Charlie.
I have known Charlie for only a few weeks and once again my life is turned upside down. We first met when a friend, Corinne, came by for a visit and brought Charlie with her. They were only going to come for coffee but stayed till dinner time whilst we chatted away.

And now just a few weeks later, next to me is a dark haired beauty, snoring away, while I try to be quiet, so as not to wake Charlie with my typing. Mind you I feel tired myself after the long walk we went ...

So how did I end up here?

Ian's dad died at the beginning of January.
As an only child with a mother who relies on him we ended up going back and forth between Arnhem and Brentwood every other weekend. Rushing from work on Friday evening to catch an easyjet flight to London Stansted and back again every Sunday meant we felt rushed most of the week. To be honest we hardly ever unpacked but just changed some of the contents of our suitcase the eveinng before we left for England ...

I suppose now would be as good a time as any to say hello again. After a long spell of no internet, Ian got us signed up to BT for a broadband connection which has been sitting in a box for the past weeks as neither of us could figure out why we had no connection. It has been lying there doing sod all for the past weeks. Ian tried - bless him - to set up the connection when we got it but threw a tantrum when all we got was a no signal message. I do love him and the vehemence with which he hates ...

For both of us, tomorrow at 16.35 local time, Schiphol Airport, Amsterdam when I can finally throw myself into the arms of Ian and never ever again let go! I am not doing this anymore and neither is he.

I know 4 days apart is not a disaster of unimaginable scale but that's how I (we) have felt for the past days. Yesterday was the worst I just wanted to go home and cry and did.

Ian rang and sent text messages the whole evening and that did make me feel a lot better and ...

Since Clément's death and the heartache of the past 4 years it seems there's still hope for me yet. I am in love again and am loved once more.

I suppose an introduction of sorts in called for here. Ian and the past week have been total bliss. For both of us. Intending to stay for 4 days very soon it became clear that four days wasn't enough for either of us so Ian stayed another 6 and once more I knew what happiness love is.

He feels the same about me. Especially now ...