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martin6 — Sun, 26 Dec 2010 23:57:15 GMT

I recently put together a bunch of songs I had been noodling around with for years. First time I have sung to my songs and put them out there for Earth to hear. I'm uncomfortable with my singing but I'm still satisfied with the finished product. So go listen please! :)

www.myspace.com/samwest01

Interesting

martin6 — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 10:31:20 GMT

I still miss the good times with an old friend, but when the good times are overshadowed by the bad, it's time to move on. Sometimes people just aren't good for each other anymore.

Little Window

Last night I was
Walking down the
Street with my hands
In my pockets
When I happened
To find myself
Upon your doorstep.

And I don�t know
How I got there
On your porch but
I could not help
But press my nose
Onto the glass the
Little window in the door.

The inside of your
Home was bright and
The light shone on
All the trinkets
You had gathered
Since you left me
That cold, heartless day.

I saw you pass
By unaware
Of the peeping
Tom just on the
Other side of
The door with the
Little window I looked through.

It was so strange
Because you looked
The same as ever
But I knew you
Were not the guy
That I once loved
You were not that man.

The urge to press the
Bell came over me
But as my finger
Became level
With the button,
I thought twice and
I lowered my hand.

We would not
Embrace each other
And we wouldn�t
chat or laugh about
times we�ve spent
Loving ourselves
Remember times we had.

I sighed and
Unstuck my nose
From the window
In your front door
And I took one
Last glance through the
Little window in the door.

Then I took a
Heavy inward
Breath, and held it
As I turned on
My heel and stepped
Down from the porch
And the little window in the door.

I continued
My stroll and thought
I heard your door
Open up but
I did not look
Back instead
I just walked away.

Jesus

martin6 — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 09:26:30 GMT

I wrote this one day long ago after hearing the sermon at one of the last church services I attended. Sermons can be inspirational, but I just don't dig the whole Jesus thing so much... Anyway, I'm posting this because I just wrote the music to it this week.

Frances and McClinn

I�m eighty-one years two after today
Been round a lifetime already, son
Frances an� me been almost six decade
An� boy, I�m sad to say we�re done

I built me my business from the ground up
Workin� every day for �s long �s can remember
And now after all this time I screwed up
Can�t find what I earned since September

She�s stealin� from me, son I tell ya
How could she do this to me, my boy?
I ain�t no damn fool now, I tell ya
She�s taken my money, my pride and joy

Love passed away from Mr. McClinn
All those years meant nothing
Love passed away from Mr. McClinn
Replaced by rage and cussing

Dear boy, he doesn�t always know anymore
The words to his favorite �Be Still My Soul�
Or his six grandchildren, all who he adores
Dear boy, his disease is starting to take its toll

You know I�d never take the business money
I love him so much always and forever
Please sit down and talk to him, my honey
I can�t stand it when we�re not together

I know this is gonna just get harder
He and me will be strong throughout
But right now I need more than a card
I need you to help me talk about it

Time�s worn down on Mr. McClinn
He�s not quite as sharp as before
Time�s worn down on Mr. McClinn
Soon he�ll be opening that great door

She�s not stealing money from you, old man
Now don�t you think that way ever again
Frances is your wife and does what she can
And you still think she�s a cheating old hen?

Well let me ask you this, then, Mr. McClinn
Do you know she loves you with all her heart?
Yeah, that�s right, you do understand then
She hasn�t betrayed you yet, so now why start?

No matter what happens in the future, sir
Don�t ever forget that your wife loves you
While you still can, say every day you love her
Cause you know sixty years ago still rings true

Faith came back to Mr. McClinn
To both him and Frances
Faith came back to Mr. McClinn
Look at how the couple dances

And love returned to Mr. McClinn
All those years mean something
And love returned to Mr. McClinn
Replacing the rage and cussing

Another One

martin6 — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 11:09:29 GMT

This one is pretty out of the ordinary for me musically and lyrically. We'll call it an experiment, but at least I can put some words and a title to "New Song #3" now. One of these days I'll get a recording up.

Falling Down

Tried to rip up your heart tonight
Gave my words an extra bite
Saw you curl up with fright
As I wound to strike you

But we made love just yesterday
Wonder if you�re just for play
Remember you touch my face and say
�Baby I love you�

Ask me why I�m doing this
Honey it�s my moment of bliss
Told you I don�t want your kiss
And I meant it

But we work hard to lovers be
You�re the whole world to me
We have such history
And I won�t end it

Running water at the sink
Splash my eyes, take a drink
Get a little dizzy and I think
�What has become of my hands?�
As I fall down

Smoking in my boxer-briefs
Don�t want no more of your grief
So I force you underneath
Under the covers

My lips they kiss you cool
Get me feeling like a fool
Baby there just ain�t no rules
When we are lovers

Running water at the sink
Splash my eyes, take a drink
Get a little dizzy and I think
�What has become of my hands?�
As I fall down

New Stuff

martin6 — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 10:32:12 GMT

Finally I can put some words to a little ditty I've been calling "New Song #2" and name it...

Listen to the Lies

He comes to me and says
"Baby I�m a mess
I�ve got something on my chest
Something to confess

You know I�m not the best
You�re settling for less"
Then he walked off to the West
And left this emptiness

I didn't hear just what they said
Didn't pay attention but I wish I did
Listening to the lies inside my head
I was drawn to you

Love�s never what it seems
The happiness that gleams
Is only in your dreams
While you�re ripping at the seams

He left me in a daze
A vicious kind of haze
That creeps inside and stays
Love-- it never pays

I didn�t hear just what they said
Didn�t pay attention but I wish I did
Listening to the lies inside my head
I was drawn to you

My soul desires
To spread the fires
Til they consume my mind
I love the liars
How they bring me higher
So I can fall back down again

Good sounds

martin6 — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 07:40:45 GMT

In light of a recent thread which made me :rotflmao: and go :confused: at the same time, I decided that you should all check out the following JUBbers' music myspace pages. Because they all rock. ..|

initiallyyours: www.myspace.com/aaronjchan

AtomicLovePuppy: www.myspace.com/tophercassidy

Jeimuzu: www.myspace.com/jamesomalleywilleatyoursoul

Just:Mills: www.myspace.com/miillz

martin6: www.myspace.com/samwest01

huntneo: www.myspace.com/aheadtoday

Alabaster: www.myspace.com/andrewbarnhillmusic

Anyone who knows of any other JUB bands should add to this list. :)

Hi peeps.

martin6 — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 09:01:10 GMT

I just wanted to keep that last blog entry from showing up in my posts. Nothing to see here.

..|

Except my tits.

Hold On

martin6 — Thu, 05 Feb 2009 01:50:01 GMT

The only guy I've ever loved is sitting in the hospital, sedated, with a broken leg. And possibly (probably) cancer. Hang on Tucker. :kiss: (*8*)

And yes, I'm talking about my dog. STFU

I need more friends

martin6 — Wed, 03 Dec 2008 05:56:23 GMT

I have re-recorded my music on myspace. I used a plain old microphone to record instead of my MIDI program. You can hear the music as I like to play it instead of in generic piano mode.

Please visit and take a listen. And if you have a myspace profile, you better add me if you know what's good for you. :grrr:

:D

www.myspace.com/samwest01

New lyrics

martin6 — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 04:08:29 GMT

Goodbye Spain

I�m wasting away in this one horse town
It�s barely nine when the lights go down
Sometimes it�s nice to have a calm quiet night
But it�s better to be somewhere a little more bright
So I sit alone in my room, a pink pen in hand
Trying to write myself away from this land

Sitting on the side of A1A
Maybe I�m scared, maybe I don�t know
It�s harder done than said but I must say
Goodbye to Spain

We�re wasting away in this one horse town
Wondering how to pass the time we�ve found
We wait and wait for the crowds to show
But the lords of the dollar have cut our blood flow
And there�s a line of empty carriages on the side of the road
Their drivers stand idle, brushing the tired horses� noses

Sitting on the side of A1A
Maybe I�m scared, maybe I don�t know
It�s harder done than said but I must say
Goodbye to Spain

I�m wasting away in this one horse town
Where I�m not moving forward and I feel like a clown
Where the only things to do are smoke and drink
And if you don�t smoke, what will they all think?
There�s only one season and it never gets cold
So the kids never grow, they only get old
And they all know each other and all fuck around
So I�m getting the hell out of this one horse town

Old lyrics, new music

martin6 — Mon, 27 Oct 2008 07:12:39 GMT

Wow this song is 3.5 years old! Yeah it's really about a girl I knew/dated. Not named Emily.

Emily

I passed the diner, saw you sitting alone
Staring into space, playing with your cell phone
Should you call and say you�re sorry
Or would you rather just yell at me?

So I walked on by out to the fountain
Where I kissed you first and you gave me that grin
Three years gone by and we both aren�t the same
So its best to leave and stop playing this game

I tried so hard
To make things right
But things don�t quite
Work out as they might
In our dreams

I tried so hard
To make it right
But now I�ve lost
This epic fight
Emily

Do you ever think how it could have been
Instead of slamming doors if we kept them open?
But we locked ourselves in the darkest room
And my discontent started to bloom

Now I want to get out by myself
But you want me here all to yourself
The times we�ve had I�d never trade them for gold
But you�re not the one with whom I want to grow old

I tried so hard
To make it right
But I could not
Try as I might
Recently

I tried so hard
To make things right
But now I�m lost
I�m out of sight
Emily

RIP LeRoi

martin6 — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 08:52:36 GMT

This one was mostly done but I wrote a few lines for Roi tonite. It's almost like I wrote this for him in advance (I've been working on it for a month now), and it's kind of eerie. And now it's finished-- the music goes with "New Song" on my music myspace profile.

Breakdown

When he�s sitting right beside you
Can�t you tell you�re still alone?
But can you seek your path without him
If he�s still clinging to your bones?
You long for him to be here
While you�re gazing into the mist
And then you feel him disappear
Like that last lingering kiss

You tried to not be noticed
For so long you lost yourself
It wasn�t so much living
As it was drowning without help
You credit him with saving you
And pulling things together
But now there�s nothing you can do
Feeling more invisible than ever

You know it�s better to leave than to be left
The curtain falls and we are all left wondering
How to make it when we�re feeling bereft
But listen closely and you�ll hear him playing

Cold floods heavy over you
Knocks you flat and steals your breath
The fog that shrouds your figure
Is as good as icy death
What hope you held for his return
Was no match for fate�s grand plan
So watch now as the memories burn
Inside the flames you fan

Sometimes you�re crazy and they say that�s okay
Lose your mind and they take pity on you
Another breakdown on another long day
Come to find that there is nothing you can do

Creativity is Frustrating

martin6 — Thu, 15 May 2008 08:44:19 GMT

Another one that has music I just can't put down when I sit at my keyboard... :( I wrote this two whole years ago.

Fantasy Reality

You and me on a new adventure start
I�ll do mine and you do your part
To restart a dormant relationship
The music�s on and I place my hands on your hips

Side to side we rock to the lazy beat
Lean closer and our hungry lips will meet
We�re swirling in the taste of each other
Our hearts have now begun to recover

We�ve been apart for so long that it�s not right
And if I told you we�d be dancing here tonight
Would you look at me with that inquiring grin
And ask me what fantasy I�m living in

I can promise you I�ll be forever yours
I�d love to hear the same from your angelic chorus
Just say to me what is on your mind
And tell me that this happens all the time

For now we dance as if the night would never die
As if we could never say goodbye
Your eyes tell me that there�s nowhere I can hide
I�m not a man without you, my love, inside

We�ve been apart for so long that it�s not right
And if I told you we�d be dancing here tonight
Would you look at me with that inquiring grin
And ask me what fantasy I�m living in

Roll back the clock to when we were alive
Before our lives took that nosedive
Tonight we are lovers in the past
Let this dance go on, let it not be the last

We�ve been apart for so long that it�s not right
And if I told you we�d be dancing here tonight
Would you look at me with that inquiring grin
And ask me what fantasy I�m living in

You and me on a new adventure start
Forget long ago and love me with your heart

An Oldie But Goodie

martin6 — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 07:30:31 GMT

I wrote this over a year and a half ago, but I kinda like it still. I've got a good tune in my head-- of how it should sound. But I can't figure it out when I try and play it on my piano. Oh well. Maybe someday...

What I Am

I�m not myself today
Could it be you made me this way?
I push myself inside
Could it be you like me to hide?

Oh, what I am�s not what I am
When I�m around you

I hate myself today
Could it be I�m just that ugly?
I lie awake tonight
Could it be because I�m untied?

Oh, you don�t deserve all this hurt
That I�ve caused you

Now I�m wondering why
I can�t just talk to you
I�m wondering why
You and me aren�t through
But every night
I wish you said something nice
And every night
I wish we weren�t living lies

Oh, what I am�s not what I am
When I�m around you

You have something to say
Why do you have to say it that way?
You act like you�re abused
But why do you make me feel used?

Oh, I don�t deserve all this hurt
That you�ve cause me

I change myself for you
But that�s not what I want to do
I�m mean and angry
And that�s not how I want to be

Oh, what I am�s not what I am
When I�m around you

Now I�m wondering why
I can�t just talk to you
I�m wondering why
You and me aren�t through
But every night
I wish you said something nice
And every night
I wish we weren�t living lies

I�m not myself today
Could it be you made me this way?
I push myself inside
Could it be you like me to hide?

Oh, what I am�s not what I am
When I�m around you

I made you sad again
It�s the only way that I can defend
Against your wicked words
I make you bleed because I am hurt

Oh, you don�t deserve all this hurt
That I�ve caused you

Oh, I don�t deserve all this hurt
That you�ve caused me

Oh, what I am�s not what I am
When I�m around you

I�m not myself today

Gallery Revamp

martin6 — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 07:40:49 GMT

What happens when I get bored on Sunday nite? I watch "There's Something About Mary" and tinker with my gallery.

Chasing You Away

martin6 — Tue, 27 Nov 2007 09:36:52 GMT

Here's the final version that I stayed up til 4 a.m. writing.

Chasing You Away

You come out of nowhere, just when I think I'm over you
It's like you're right here, but when I try to reach out you disappear
The irony is that you've stayed although you left me babe
And you're busting through my mind, digging up old memories
You�re the ghost in my heart, with something more to prove to me
I don�t know what it is, so I try to chase you away

Remember the dreams we had shared that day
When we were lost in each others' gaze
We were young and fresh and times were good
I had it good...
What happened then I couldn't say
You disappeared, and let me wait
Our time was up, you let me go
Why does your face haunt me so?

I can�t bear to recall what made you look so good to me
Cause you�ll never become more than a just a vivid dream
My eyes are clenched shut, so I can squeeze you out of my life
I�m trying so hard to see through your shape into the dark
And one day I�ll find that you�re far away, forever gone
Until that day dawns, I�ll keep chasing you away

You were a victim of my inner fear
Though I did my best to keep you near
On top of my game, I lost it all
I lost it all�
While I�m standing on my own
Reaping the seeds that I have sown
My heart weighs heavy on my head
It would be easier to cry instead

You come out of nowhere, just when I think I�m over you
It�s like you�re right here, but when I try to reach out you disappear
You�re the ghost in my heart, with something more to prove to me
I don�t know what it is, so I have to chase you away

A Work in Progress

martin6 — Tue, 27 Nov 2007 07:36:21 GMT

Chasing You Away

You come out of nowhere, just when I think I'm over you
It's like you're right here, but when I try to reach out you disappear
The irony is that you've stayed although you left me babe
While you're busting through my mind, I try to chase you away

Remember the dreams we had shared that day
When we were lost in each others' gaze
We were young and fresh and times were good
I had it good...
What happened then I couldn't say
You disappeared, and let me wait
Our time was up, you let me go
Why does your face haunt me so?

Man in the Rain

martin6 — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 03:53:24 GMT

There�s a man in the street with his head hanging down
He�s been walking for miles just to get across town
And he�s braving the rain, though on his shoulders it pounds
He sidesteps the puddles that fill dips in the ground
His face is unsettled, his lips form a frown
Even though he�s on land, he feels he might drown
But he keeps trudging on to the place where he�s bound
He won�t stop to dry off and he won�t fool around
Because making his goal is what it�s all about
He doesn�t even hear the man behind shout
And all of a sudden, he�s turned inside out
The jumble around him is all just too loud
He looks up to see a gathering crowd
As his eyes darken, he hears a faint sound
Instead of his target, an angel he�s found
And he wishes to God that he�d driven across town

Still Alive

martin6 — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 06:04:08 GMT

Still Alive

I take one last sip
Make it heavy and grand
Then I let the bottle slip
From my booze-soaked hand

She got no one to hold
To cuddle with in bed
No shelter from the cold
No one to stroke her sleepy head

I sit on my rooftop
Searching the heavens for her
Maybe next to me she�ll stop
And clear my drunken blur

She pulls up her covers
To the top of her ears
Hopes the warmth hovers
Like my body so near

The dew falls upon me
As I rise with an ache
My head spins wildly
Spins my stomach can�t take

Her bed seems so small
No room to the sides
Afraid she will fall
She won�t close her eyes

While I lay sleepless
Gaping up at the skies
Let me know that she�s still alive
Somewhere out there

And when she curl up in a ball
Her wet eyes straining for mine
Let her know that I�m still alive
Right here

Yet another

martin6 — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 02:29:42 GMT

Second Time Around

I just left town
Fanfare and celebration
You kissed me goodbye
And wept as I walked away

Things are so quiet now
A way they�ve never been before
You wander the halls
Hoping to hear my footsteps

So while I am gone
I want you to think of me
I won�t be long
The sun will set and I will return

Lovely lady
I gave you all my joy and sorrow
So feel just one
The happiness that you gave me

Listen to me
You haven�t missed a thing
I�ll bring you there
Just wait until again you see me

But while I am gone
I want you to think of me
I won�t be long
The sun will set and I will return

Until I come home
I want you to think of me
Life will go on
The sun will rise and I will return

I came to you
Naked, alone
But you held me close
You let me grow

Now I stand tall
Stand proud and smile
You cried for me
Miss me not for I will be there

Cause while I am gone
I want you to think of me
I won�t be long
The sun will set and I will return

Until I come home
I want you to think of me
Life will go on
The sun will rise and I will return

fresh little ditty

martin6 — Thu, 08 Mar 2007 06:10:14 GMT

Just made this up 2 nights ago.

Growing Up

Girl runs off to school
In front and behind her
She�s swinging her arms
Skips down the sidewalk
When she�s happy she thinks she
Won�t ever grow up

Pup sniffs out a vole
He trots back to mommy
A present for her
Wagging his tail
Dog�s proud of himself but
Mom hopes he grows up

Upside down, outside in
Some you lose, some you win
And we�re with you my friend
All the way to the end
If you hang your head low
I just hope that you know
Not to empty your cup
Cause we�re all growing up

Man trudge home from work
Hates his job but needs to
Feed the hungry clan
Sinks into the couch
And daydreams about his
Three kids growing up

Guy gets out of bed
Late for work once again
And he can�t pay the rent
When he can�t find his pants
It dawns on him late that
It�s time to grow up

Upside down, outside in
Some you lose, some you win
And we�re with you my friend
All the way to the end
If you hang your head low
I sure hope that you know
Not to empty your cup
Cause you�re just growing up

Woman picnics outside
Dollar off her sub, she�s
Content with the price
Eats it in the park
With sweet-smelling buds of
The rose growing up

Upside down, outside in
Some you lose, some you win
And we�re with you my friend
All the way to the end
If you hang your head low
I just hope that you know
Not to empty your cup
Cause we�re all growing up

another one

martin6 — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 23:32:58 GMT

This is called A Million Times, and it doesn't have any music with it yet. Once I get it all working, I'll post Father's Dream's music in mp3.

A Million Times

Were you wondering if I�d go along?
Stand here as if nothing�s wrong?
A million times I�ve carried you through
A million and one now it�s back to just you

It�s all on you

I am the waves that crash at high tide
As you walk the beach, I�m the sand in your eyes
I am the bricks strapped on your back
As you climb the hill, I�m the breath you lack

It�s all on you to make me right
It�s all on you to keep me light
It�s all on you to change my mind
It�s all on you to rewind time

I am the dark creases in your face
As the tears well up, I�m your fall from grace
I am the despair that you just can�t stand
As you reach for hope, I�m the sand in your hands

I am the lightning that strikes nearby
As you run for cover, I�m the thunder that fills the sky
I am the chains wrapped around your legs
As you struggle free, I�m the screaming in your head

It�s all on you to take a breath
It�s all on you to avoid our death
It�s all on you to change your mind
It�s all on you to just unwind

Now I�m wondering if you see me hurt?
As I listen to you dish out your dirt
Your mouth makes me so sick and sad
You take away my happy when I�m feeling glad

Were you wondering if I�d go along?
Stand here as if nothing�s wrong?
A million times I�ve carried you through
A million and one now it�s back to just you

It�s all on you

New song I wrote

martin6 — Thu, 22 Feb 2007 06:52:56 GMT

I've got music that I play on the piano, but I don't sing yet.

Father�s Dream

If my blood should drip from my hands one day
I�d feel like I�d proven my worth
My passion would break the skin and make its way
To fall unto the Earth

Let the blood fall from me
As I wake from my father�s dream

If my sweat should glisten on my body one day
It would show you how hard I�ve tried
To become the man you�d always say
I could be before I died

While this sweat drips down me
I wake from my father�s dream

Father, your blood falls upon my cheek
Rain, rain
And when I�m drenched in your blood
I realize my father�s dream

If my tears would stream down my cheeks one day
I could show you how I feel
For the laughter and peace I see in your face
And the power that you wield

Father, your tears fall down on my cheek
Rain, rain
And when I�m drenched in your tears
I realize my father�s dream

If the words could fall out my mouth today
It would let you listen to my soul
You could see through my eyes and it may
Fill in this ugly hole

Let the words come from me
And wake me from my father�s dream

Here it goes...

martin6 — Thu, 22 Feb 2007 06:51:28 GMT

Okay, so for anyone who does stumble upon my corner of the world, I've got some stuff for you to read. Tell me if you like it or hate it or what, I'm open to comments. Thanks!