not going to tell him that. shhhhh! lol
Anyways guys if you have made it to this point, I want to thank you each and everyone for reading my thoughts, and any advice or comments would be greatly appreciated.
Love you all.