I don't know y i am writing something. But i am feeling real depressed lately. I can't afford a shrink haha but i need to deal with the depression i always seam to get. Thank god i have a few close friends that help me feel better about myself. My father is clueless he just don't get it. He wants me to be straight but i am not, he really need to get with it. He cant teach me morals because he doesn't have any of his own.
One problem is that i am way too damn shy. I don't know anything
My birthday is coming up soon i hope my birthday will be a good day. The last two of three birthday cards that i got my father were the same ones. I hope this year he gives me a different birthday card.
This is the time of year i miss my mother the most. She was such a great person. I miss our talks and stuff like that.
Thank god that i have a couple of friends who care about me. Even though there are straight they are great people.
Thank god i have
Sometimes I get so depress, it always pass eventually. This all started when my mom died about 5 years ago. I really miss her so much. We always have good talks when i was an adult. The real sad part i don't really know how she died. Her death is a real mystery to me. I think its suicide but i just don't know. It really bugs me. Nobody seams to know anything or they just not telling me. But i have my few friends that really care about me. When i am down they always try their best to cheer me up.